u/Fearless_PineaplleOG

hope it a fit

ever other program says i too high needs need too mutch assistance autism too severe etc

mine freind says she hear it a good place for with ppl like me with very high needs autism and stuff

i hope i finally get it

i so bad tired of get rejected

i also had very bad day today

im am sick from the other girls in mine house i think

i had 3 number 2 accidents and leaked thru incontinence protection 2 times once this morning and then early afternoon and mine aide not had extra pants so o i went thru the hole afternoon in wet pants and even got pointed at ans made fun of at the library it was so upsettong

and later i had a screaming crying public vocal stimming meltdown because of loud firetruck sirens honking bad bad bad

and then later when we was going home a mean jerk head in a car on perpose sped up and splashed puddles and soaked us in water but i got coverd and the worst most worst part was mine shoes gotted completly sopping wet squeaky inside no socks on felt very sensiry bad it was so terrible it maded me cry alot the entire rest of the walk home

and when we get home the fire alarm went off an i didnot no what too do an i was the last one out cus when the firemen did a sweep they found me standing there confused and they told me go outside with eveyone else so i follow them out but eventually they sayed we can go back in but i just donot no what too do in emergencys

today has been so terrible it has just been the most worstedt day ever it feels like

i hope tomorow a better day

its so hurtful i do nothing too these ppl and they say terrible untrue things about me and are mean so bad and its terrible

for example

people online on r/childrensbooks saying im a pervert a creep a weirdo and shoud be embarrassed too reed picture books and take pictures of picture books an post mine books i reeding in a subreddit about picture books even tho o i explain o i have intellectual disability severe level 3 autism and am unable too follow or understand any picture book that has more tha 1-2 senteces and medically mine developmental and mental age is very very very low

its so mean these ppl an hurts mine feelings so so bad

o i had a terrible meltdown last nite cus these ppl an headbanged until i hurted mine head very bad and this afternoon its still wet

https://www.reddit.com/u/Fearless\_PineaplleOG/s/jrSdz9UWpq

why us is ppl on reddit sooo mean and says horrible things for no reason especilly too severely disabled ppl like me???

i have strugled with autism catatonia on and off

i freeze up and get stuck frozen posturing and sometimes feel extremely slow like im am in slow motion or get stuck in loops canot respond even when people prompt me i canot respond and canot eat or feed mine self

its scarey

it happened again today i got stuck posturing frozen in place and eventully was able too move but it felt like i was in extremely slow motion.. i coudnot respond too prompts i had too be physically prompted

im am feeling better tonight thow

I told mine mommy and daddy about it and daddy says he hopes it works out and that it sounds like a good program and fit for me and mine mommy sayed too me this: "Sounds like it might be beneficial for you. You're right..... just keep looking on the bright side of things. And remember to smile often"

Does anyone else in here go too day habilitation/day program for adults with very high support needs/severe/profound autism/developmental/intellectual disabilitys?

Can you guys tell me as mutch as you can about what you program is like and what you guys do please? i wanna nowe so i will feel better and less scared about mine program im will be starting soon and have 3 trial days soon

what will the trial days be like?

how soon after them will i start?

i got accepted into a day program finally! after 3 programs denyed me for mine autism and disabilitys being too severe And high needs

i was told they woud put me in community based day support at first but then they learned about mine support needs and struggles and sayed that i would be placed in the day habilitation program which is for adults with Very High Support Needs/ profound/severe autism and intellectual and developmental disabilitys

i feel very scared and shy for mine first day and for when i start i feel like hiding behind mine stuffy frederick and others i feel scared and shy even just thinking about it all now

me got accepted into a day program finally! after 3 programs denyed me for mine autism and disabilitys being too severe And high needs

me was told they woud put me in community based day support at first but then they learned about mine support needs and struggles and sayed that i would be placed in the day habilitation program which is for adults with Very High Support Needs/profound/severe autism and intellectual and developmental disabilitys

they sayed i will be in day hab eapecialyu cause im am incontinent and need help other people changing me and checking me and telling me when i need too be changed because i have very poor interoception and canot feel mine body very well and helping with the tapes and cleaning mine body and also because of mine underdeveloped motor skills due too hypotonia, DCD, Fine motor dysgraphia and needing help with all adls and other stuff

the day hab doesnot have community involvement and volunteering like the community based day supports does cause we are not independent enough for that stuff sadly

but they have occupational therapy physical therapy speech therapy and more and they do arts and crafts too work on motor skills they help learn how tie shoes how contact 911 how do many skills and things

and hopefully i can make freinds with others whos is like me

mine dds worker says if i learn how too change mine self and nowe when im wet or dirty and can tell and do the tapes and clean mine self and everything then they can think about putting me in the more independent program but i also have too learn how too do all tha other adls and skills and motor skills stuff and stuff and not elope and not have constant meltdowns and sensory overload and not eat stuff im am not sposed too and more

i not nowe how realistic it is that i will be able too do all that if its even possible at all....

i worry about being infantilised because im am so severely disabled but sometimes too i need ppl too talk slowly with me and use simple words and language and explanation and be understanding and compassionate and stuff. i just most of all want people too respect me and treat me like a human who has thoughts personality and rights and i can communicate with mine AAC well even tho im am nonverbal

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I told mine mommy and daddy about it and daddy says he hopes it works out and that it sounds like a good program and fit for me and mine mommy sayed too me this: "Sounds like it might be beneficial for you. You're right..... just keep looking on the bright side of things. And remember to smile often"

i just wanted too share all with you guys about me finally finding a good fit!

also

Does anyone else in here go too day habilitation/day program for adults with very high support needs/severe/profound autism/developmental/intellectual disabilitys?

ever day for me when we go out either in the car or bus or other stuff and outside i gets overstimulated

i also have meltdowns ever single day

theres nothing no way that i have been able get round this

its just not possible for me

it makes me uncomfortable when people self identify as level 2 or level 3 without properly being diagnosed with that especially when they were diagnosed as level 1 etc

and this person for example has said they work a full time job, live in there own home independently, and have graduated speciality medical college, has a wife or partner, a full social life, and is high masking and donot have support at all

and yet they still claim too be level 2/msn

this is the same person by the way who has repeatedly told mods too ban me or mute me immediately after i display any traits of having high support needs autism

i have not seen a single person with level 2 that is able too do all of that with no support

i have also seen a person in the same community self diagnose as level 3 autistic when they were completely independent with no communication struggles

that is one of the things i donot like about other autism communitys online

it is full of people who are either not diagnosed or are diagnosed with level 1 and who say they are level 2 or level 3

it makes me feel very uncomfortable

Is this what freindships are supposed too be like? are they typically one sided?

i made a new close distance irl/ online freind recently i not have much experience with freindships irl

the last few times we were gonna hang out she bailed on me repeatedly last minute and said too get on then when i got on she sayed she was getting off the game and didnot want too hang out

i waited and waited for her and she kept making up excuses

also she is always asking me for emotional support or support when she needs me but barely talking too me when i want too talk too her but i seen her talk too other people just fine

and shes always playing online games with other people but everytime we have plans too hang out and play games she always ditches me or cancels at the last minute

she says shes lonely and wants freinds but she rarely hangs out and only relly talks too me when she needs something

shes like mine second irl freind ive had

im am inexpereinced

is this what freindships are supposed too be like?

it feels one sided is it?

i have higher needs autism

TL;DR i made a new freind and she almost never hangs out with me and she makes excuses and barely talks too me only when she needs emotional support im am inexpereinced with freindships irl and want too know if this is normal?