u/Inevitable-Box-4751

I eat my apples from top down including the core and stem. There's barely any difference in texture of the core from the rest of the apple outside of the seeds. And I eat the seeds too. Unless someone is eating like 40 apples at once there is no way you are eating enough seeds to get cyanide poisoning, if anything you are building tolerance and stronger stomach acids. The core is more nutritious anyway. It is so much more convenient to eat the whole fruit, there's no trash leftover so it makes for a good snack out the house instead of something prepackaged or even a Banana. Orange. Too many peeled fruits, and then a bunch of other fruits you end up with a big wet seed to throw away. I don't have to wash juice off my hands after eating an apple because I eat the core, and my hands don't get sticky because there is always skin. Unless it's a particularly juicy apple. Apple is not my favorite fruit but it should be eaten in its entirety. You don't even have to sit and wonder "wow that's so crazy" literally just buy a single apple for like 25¢ at the store, and eat it from top to bottom you will see!! You can literally do this today!! Stop throwing away apple cores it's so much garbage!! Be more like horses.

I see a lot of people say 42 has a really high markup (I didn't think it was esp compared to say, LolitaWardobe) but I really don't want to deal with tariffs. I haven't bought from Taobao directly since '24 I think... Is it that bad or is it dramatized

I perceive it as:

Man → cis man, trans man

Woman → cis woman, trans woman

There's probably a million other identities that'd fit either or but for the sake of simplicity I'm not mentioning all of them. Personally I am non-binary myself, so I come into contact with a conversation from the queer community pretty regularly. It could be a me thing, but when I see people talk about inclusion for trans people socially, it comes across like trans people wanting to be included the same exact way cis people are.

Like for example, cis person wants to make a peer support group for their gender, don't really think that hard about the fact trans people exist, and then later specify that they meant that they wanted a peer support space from other cis people. Then the trans person who got excluded because of the lack of foresight might go on about how they should be allowed in x group with the other x gender people.

In that kind of situation, I don't understand why it would be a problem for different groups of x gender to seek out other people of x gender. Is it rude/ignorant on the cis persons part not to specify? Yes. But then being like "I want to other cis x here" doesn't really impact the trans person being that gender. I don't think transgender should really be boxed into the same groups as cisgender even if they're the same gender because being trans isn't at all the same as being cis, sometimes borderline spiritually so depending on the person. I feel like they just mutually exist as different versions of manhood or womanhood, especially when crossed over with sexuality differences. To me there should be more added spaces for trans things instead of just making perfect intermingling with cissness (or being idealized into cissness) as the default.

I find it pretty common when I end up in a conversation where a foreigner is going on a long string about America or something, I mention being Black and they start talking to me differently or even walking back statements. Obviously everyone thinks Americans they really just mean White people (or Natives sometimes). People have asked me really specific questions about like, hair or food and I'm like "I'm black" and they're like "nevermind then" LOL

Not even just online either. In hs I was at a majority white private school. One day I passed by the music room and geeked out because someone was playing touhou songs and it was one of the international students. We had fun but he was like "the Americans don't know these" 💀 I do man...

It's like controlling everything manually but the breathing just feels really burdensome so you start taking breaths every 20 seconds or so until it stops

Edging should not just be considered a kink, but as a lifestyle to regularly practice.

In modern day, people are often bombarded with having constant access to everything. Afterpay services so you can buy something immediately, meal delivery, same day shipping, produce available outside it's growing season, texting. If you have a craving, or really any desire, you are encouraged to pursue it and have it then and there. Things like this are bad for your brain. It makes it mushy and sad. Therefore you should edge yourself on a regular basis.

When I edge, voluntarily or not, the end point of the journey is almost always so much better than the alternative. Overtime, I noticed how much edging improved my bodily health and mood. So I decided to apply it to other things. Only eating my favorites once in awhile, watching just a few episodes of something instead of binge watching the whole series, my favorite makeup items, literally anything. Sometimes I'll mention wanting something and my friend will just suggest I get it, meaning to be supportive. I appreciate it, but I wish I could just say "no I'm withholding this good thing from myself to edge it out" because the normal assumption is that depression is overtaking my life again and I am actively torturing myself. I am not. But if other people tried it I think they'd also find themselves appreciating life and finding spark in the flow of time again in a world that basically homogenizes our existence.

Indomie seasoning + buldak noodles + way more toppings

I have autism and struggle with transitioning tasks. Sometimes I take sink baths or wash up with a pitcher and basin in my room, maybe some perinatal spray afterwards to follow up. I still take regular showers, but its hard on a schedule. I feel weird for taking the sink baths sometimes but it's better than being like, dead depressed and dirty.

I started sleeping with some of my crystals (lapis, selenite, meteorite, mahogany obsidian, amethyst) and I feel like it's really improved the quality of my sleep but I've been having really vivid apocalyptic dreams. This doesn't really bother me but is there a possible reason why like the crystals energy or something?

I've shifted before. Not really into it at the moment but during my last run I was in the process of figuring out a more concrete method for shifting help that isn't "jUsT sHiFt" or "eASy aS bReAtHinG". If you say those things to people low-key fuck you lmao

This is some of the old stuff I've written on stuff I did during downtime.

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Mental Exercises for Shifting and Lucid Dreaming

I think of shifting and lucid dreaming similarly to exercise. It's like a muscle you keep in shape. If you've stopped shifting for a long time, or LDing, then you're probably familiar with the feeling of trying to come back to it only to draw blanks.

Memory Cycling

This aims to help you get used to shifting awareness to the other place. You can adapt this method any kind of way, but here's the basics.

Past → Present → Future

Start by getting comfy in any position, say it's laying on your left side in bed. Stay like that for a while and then move into a different position, like turning to your right side. Now you must try and remember the details, feelings, and the sensations of what it was like laying on the left side a few minutes ago. What did your body feel like? What did the room sound like? Things like this, imprint them into your mind and go through the details.

Why do this?

Remembering the past is similar to focusing your awareness on that other place. That other place is no further from our mind than trying to remember the past is. When you changed positions, your orientation in this reality adjusted with it. Your awareness changed, but despite the fact that it's not happening right now, your mind still recalls an experience that's not currently happening. Sometimes we get so lost in our heads thinking of our memories we might even lose focus of reality right in front of us for a few seconds. This is the “Past → Present”.

Now you move to “Present → Future” the same way. Say we're still laying on our side, we now picture laying on your side in that other place. The weight of the blanket, the hum of electricity in the walls, the pillow under your head, picture and understand those elements the same way you pictured laying in a different position. Just ask small questions and answer them simply without ruminating too much. The goal of this isn't to make you fully aware of the other reality (though it can), but it's to help your mind get used to knowing the experiences of an awareness it's not currently experiencing.