u/PollyPiper11

Sorry this is so long..and a bit all over the place but attempting to explain best I can:
So around 8 years ago I went through a traumatic, but spiritually awakening experience with a group of people who were not doing very safe spiritual work and attempting to heal other peoples trauma through Chanelling work..During the process they brought up various traumas and since then I’ve been trying to heal from ptsd not only ftom the trauma brought up but ftom the group itself and spiritual processes they used. It took me years to recover from this and I never truly recovered, mainly due to some of the trauma being false involving my own family. Long story but I went through a lot of retraumatization and trying to heal things with my own family.

So, back to the present day..Im living currently in a not good situation, after multiple attempts to move on with my life I haven’t been able to :(
..most recently in the past few years I’ve been working with my aunt on soul work. The last few sessions I had with her we did this soul-mind-body alignment. A very intense process thst lasted over weeks..i genuinely felt like I was losing my mind/highly traumatized brain/constant sense of not being here, head numbness, complete shock, physical sensations all over my head and inside my actual brain. This went on for weeks. Honestly i do think whatever happened it has completely changed my brain. I no longer can resist anything. It feels like just existing with it and I’m searching for my old mind. Most of the time it feels empty like I don’t have a mind or like cotton wool/ and I get these strange somatic symptoms all over head which I think is my nervous system feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I’ve also lost a bit of balance. As in the floor now looks a bit wonky but I equate this to whatever my brain went to. Honestly I know this sounds crazy. But everything in saying is true..Im not delusional :( though I have questioned it that all of this work may not even be what I think it is…but this whole experience has been very traumatic..on the flip side, it was supposed to help me feel my soul, which it has, and Im grateful Ian at least feel that…it’s beautiful…and I feel good energies helping me heal simultaneously but iy is hard to believe it to be true after what happened which the group…but I don’t feel my head :( and I’m scared and I can’t talk to anyone about it.

Im under care of the home care mental health team at the moment. Which is really very stressful but they don’t know the full details of what happened- because most people look at me like oh it’s just anxiety/ptsd. Your brain hasn’t actually changed :( it is my biggest fear. And I’m losing weight, not sleeping, not going out, barely functioning. Hospital and being put on drugs would only further traumatize my already incredibly senstive brain. I cannot put into words how this feels. I dont think anyone would believe me. Literally anything can trigger it to freak out. I can’t be around other people at all ..and all this and snd I may face hospital..and be out on heavy drugs. I think it’s my nervous system is extremely compromised and could take months/years to recover again. I did it last time but after years of work and therapy. Right now I can barely talk without my head reacting. I can feel the nerves in my head shaky and like they need help. And everyday are new and scary symptoms which make it hard to rest/sleep. It’s just a fear of how do I live like this? Can I get better ? Is there a life for me again? The shock of a new mind I don’t know. Any advice/help? The most I can think or is radical self acceptance? How to process all this? I can’t seem to fathom what has actually happened physically to me but I can feel it on a nervous system level, I think my mind needs time to heal, but hard when you have mh team at your door and having to prove to then you see getting better rapidly. And all they do is push drugs on me.I don’t see myself being able to leave the house for a long time :(

Here cos I’m going through some intense spiritual stuff. I have had problems with anxiety and my mental health for some time. Right now I’m scared because Ive had a soul awakening various spiritual procedures to help me but recently when I’ve tried to connect and let go I feel my soul very strongly. And my mind has started doing weird stuff like the sensation is of dissolving/numb/not there feelings with physical sensations also like pain moving around head. I don’t know what to do as I can’t seem to do anything but freak out

I need help. Following a spiritual process of someone aligning my mind /body/soul, my mind has fone completely blank and feels empty 24/7. is scaring me ad isnt going away. It’s just like this now? 4 /5 days of this. I already had a scared mind but it’s like my mind is trying to run away on another layer of the the empty. Then another part is tingling /painful snd changing sensations all over my head.im too scared to go anywhere. Im under the mh team but not got the help. I can’t move a muscle as I’m too scared and hospital would be thé worst place for me. I don’t know I feel medication would be more damaging gor me as I’m afraid of it and dont understand what has happened to . I think is intense fear and trauma of something happening to my brain, I just want to feel it again :( I’m so so scared

So I’m really quite distressed. I’ve been on spiritual path for years now, even though have ptsd from a high control group, it did actually lead the way to open up my soul. The thing is I don’t think it was ever meant to be opened. Then with the help of my aunt did all this clearing work to clear soul of past trauma do it was renewed. That was hard but ok. Fast forward years later, I had a mental breakdown following one of her sessions which continued for months but kept on with the work, now in in a very bad state with my mental health and feel like I went too far with the last session of letting go of mind into soul. The practice is about becoming one and being whole (mind/body/soul) do I no longer had to exist in my head- I was getting bad dissociation and my mind started freaking out at everything and jumping out of my body and running away, I couldnt go outside or eat or sleep. The physical reactions to the clearings were intensely painful (tremors, shaking, stabbing, tingling, numbness, clenching, hollowness -all in head 24/7) and I just feel like it went too far. But I continued the work. The last session we had was about letting go of all resistence to being in soul. Which I did, but now I’m incredibly scared and need help as I can’t feel my mind anymore . It’s empty and I can’t feel anything after thst last session ss it feels like it worked on changing my physical brain to align with soul. But then I felt like I was losing my mind. It’s now numb or just empty with a bit of trauma still stuck at top of head , Any help or advice appreciated, I’m really not in good way and don’t even think medication will help, obviously to a psychiatrist this all sounds deluded :( which it’s not as I felt it happening to me, I used to be able to use my mind to help me -by thinking of nice things but now it’s like I can’t even think. It’s all blank. Scared :( any alternative advice or perspective on this hugely appreciated

A psychiatrist from nhs reffered me for an MHA assessment, I did not know this until the community mental health team told me today. Can I decline an assessment ? Or can I ask for the home care team to drop it? I did agree to go with the home care team instead but will they still do the assessment ?I really don’t feel that it is the best thing for me, when I could go home and be with my parents and go privately. I have huge issue with other people coming and going from my house and all this is adding to fear and making it worse for my recovery.

Desperate here. I have all these symptoms of physical pain in my head which have gotten worse over time these include:

Buzzing, tightening, clenching, locked and hard feeling, pins and needles, numbness, odd hollow sensations, feeling of wooshing and running sensation, energy moving around in head, She thinks it’s anxiety but I don’t know, I get this response when nervous system cant regulate. And it’s terrifying to the point I can’t go on.

So I’m investigating for myself. Wondering what medications have helped you to manage this?
These are only in my head by the way, I think need referral to see a specialist but don’t know who?

TW: mention of suicidal thoughts

I need some help. Ive been unwell with anxiety and insomnia for months. So I decided to go down the spiritual route to heal. The problem is I have trauma with a spiritual group of people which gave me ptsd. Anyway this most recent work was from a family member and it’s made me very unwell. I have vertigo/awful head sensations, cant eat or sleep. I feel like losing mind. I am desperate and don’t know what to do as I’m afraid of everything. I feel like this has messed with my head and I feel confused and upset. The idea was we cleared years worth of pain and rebuild the body /nervous system /brain to align with soul. Cos she renewed my soul -cleared it from past life traumas. Then we did all this work but I dot knoe if it’s helping. My brain feels traumatized and I can’t let go now. It feels like I was meant to be able to do this but I can’t. Now I’m severely not feeling well and don’t want to go on living. And also traumatized by medical world so it’s hard.

Need help write a previous post about TW feeling like I can’t go on. I cant abynore my head is so senstive everything it feels completely stuck in hyper arousal it’s not letting go. I have been traumatized by spiritual work and it’s gone on over and over again. My body cant cope anymore and my brain is hurting constantly like all these horrible physical sensations and it’s just I can’t go on, I cant sleep either and it’s in hyper arousal. I was taking zoplicone which calmed my brain doen but then worse the next day. Desperate

I need help desperate. Did alll this spiritual work which has damaged my nervous system. My head has clenched up and feels like my brain is trying to leave. I feel very unwell traumatized by everything and no idea how to go on, I don’t want to at this point :( I’m seriously considering the worst to point I made plans. The only option i have left is medication but I’ve tried things like seroquel and sertraline that only made it worse. Im wired and dont sleep, been awake for days. Wired brain in shock totally. My doctor has recommended trazodone? But I need something to help the physical pain. Any recommendations?