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So I’m in hospital and having even worse symptoms. What is left of my head feels like a static mess, and it’s like my body and head have merged and I’m this weird flat static thing with no separation between the two. Im scared to take drugs with nervous system so bad. Im really not sure it can repair itself anymore. Also my physical brain feels like it’s changed/collapsed and not there ..thank you for letting me share here, Im really uncomfortable physically and Mentally and Worrued I’ll never be allowed to leave hospital

I recently went through a very traumatic experience with energy healing and it’s made my nervous system collapse gotallyy.. Im now stuck in some half merged state of bringing mind together with body and soul. But I want to undo it as very unwell with my mental health and it’s making me feel (sensations) likr I’m
Constantly losing my mind and I’m scared. My nervous system is not responding ss I’ve been living through this for months. It’s like the healing energy process just scared my frightened mind and anything that meses with my head is devastating

Im in hospital, got sectioned last night so it’s all very distressing. Ive got that dissolving into nothing again . Absolutely terrified. :( and scared and I’m getting sick also. I need help..im tryig to talk to the nurses and lean on them but I’ve just been taken away from my home and it’s terrifying here. Just dissolving and head in severe pain.

This isn’t working for me without medication, I feel no joy, only suffering. So thinking that it should help, I’m on mirtazipine but not sure yet if it’s making it worse or Im just getting worse. Im at the point of hospital admission and hoping not to have to but I doubt it if they see me getting any worse :(

I had it bad last night, it’s like everytime it happens I get more and more delicate and my nervous system gets more and more weak. I felt an outline of the sensations i experience only a few days ago, now everything has shrunken in my world, including my body and things look smaller. My body and mind they went together and haven’t come back yet. It’s kind of like they are maleable and I’m scared to move at the moment in case it gets worse. The only hope I have left is medication cos I’ve started to feel like I’m demented ;( it’s worrying me thst I don’t cope if I can’t start to live a life again soon. I have zero life, everything revolves around my bed my room that is it, I feel at mercy of my body and mind.

I woke up to empty head, no sensation there this morning and all these weird sensations of floating lines above my head. Then I got scared and worked up snd caused what I think is a nervous system collapse..i started to feel nerves and stuff in head again but nothing solid just a feeling of collapse…I forgot to take medication last night and panicked. Because if I don’t I’m going go be sectioned. Im not mad or lost my mind but I’m really struggking taking pills on an empty head..and I act up and freak out at the idea of hospital. My nervous system is destroyed and am worried the pills arent helping me recover.

On a postive note I started to feel my head again- it hurts like really really hurts, and feels like cotton wool /tiny nerves shooting pain everywhere….it comes and goes and dissolves away again. But at least I felt it a bit ..but it feels like my body is small compared to my head and I have a long elongated neck, I only feel the very top of my head so it’s just a bit weird :( I feel like a freak ;( I read there is also this syndrome called Alice in wonderland syndrome and worried I have that too. I also gotta start a medication been putting it off for sleep but now 100 going with it as I think sleep is also affecting things massively.

I missed lasts nights dose but didnt sleep the whole night as I had a migraine. Could I take my mirtazipine now at 6.30am and sleep and take my normal dose at night or bad idea? Il. Supposed to take one dose daily at night but struggling a lot today and think is is best to sleep if possible

Ive had a blank mind and feeling like I have no mind for a month following a traumatic event, I don’t know if I had a psychosis or am at risk but the symptoms are Incredibly disturbing and really hoping I don’t get worse. My mind has been feeling like it’s shrinking :( or not there.

So I spoke to s psychiatrist yesterday who said that msybe I could have psycosis but he doesn’t know for sure -only cos I have muddled speech sometimes. He didn’t know much about this disorder. Cos I’ve got it ongoing - empty head and feeling like loosing mind sensation, I really don’t know. It’s horrific. I tried to explain to psych that energy work messed me up. But he took it as I’m being delusional. The symptoms jn having feel very real snd I really do feel like I’ve lost my mind. It is my biggest fear. And the energy work made me believe it to be true. I now feel like a flat 2d person without a brain and it’s really getting far too much.. Im kinda scared as had a mental health act assessment and they probably going to have me hospitalized soon if I don’t get better ;(

I have this new sensation :( I wake up everyday with it but this one is lasting longer and freaking me out. So it’s like I sense a subtle body - which is mine- but it’s like an outline of my body…it feels like it’s underneath my conscious mind. My mind is above me, and it’s tripping me out as I don’t feel like I’m in thé same dimensión, I am aware of this feeling not being real and my interpretation of what’s really happening probably isn’t thé same, but honestly it feels so real ..like theres a whole other energy field/dimensión above me and Im trying not to think abiut it as I worry I’m stuck in some other world. It’s like walking around underneath earth. It is hell I just want to feel myself back on earth again. It is terrifying, if I lay down usually gets better but it’s when im walking around I start to feel it. Scared it’s like a hallucination but it’s not visual it’s sensory. Then my mind starts believing it..so thinking it’s magical thinking and not true it’s just the way my mind perceived things rn.

I wanted to ask as since around a week I’ve been getting the feeling in my mind that I’m not my myself and it is creeping me out. I think cos I’ve had these totally disabling symptoms 24/7 non stop for months now eventually I can’t cope or my brain isnt coping and I’ve started to think I’m a horrible person. Like I feel quite inhumane:( probably cos the symptoms are so so so hard. And so painful on many levels. By the way..im really not a horrible person when I didn’t have dpdr before. I was quite sweet and kind, strong and had lots of hobbies and was active and outgoing..anyway I’m sad and want her back..the loss of a sense of self and loss of mind/ obviously going to feel like this :(

TW distressing sensation,

What is going on with my eyes :( I feel like they are there but my head is not. Like just my eyes staring out :( When I lay down I feel like a flat penny - my head. Like 2D. I know idea is to not get anxious or it makes the dpdr worse.
What is this, I also no longer have that much anxiety, but my mind/head has let go of the tension and that is scary to me as it feels like loss of control or mental grip. The loss of control snd mental grip, and trauma was what brought on the dpdr. Im very scared cos I can’t go around with this feeling in my head forever. I can basically only lay down all day and night cos if I walk around or stand up my head gets worse and dpdr gets worse and my vision is distorted -I’m starting meds today as I reached a point I cannot cope. Hoping symptoms improve 😔 I literally forgot it was me writing this whilst reading over this ..
Oh dear..

So I’m going through a very scary period where I did all this letting go/spiritual work which has lead me to have a total breakdown and collapse. It has been the most horrific experience of my life and now have DPDR because of it. Terrifying. Before it’s like my mind would escape snd try to leave but now it feels like it’s disappeared totally and it’s very triggering to talk about. It is obviously there still as I am typing but im concerned that this is becoming a belief that the energy work did actually change my mind and cause this feeling to happen. It’s like I have nothing there in my head snd other scary symptoms like mind moving downward into body, I lack mental capacity totally and need help. Worried re schizophrenia or psycosis to be honest. I’m scared to sleep to lose my mind even more snd afraid the mirtazipine I have prescribed will also be too strong on my mind and it wont cope. Like I don’t really feel grounded in the 3D even though I know I am in the 3D, Ive been feeling like I went too far down a spiritual path but I’m stuck there snd dobt know how to get out snd that’s why I’m holding into my mind because my mind and sanity is what will help me get out of this. Sorry that sounds wild. I don’t think I’m deluded but obviously do worry about whether or not all the work my aunt did on me actually was energy work or just my mind freaking out. I think both. Worried it has maybe already got that bad, cos my mind has lost control and grip. And I cant explain thid to a psychiatrist without sounding like I’m deluded. At least it could head that way if I carry on like this. I have mirtazipine to try , hope that helps

Veru anxious as planning to start mirt tonight snd Ive put it off for like a month but I’m getting worse mentally and just feeling kind of unsafe with my thoughts/traumatized snd have DPDR so was anxious for those reasons. And I’ve been feeling like losing my mind ;( did this help anyone with severe anxiety/terror. Im so sensitive to meds that any change to my brain or body at all I freak out. Is this a strong med 15mg? Or soft one? I need to take the fear out of it cos I’m not doing so good mentally and anything that makes me feel like dissolving/letting go is too much. Worrued med may traumatized me further;( As have trauma from past meds and withdrawals were so awful. I said never again :(

Since the event a month ago this is getting worse and worse every day. Today it feels like my body and head are combined rather than separate but its not a good feeling, it’s very scary ;(. It all feels like cotton wool and somehow fake? Like a weird bidy snd mind that’s not mine. I don’t like it :( I just want my old mind back and to feel like me again. Not some weird esoteric distorted version of me. I’ve had enough and am so sad :( I just don’t feel like I exist

Every day there is a new existential crisis and today it is I don’t know who I am, like I’ve lost myself and my mind. Memories are poor, maybe in shock ? My mind feels flat and empty and I don’t resemble myself. I used to dance but have zero memory of it all now really. It feels like another life. One I remember I loved but that’s it. Im now stuck in this horrible place. It feels like in between worlds. Im desperate to get my old mind back, i really think the energy work which traumatized me so deeply did do something to my physical brain. I mean she said it was rewiring snd clearing out all the old past stuff. So I’m confused because either jts dpdr or it’s the energy work did literally empty out my Brain and traumatize me.

I have ptsd, dpdr and severe anxiety ..And probably fibromyalgia, and somatic symptom disorder….pain is mostly in the head.
I was wondering what medications helped you manage the pain and discomfort of rapidly changing physical pain? Is becoming unbearable to live with :(

Just wondering if anyone suffers from migraines/tension headaches and if either of these meds worked for you? I am hesitant with the mirtazipine cos I’ve heard awful things about withdrawals and people taking years and years to taper off even after a short time. But doctors say it’s fine. Im in quite a high risk profile with my mental health being bad and sleep, have dpdr and ptsd too abd a highly compromised nervous system but I’m desperate to try something . In bad way.

It’s really sketching me out ,I feel like a ghost. I don’t feel love for anyone..Ive lost sense of touch. I had a shower and cant even remember having one. I can’t feel my head, it’s like everything is disappearing. In some other dimension that I’m in. I know I’m here I’m very self aware, but it feels like I am in a different reality that is kind of abstract and where my body doesnt feel much either. Is this normal for this condition ?

And I’m so scared I’m losing my mind. It feels horrible and things are still distorted