u/Queserasera_q

As the title says

By "what does it mean", I want to ask the effects it causes on native's life, and how should such charts be interpreted and read.

I won't go into details of what are the issues of my household, all I will say is my parents are NOT evil or toxic. But they are very troubled and life has given them enough trauma which sometimes leads to them being the way they are.

There are also a lot of outside factors ruining the overall situation at home -- finances, health issues of one of the parent...and much more. Inshort, I am mature enough to understand my parents love us, but they are also human first, and humans with a troubled life and past traumas make mistakes.

My brother(17) and I (25) we both love them, but ...things are difficult at home. Me getting the chance to leave and have a shot at my life...is something I know my brother also hopes for. And yet we both aren't saying it or naming it.

Because naming that feeling would mean we both don't love our parents (who've made immense sacrifices to make us who we are today) and are escapists.

He is happy for me I know. I have gotten into my dream college which felt impossible a few months ago. But he once blurted when we were having a chat about my college life there "You can eat 3 meals a day! You'll get access to their gym and bicycles! You can finally live the life!" And then he got quiet.

We both got quiet cause we knew what it meant.... During this entire time, I had always tried to shield my brother from fights of the house, the problems, everything. When he got a little older no doubt he'd see it for it was too, I couldn't hide it forever, but I know it was better for him cause I was there. Now he's all alone.

He said once in his sleep the other day, he wouldn't have accepted in waking, he said he'll miss me a lot.

This would be my first time leaving the house and going away on my own. I am tensed yet excited.

But I feel immense guilt. I know my brother cannot handle my mom's emotion spikes and mental breakdowns and emotionally absent father. I keep wishing my brother had a way out and then feel MORE guilt for thinking of abandoning our parents.

How do I manage it ? It's just too much for me....

Recently I joined a new workplace (5 months ago) and now that everyone are kinda close enough to ask such personal questions. Whenever I say I have never dated or had sex or anything, they are just shocked?

They at first either don't believe me at all ("Are usme kya chupa rahi hai"/"Jooth bol rahi hai")

And when I do manage to convince that I am saying the truth, they start to question my sexuality?! ("You haven't realised you're lesbian"/"You're asexual")

Like what? I don't get it. I am very comfortable with my sexuality, I know I find men attractive. But I don't have to prove it by having a bf or ex??

I always say I was focused on my family (my mom has a chronic illness and needs my time) and my career so didn't think of dating life. They just don't seem convinced.

Actually every girl friend of mine is either in a long committed relationship, engaged or married. And everyone in my office atleast are in a relationship or were in a relationship atleast once. So I DO end up wondering --

And wanna ask is it really that uncommon? To have never dated before in college or school or jobs?

As the title says

As the title says.

Please recommend classes that are reliable, reputed, and have good results.!

And at first I thought this will just be limited to online blogs and written content like articles etc, but just recently I noticed some of the VERY famous and popular Youtubers etc, who give video essays, use phrases like "Not because _______ But because ______" or "Not ______. Not _______. But ______" and use words and sentence constructions the way AI does. And sudden surge of a certain vocabulary that has increased.

What you speak reveals your thought process, irrespective of if one is writing or speaking, the moment I listen to them now, its obvious the thought process, the chain and order of thoughts is SAME.

"Cause, pattern detection, Explicit mentioning and conclusion."

This skeleton is same, just content shifts. It sounds so dystopian as if everyone are devoid of original thoughts and ideas.

I will not name those youtubers as I don't want a war and that is not even the point of discussion, the point is this has increased TOO much and is going out of our hands. Its killing original expression.

Feeling really deeply hurt and broken beyond repair and found this piece relatable so sharing it.

It is the loudest when the person leaves forever, it is the most noise when they give their last effort to stay in your life. You will feel them the strongest, the most bright and totally not possible to ignore. But that will also be the last you will ever see them.