u/RhubyDifferent3576

As a man

I wish to be taken of my sensitivity

I am from Asia.

Ok I want to be honest. I’ve had childhood trauma and maybe I am sensitive by nature .

I easily shed tears. I try to toughen up the brute force but doesn’t work.

I thank my parents for a roof over head , food. But other than that I’ve always been the odd one

I like poetry , reading, observing. But maybe all that’s a joke and I should go for cars watches and fancy trips and fake a life on instagram like everyone else

I get so activated when I get criticised at work and I don’t action things naturally . I am so stupid and unsavable

Maybe I am just weak and I just want to be numb to everything

This is too much to bear

I feel stress daily to see if I did anything wrong or socially appropriate or not.

I don’t know if I can trust my gut …

This feels exhausting I’m going to faint …

My body is shaking

I feel like fainting

I feel like having water flow down from me

I am a man… I shouldn’t feel this way

People pleaser , insecure/avoidant attachment , low self confidence. So much more pain

Why is being spiritually broken so normalized here

Why is everything so superficial. Yes I know money is important but does it really cost my spirit so highly. Literally dk anything else than “money” is this family.

You cannot just and I quote “have money and you will have partner “. That does not solve my insecurities.

God damn sakes talking to AP is like telling cow to listen to flute (Chinese idiom)

We’re such a fucked culture. So locked in and rigid in customs and tradition

Therapy is so expensive. Is childhood trauma inevitable in Asia ?…

Gods pls help me…

PTSD dominates one’s daily life.

Yet to everyone else it’s just I’m being crazy and dramatic and can’t move on simply

This sucks living in two worlds.

Pls idk how to help myself

In fact i don’t think any psychiatrist or therapist knows how to help me from where im from. (Asia)

Half a year not much improved… these alarm bells when I thought (which is automatic ) about bullying trauma

Pls would like to chat

Recently these 3-4 days was having sudden intrusive thoughts and panic attack about it. I wouldn’t say it’s worse than before but it’s still heavy. Idk why I lost composure again

My therapist says it’s 1 Emdr for 1 memory. And I will awkward should I go back for the 2nd time…

Like I know u can see 1 psychiatrist , EMDR therapist , talk therapist at the same time to collaborate better.

But what about seeing 2 Emdr , 2 talk therapist at the same time ? Would this be conflicting ?

The thing is I might be thinking of getting advice from more people to see their perspective.

Cause they say I’m just weird and not focused enough.

“Have a house and food provided, cannot have mental health disorders”

But I am literally described as disabled in scientific literature… I think and action in different ways resulting in difficulties functioning well in this world…

This makes getting help all that harder when everyone thinks you weirdo

Omg 😦

Everyday these memories omfg.

I wish to talk to somebody… my ma and pa will just say I’m finding excuses…

I just got diagnosed recently…

I literally perceive and think differently but I am still expected to be normal. Explains a lot of my struggles but it appears I live on a different planet than APs

I feel so alone as if I have no choice but to be screwed…

A kind gesture, sincere attention to someone speaking, trying to connect to someone.

Do we really need to be defined by rigid social practices and rules?…

I want to get out the matrix, but I know we’re trapped. But I just hope my spirt isn’t .

War, economy, politics, craziness that happens. Gentleness and kindness seem like we can give it…

May all be well…

“What if a stranger randomly starts hitting me ?!!! My mind is shouting “what to do to absolutely stop bullying !!! like it keeps wanting to find answer. And then the mind keeps asking if it doesn’t stop how ? “What if I stand up for myself , and bullying doesn’t stop , and they just keep doing it? Laughing, taunting? , What if they decide they want to target ,gang up me?!!, What if after being punished they still hate and target me from behind !!?”

I have been thinking until my brain has deadlock.

I have noticed it now.pls help . It’s due to trauma

“What if a stranger randomly starts hitting me ?!!! My mind is shouting “what to do to absolutely stop bullying !!! like it keeps wanting to find answer. And then the mind keeps asking if it doesn’t stop how ? “What if I stand up for myself , and bullying doesn’t stop , and they just keep doing it? Laughing, taunting? , What if they decide they want to target ,gang up me?!!, What if after being punished they still hate and target me from behind !!?”

I have been thinking until my brain has deadlock.

I have noticed it now.pls help . It’s due to trauma

I’ve noticed I don’t eat as much now after few weeks of this medicine.

Adult male now. I still have trauma from bullying in the past.

I want to date , find a partner, but I’m scared of being bullied…again. And be seen as pathetic by girl

But this lonely life is killing me too…

Yes I was bullied in my past resulting in anxiety issues

I don’t like conflict

I don’t handle stress well

I don’t like watches , cars, all the things that is glamorized

I hope to have deep conversations , appreciate simple things in life, beauty in people’s behaviour

But as a man. I need some change to thrive as hsp.

Please tell me how fellow hsp men…

I don’t want my future partner to think me a coward…

Do people know what is a prefrontal cortex ? Amygdala ?

What does your nervous system do?

People with mental health illnesses literally have a different brain structure, therefore their responses to daily scenarios are different.

ADHD or autism literally isn’t your choice .its in built genetic.

Generally do people even know these things ?

Instead of “I’m just finding excuses “

One thing is certain. Ignorance is powerful, or better yet, convenient

I suffer from ptsd from bullying , I did Emdr for the most latest and apparent bullying that I faced, which have reduced in intensity. I thought other bullying memories previously have dissolved

Then today after few weeks , it appears bullying incidents from even before started appearing clearer now in fragments (no continuous motion)and I feel angry and pissed on the incident again.

Is this normal ? I think they might be telling me something ?

Everyday hi and bye.

Facing handphone for small dopamine

I don’t think I can take this loneliness