u/Sensitive-Sell-1895

can god pls be kind to me? can god ease my pain? can god ease my suffering? hes the most magical right? can he pls do the magic and make this one thing possible for me? he has made it possible for so many people, can he give this one thing to me? is he angry and upset at me for some reason? i'll be responsible enough to handle it, i promise. can god pls be kind to me. iv suffered sm, ive still held my hopes up bcs i knew that he'd be there for me. that he will hold me, he will take care of the life he gave me. can he pls pls pls help me. i need his help sm. can he pls pls pls be there for me. i need u god, i need u sm.

its painful. it hurts. like hell.

i have this uncle of mine whos educated, smart. loves his kids. take care of their financial needs. talk to them. be there for them. IS responsible. takes care of health of his kids.

i wish i had him as my parent. i wish he took care of me too. i wish someone responsible took care of mee too.

they think im stupid. they wont allow me to do anything bcs they think im dumb. they will hate me for the choices i make. they will never make me feel supported. they will list all the other options to make me feel my choice is trash. i hate it. i hate it so much. im so much better and smarter than them. but they make me feel.so.stupid

how to balance being confident and being humble in front of seniors and professors as a first year?

i don’t like feeling unloved. no matter how hard i try or how much effort i put in, it never seems to be enough, and i always end up being unloved. i’m so tired. i don’t want to prove myself or chase anyone or anything anymore. i just want to be loved. i just freaking want to be loved. for once. by someone. by anyone. i just want to be loved, without having to deal with its grief and loss. is it so tough?

Theres this guy. He used to love properly, Talk to me, say nice things etc etc ages before. But now he has changed.

He ghosts me for days and weeks. Whenever I try to talk to him, its always the 2 words texts. Doesnt bother explaining, and if I act sad he himself gets pissed off. Even after all those efforts i just cannot make him talk to me.

When I should part ways with him, I am giving him even more love, being even more kind to him, supporting him even more. So that he loves me back. Which is so trash. Maybe I was desperate for love, maybe because this was one of my first relationship, and we both know e/o so much, I just wanted to save it.

I have sacrificed my self respect so much just to keep him. I am genuinely tired now. I really want this attachment with him to end, and pack my things and go away. Have never parted ways with anyone, Have never moved on. Pls scold me or something so that I move away from him for my sanity. I really dont want to choose this familiar disrespect anymore.

Also, another horrible thing- But the moment I start leaving the grief and regret hits. Regret of not being better. Regret of not trying harder. Regret of not being someone he'd choose. Shouldn't have trusted the promises he gave, because at the end no one actually mean anything they say. Shouldn't have considered the good things that I considered in him. I was good before that. Should have kept my walls high to avoid this pain. Urgh, So painful breaking up is.

Pads are so painful. They give me the most horrible rashes to ever exist. Even cramps dont hurt itna jitna rashes hurt.

And menstrual cup? That too doesnt go in without hurting, even after the hurt it doesnt fit in perfectly.

This whole mensuration process is so tough. So painful. Pads and cups both hurt, I am starting to feel like something is wrong with my body. I am starting to hate my whole pelvic area, ik its wrong and its making me so miserable.

Womanhood has only one meaning and its tolerating pain for forever kya? I am so tired.

should i burden my parents by taking a deemed college that costs overall 10-15 lakh more for 5 years, but not in a village, good academics, no ragging, no strict attendance rule, dont fail in exams just to get more fees. or a shitty 2025 opened private college thats a jail and strict asf, mid academics and in a village, everything bad bad.

um. the thing is my parents have other kids too. and i have never wanted to do mbbs, my father wants me to do it. so I dont know how i will manage 5.5 years in that jail. is it worth paying 10-20 lakhs more for good 5.5 years? confused.

idk

been reading a lot of painful stuff and my heart hurts now. pls suggest some easygoing kind books that aren't traumatic 🥲

learning how my mom made me hate myself and unlearning that shit is so freaking painful. :')

want to become independent. for which i will have to study. but i dont know how to study and make a career. can someone who has figured this out, or is still figuring help me and teach me how its done. please.

want to become independent and earn. for which i will have to study. but i dont know how to study and make a career. can someone who has figured this out, or is still figuring help me and teach me how its done. please.

I want to be independent and earn for that i have to study. But i have been so away from books since covid, i dont know how to bounce back and literally have forgotten how to study. Can girlies who have figured studying out pls help me.