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POSSIBLE SPOILERS AHEAD???

>!They’re gonna kill Zoe off screen, I’m telling you now!< >!😭!< >!in some kinda car crash or something. She’s supposed to be killed off in like a week to a couple weeks, has it even been hinted at that she’s meant to be going?!<

>!They’ll kill her off screen, her body will be either missing and or unidentifiable, then they have the opportunity to have her return in the future if they ever have a plan for her character. It’s pretty much just a retcon for her character, I feel.!<

I had a hard day at work last night, got home and ate a lot. Then woke up and ate a lot and I’ve just constantly been eating all day. All day. Like none stop.

This hasn’t happened in a very long time. I feel sick. I feel genuinely sick to my stomach. It hasn’t felt like the good kinda eating that I’ve been doing since recovering, it feels like I’m eating and I can’t stop eating.

I don’t know why or how to stop it but I’m just gonna go to bed and hopefully feel a little better in the morning.

This is just a bump in the road and I don’t wanna let this define me. Perhaps after a difficult day of work, my body being in pain, it needed this?

I am so sorry if this is triggering to anyone but I’m genuinely curious.

I’m still very much struggling with body image. I’ve been in recovery for just over a month now and although I don’t believe my body has changed astronomically, I can see the difference and it hurts. Open and honest, it hurts.

I wish it didn’t but it does.

I know that I’m not fully recovered. I still have disordered thoughts- I mean… pretty much like this- and I still feel weak. This means that my body is likely going to continue to change in order to continue its recovery.

When all is said and done, though, will there ever come a time where I can try to >!lose the weight!< if I do it in a healthy, non obsessive way that results in what it resulted in this time?

Again, I’m sorry if this is triggering. I’m an 18 year old boy who’s doing this alone and I’m struggling.

I understand why it doesn’t happen. It’s cheaper to keep the same designs, people don’t like change and stuff BUT I just feel like it’d help shows stay fresh.

Not only that, I feel like it helps audiences stay interested and have the ability to relate to shows as they age.

I’ve noticed that as I’ve gotten older, I’m now 18, I just don’t find shows starring children as enjoyable because I can’t relate to the struggles of the kids anymore.

Not just that though, it always annoys me how inconsistent timelines of shows are. Family Guy for example, changes the ages of its characters wayyy to much. I truly believe, especially sitcom like shows such as many adult animated shows, would BENEFIT aging their characters up.

Sick of everyone denying her status as an All-Star contestant.

It’s literally just based on people’s dislike for her. She made it to the final four, showed physical and mental strength in challenges, had plot relevance, comedic moments and had a large impact on the season she was in.

It makes zero sense to me that people always want Tyler, Noah, Dawn, Anne Maria- all characters I enjoy by the way- in All Stars but they never once made merge, none of them had much plot relevance in their season with the exception of Anne Maria and weren’t good players. People give Noah an edge cause he was smart but other than being suspicious of Al in season 3, the fuck did he actually do 😭

I’ve been in recovery for about a month. My wake up call was the constant feeling of weakness and feeling like I’m gonna faint due to it. It happened a few times, around Christmas, then early summer and then heavily a month ago. I decided I couldn’t cope anymore, went to the hospital and they told me I needed to gain weight.

I didn’t want to at first, tried to think of every other possibility of what it could be. Then, went to work and it happen d again. Had to leave early.

Since then, I’ve been in recovery and I’ve felt a lot better but I’m still sometimes feeling weak and getting these symptoms of feeling dizzy, weak, shaky and as if I’m gonna pass out.

When do you begin to feel better physically?

Everytime I look up Space Beth content- or just BETH content in general- it seems a lot of the comments are about how they dislike both of the Beth’s but specifically the inclusion of Space Beth anytime she’s around.

I don’t get why people don’t seem to like her 😭 she’s one of my favourites on the show

I’m on holiday in recovery.

I’ve already felt quite guilty because of how I’ve eaten over the course of the last 10 days I’ve been here but today’s really hit.

I woke up at 6AM and had a big bowl of crunchy nut, then had a snickers at like 11. Then I had a big ice cream cone with like 6 scoops of kinder bueno ice cream at like half one. Then I had Pringles and cookies at like 6 PM. Then I had a regular portion of chippy chips all to myself and THEN had half of a Donna kebab and some portion of chips because everyone else was.

Like idk man 😭 Idek why I’m posting this, idk what I’m trying to achieve. Maybe I’m just ranting. Idk.

Just to clarify, I’ve been told that my ED was a huge factor as to why I am terrified to spend money. Like to the extent that pennies are hard for me to let go of. I’d only ever spend money on cheap cola to soothe my hunger. Like the cheap, cheap shit.

I’ve been in recovery- or well, trying to be- for a week a couple of days and I’m just wondering if, as well as eating and no longer tracking and counting, spending money ever gets easier. I’ve spent the last 4 years depriving myself of, not just the food I love and experiences around food, but of nice things and experiences because of money.

I’ve just heard that restrictive EDS link to restriction with money. Any advice or help would be great :)

Just to clarify, I’ve been told that my ED was a huge factor as to why I am terrified to spend money. Like to the extent that pennies are hard for me to let go of. I’d only ever spend money on cheap cola to soothe my hunger. Like the cheap, cheap shit.

I’ve been in recovery- or well, trying to be- for a week a couple of days and I’m just wondering if, as well as eating and no longer tracking and counting, spending money ever gets easier. I’ve spent the last 4 years depriving myself of, not just the food I love and experiences around food, but of nice things and experiences because of money.

I’ve just heard that restrictive EDS link to restriction with money. Any advice or help would be great :)

Just to clarify, I’ve been told that my ED was a huge factor as to why I am terrified to spend money. Like to the extent that pennies are hard for me to let go of. I’d only ever spend money on cheap cola to soothe my hunger. Like the cheap, cheap shit.

I’ve been in recovery- or well, trying to be- for a week a couple of days and I’m just wondering if, as well as eating and no longer tracking and counting, spending money ever gets easier. I’ve spent the last 4 years depriving myself of, not just the food I love and experiences around food, but of nice things and experiences because of money.

I’ve just heard that restrictive EDS link to restriction with money. Any advice or help would be great :)

The season would take place after PI, cast of 22.

The returning favourites would be:

Owen, DJ, Lindsay, Leshawna, Duncan, Heather, Alejandro from Gen 1.

Zoey and Brick from ROTI.

Ella and Max from PI.

The reason as to why the gen 1 cast takes up a majority of the favourite team is because they’re the most iconic cast, literally in universe they would be the most iconic cast cause they had the longest run in the show. I see Zoey and Brick being favourites and Ella & Max seem like realistic picks from the shows writers.

The fans team…

Sierra is on the fans. I know she’s a previous contestant but she literally was the biggest fan of the show. After that, you include a range of contestants- different ages and backgrounds to highlight how popular the show was in universe.

Simples and plain! Yay.

Yesterday, I made a post about how easy I felt recovery was coming for me in terms of not counting and or worrying about eating.

I take it back. It’s hit me incredibly hard today.

I think the fact I’m starting this journey whilst on holiday is making it a lot harder because you do naturally just eat a shit ton more when you’re on holiday because the opportunity is there, which there shouldn’t be anything wrong with and I wish there wasn’t but my brain just refuses to let me not think about it.

I don’t know how to combat these thoughts, they’re trying to push me back into counting and I’m scared. So scared.

I seriously hope this isn’t triggering to anyone, I know >!calorie counting!< is a serious issue and a lot of people here are likely still struggling.

I decided four days ago that I needed to make a change. After four years of >!counting, excessive cardio, restriction!< and just making myself miserable, my body has started to cave into itself. I’m weaker than I’ve ever been, I keep passing out, I’m constantly cold, my eyes feel heavy and my doctors are warning me that my muscles, including the ones around my heart could be beginning to deteriorate.

According to the doctors, I am >!underweight!<. They want me to go to a centre to recovery, which I’m more than happy to do. I’ve wanted to for a very long time but have been terrified to try in fear of being told I’m not valid.

I stopped counting calories last Thursday after I almost passed out in work and haven’t since. I’ve probably eaten quite a lot, I’ve kinda been eating foods that I haven’t allowed myself to even touch since I started this. The fact that it seems to have come so easily is making me second guess how severe my case was, though. I thought it was meant to be harder than this.

Don’t get me wrong, it isn’t plain and simple, I’m still thinking about >!calories!< and the fact I’m likely gonna gain- so on so forth- but even tho I’m scared, I just keep letting myself know that the doctors want me to gain and that if I don’t get over this issue I’ll spend the rest of my life miserable, if I even GET a ‘rest of my life’.

Again, I’m sorry if this post is triggering. I’m an 18 year old boy who just wants to get better and be happy again. Please help me.