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I’m going through many changes in my life right now and everything I have learned about this practice just feels right for me so I’m taking the leap and doing it. I met my therapist, she seems lovely and I look forward to working with her. I’m a little nervous about the road ahead but I know ultimately it will be good for me. I decided to get a new journal to keep throughout my journey, think it might help with my processing of events. Id love to hear any advice or stories you might have.

I read Between Two Fires last month and I literally cant stop thinking about it so I’ve been on a quest to find games that feel like it since then. Basically medieval dark fantasy with a meaningful story that explores themes of hope against a backdrop of desolation, bonus if it has sick ass monsters/warped depictions of divinity.

I’ve been playing through the Blasphemous games and so far they have been really scratching that itch but I need MORE. Some other games that I have that might qualify for this are Fear and Hunger, obviously Dark Souls & Elden Ring, possibly Clair Obscur?

Idk whatever this aesthetic is pls just inject it into my veins I need more of this shit.

My partner and I had a discussion where he told me he wants us to live apart when we have to find a new place. I’ve been a wreck ever since. This is the man of my dreams and I want to spend my life with him. In fairness to him, he set clear conditions for us to renew a lease and I didn’t meet them so this entire thing feels like my fault and I cant help but feel guilty about it. He told me that this isn’t forever and he still wants to be with me and this is only while we figure things out as humans and I’m still scared. Up until this point I’ve lived only with family or roommates or partners, so I would truly be starting over again and it would be immensely difficult. I don’t even know where I would begin. He says he believes in me and wants us to work on ourselves so we can start a life and he tells me all of these sweet and nice things but I cant help feeling so sad and hurt. I’ve been crying on and off all afternoon and I don’t know how to move past this pain in my heart and learn how to be a person. I know I’m catastrophizing but I cant see outside of it. I need someone to tell me it’s going to be okay.

I wouldn’t necessarily call myself a Friends fan (I had a period of depression in high school where I watched the entire series in 2 weeks) but I’m rewatching it for my bf and out of all of the characters, Phoebe is the only one I resonate with. Does anyone have any books about a woman who’s persevered against all odds and still maintains a unique and magical way of thinking and is unapologetically herself? Id love to hear your suggestions. Thank you! 🫶

I’ve curated a small horror gaming list to play tonight. I’m only playing one so please vote in the comments! Whatever one gets the highest votes will be what I play. PLEASE do not suggest something that I haven’t already put here. I have a massive horror library so odds are I’ve either: already played it, don’t want to buy it yet or I don’t care about it. Let’s stay on topic. Here is my list.

RPG:

Fear and Hunger
Lobotomy Corporation
Pathologic 2
System Shock

Survival Horror:

Darkwood
Tormented Souls
Penumbra Overture
Slender The Arrival

Indie/Foreign:

The Death (Than Trung)
Pamali
Nightmare of Decay
No one lives under the lighthouse

Other:

Raging Loop
SCP Containment Breach

I’ve had a complicated relationship with my mother both very positively and very negatively for all of my life. This all built up to a definitive climax where she decided to do something that was incredibly disrespectful to me, and I have since cut her out of my life for almost a year. After lots of discussion with my other family members, I decided I was at a point where I feel healthy enough to open that door a little and see what life could be like if we were able to meet again on mutual grounds with some boundaries in place.

We have had a couple of meetings that turned out very positively, but I’m already starting to feel some red flags. She’s been very over the top affectionate and constantly getting in my space and trying to insert herself into situations where she doesn’t belong, which leads me to re-contextualizing things again. I really want to believe that there is some good that can come out of this for both of us, but I cant allow myself to open up only to be hurt again right after healing from something that really hurt me.

So I’m writing this in a space where I’m hoping some people who’ve had similar experiences have advice on how to set boundaries and make a healthy future where both possibilities can exist in the same place. I’m also open to the possibility that I may need to focus on myself once again and take some distance to process this. Let me know your thoughts. Thank you.