u/ayse0001

I'm really about to lose my mind because I can never cope with my emotions. Well, actually I could, but when I pick up a pen and paper, I just can't seem to write down my feelings properly. Yesterday was really awful after school. Though school day was terrible too. And at times like these, I can't help but think about suicide. I feel lonely and unloved. I've written this very confusingly again, but there's nothing I can do about it. Also, I was supposed to go to the school guidance counselor yesterday, but I hesitated a bit and didn't go :/

My screen time was 3 hours and 49 minutes.

I'm really about to lose my mind because I can never cope with my emotions. Well, actually I could, but when I pick up a pen and paper, I just can't seem to write down my feelings properly. Yesterday was really awful after school. Though school day was terrible too. And at times like these, I can't help but think about suicide. I feel lonely and unloved. I've written this very confusingly again, but there's nothing I can do about it. Also, I was supposed to go to the school guidance counselor yesterday, but I hesitated a bit and didn't go :/

My screen time was 3 hours and 49 minutes.

My screen time is 7 and a half hours.

I was home all day and had a lot of free time. In the morning, I wasted a few hours due to lack of planning and wasted time on my phone. Afterwards, I did some exercise, but I didn't do anything related to studying. The reason I kept procrastinating was because I was waiting for someone else to push me. I need to find the strength within myself now. Secondly, I was overestimating the difficulty of studying.

I hope to finish this series at the end of May, and hopefully I'll finish it in a good place and gain something from it. I'm still hopeful and I believe I can do it. But believing and being hopeful isn't enough :D I need to show it to myself with actions too. Good night 💕

My screen time is 7 and a half hours

I was home all day and had a lot of free time. In the morning, I wasted a few hours due to lack of planning and wasted time on my phone. Afterwards, I did some exercise, but I didn't do anything related to studying. The reason I kept procrastinating was because I was waiting for someone else to push me. I need to find the strength within myself now. Secondly, I was overestimating the difficulty of studying.

I hope to finish this series at the end of May, and hopefully I'll finish it in a good place and gain something from it. I'm still hopeful and I believe I can do it. But believing and being hopeful isn't enough :D I need to show it to myself with actions too. Good night 💕

My screen time was 4 hours and 43 minutes. I was very tired after school, but I managed to pray and rest. Starting my studies was really difficult, and I was feeling psychologically unwell. I lacked self-confidence. Honestly, I can't even say I started studying; I just reviewed a little on my own and solved some chemistry problems, that's all.

The root of my lack of self-confidence is comparing myself to my family. For example, when I'm with a friend who has a good relationship with their family, I can't help but feel envious, and I feel like something is breaking inside me.

Anyway, I fell asleep at 10 PM today, and when I woke up at 1 AM, I came here so I wouldn't forget. Good night everyone 💕

My screen time was 4 hours and 43 minutes. I was very tired after school, but I managed to pray and rest. Starting my studies was really difficult, and I was also feeling psychologically unwell. I lacked self-confidence. Honestly, I can't even say I started studying; I just reviewed a little on my own and solved some chemistry problems, that's all.

The root of my lack of self-confidence is comparing myself to my family. For example, when I'm with a friend who has a good relationship with their family, I can't help but feel envious, and I feel like something is breaking inside me.

Anyway, I fell asleep at 10 PM today, and when I woke up at 1 AM, I came here so I wouldn't forget. Good night everyone 💕

My screen time is 9 and a half hours. I'm still in the same cycle.

My screen time is 9 and a half hours. I'm still in the same cycle.

My screen time is 6 hours.

I hardly looked at the screen at all until 6 PM, but after 6 PM, my screen time suddenly disappeared. Since I want to get back to my old routines, I plan to share what I do regarding these routines here every day. Also, I'm still having difficulties socially, but I'm sure things will get better.

My screen time is 6 hours.

I hardly looked at the screen at all until 6 PM, but after 6 PM, my screen time suddenly disappeared. Since I want to get back to my old routines, I plan to share what I do regarding these routines here every day. Also, I'm still having difficulties socially, but I'm sure things will get better.