u/boyinthestars

I know it’s the second month into college but i feel like so many people already have solid groups and i don’t and it’s freaking me out. i want to be invited to places i want to be involved but im not. will this ever change???

Genuinely I have no idea how this happened. I stay away from their stuff completely and I make sure all my guests do as well. this is a trend that has been happening so. they don’t eat in their bed and i don’t eat near their bed so i’m really confused and i haven’t had friends over who were eating either. idk. ugh.

them and my suitemate have been blaming me for a lot that i haven’t done. idk.

I wasn’t made for this. I’m one month into college and I already have a sixty in what should be my best class. I never get assignments in on time. I sleep through so much. I feel like I should drop out and give up. I’m severely neurodivergent and I’m really struggling.

apparently i don’t clean up after myself and i completely believe that. i’m 18F and have severe ADHD and ive locked my roommate out of our dorm twice because we have suites and i came in for five minutes and got my shit for class and shut the door because i didn’t know that my roommate was in the bathroom that we share. they didn’t bring their dorm key which is fine; i always bring my dorm key because ive locked myself out a few times and because we’re supposed to bring it with us everywhere but also like. idk. they don’t need it to shower. i’m not ready to live with other people. i feel like i should drop out. my dorm mates talk shit about me i’m hearing and the thing is i get it because it’s all my fault. i wasn’t made to live with other people and i should just move for that benefit

TW for: suicidal Ideation with no plans on following through, some NSFW topics, derealization/dissociation

Diagnoses i have to preface just so y’all don’t go speculating: ADHD, Autism, GAD, MDD

So I (18F) moved into college around two weeks ago. I am not ready in the slightest. Physically I’m doing fine—I’m being very responsible, cleaner, I’ve been taking care of my body better, et cetera. Mentally, however? Not great.

I mean I’ve been having fun, but then it becomes nighttime, and I start thinking about how much I miss my mom and dad and my dogs and cats. I still feel like a baby. Like I feel like I’m six years old most of the time, however I also have the physical urges of an 18 y/o female, which makes me feel like i’m betraying myself and i’m not a kid anymore and it freaks me out.

I don’t know if I can handle being an adult. I want my mom. But I like the freedom I have right now, too. I want to drop out of school because i’m so scared and I hate it but also i love it and it’s been awesome. I’m so sad yet so happy all the time and i’m so scared because i’m growing which means everyone around me is growing which means i’m closer to losing them and being alone. so sometimes i wish that i didn’t have to be an adult and that this is it. i could just give up. i won’t because that would hurt my mom and dad and sisters and everyone but i am so so scared of my mom and dad dying and i don’t want to be around for it. i know that’s selfish of me but i don’t think i was born to be a functioning person. i was born to be my momma’s daughter and that’s it.

idk. i know this is unhealthy. please don’t judge me. i’m trying my best. i have therapy tomorrow lol

they only got through one round of the game.

i’m so upset

i wish they had done more coco chanel numero uno smosh games nordstrom instead

18F, I go to art school. I went to bed at 3 AM LOL

i think he’s a funny guy.

when you post your criticisms, the tag says respectful, but yall be calling people annoying, dumb, saying that people should be fired, etc.

like sure you’re entitled to your opinions but why have insults become the norm when it comes to critiquing cast members.

for example, i read a post from the other day that essentially called olivia stupid. that’s really rude 😭

when they’re playing games, they’re allowed to have fun together even if there isn’t much like actual gameplay 😭 isn’t that what we’re watching for anyway? if i wanted to watch someone play ultimate werewolf seriously, i wouldn’t watch a Chosen edition of it. i watched a chosen edition of it because that’s funny.

does this make sense?

Hi! I (18F) am an AuDHD woman who suffers from extreme burnout and executive dysfunction. Yesterday was my last day at work at a summer camp where I would get yelled at on the daily by my boss because of her anger issues. I am moving into college next week. I had a really traumatic few weeks. And my parents are moving out of my house.

I need to clean out my room all by myself. I don’t know how to push through. I already went through my books but i’m so overwhelmed. I have to go through my closet and all my other stuff.

For context, my mother is a hoarder and I have hoarding tendencies. I am so stressed out right now. I would ask my mom for help but she has mono, my dad has parkinson’s, my sister is cleaning out the kitchen with her husband while taking care of my 5 year old niece, and my other sister is in queens. I’m so fucked

On top of that, the list i was given is incomprehensible to my brain.

Please help me.

Edit: Last two sentences

Context:

I am an 18 year old autistic female. I have severe anxiety, ADHD, and depression. I work at a summer camp, where I am a bus counselor.

A few things that have happened to me the past few days:
- Verbally abused by my older bipolar sister (said i was trying to kill my disabled parents multiple times, and then her)
- Yelled at daily by one boss
- Mom has sac around heart
- Had a meltdown at David’s Bridal at my father with Parkinson’s
- sister posted about said meltdown on socials
- Had to miss an endo appointment because I called in too late yesterday
- Went into work today, was yelled at more for not doing things correctly
- Had to reschedule endo appointment, only booking untilJanuary was tomorrow at 9 AM
- was going to take the appt virtual so i could still go in on bus
- wasn’t comfortable with that
- still suicidal
- Texting psychiatrist (who i never text) and begging for help because i feel like im going to crash and burn
- appointment with psychiatrist who says i need a break and writes me a doctors note

i send it in at 10:30. too late i know but i can’t do it. i can’t go into work tomorrow. i will just be harming myself.

boss boss is angry at me because i call in so late and we already talked and i said i wouldn’t but i had to because i felt like i was going to end it all. but i can’t explain that to him. i’m going to cry. i feel so bad.

TL;DR: AITJ for calling out of work due to mental health issues with doctors note at 10:30?

i (18F) can’t pick up my bootstraps anymore. last week my sister, who is thirteen years older than me, had a psychotic break and decided i was trying to kill her. the bosses at my job hate me. i was so excited because tomorrow i was going to take off of work for a doctors appointment but because it was so last minute i can’t. i was going to text my boss yesterday but because im moving as well i forgot.
i’m trying my best every damn day and it’s never good enough. i’m always doing something wrong. it’s always a learning opportunity. i can’t do anymore learning opportunities. i’ve had three meltdowns in six weeks. i’m so tired.

i feel like everything is shit.

bashing my head into a wall and being sent to the hospital would be years better than this

god forbid i have more important things to do than shave 😭 like why do i have to shave but men don’t. i don’t get it

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I (18F) was walking in the pouring, dangerous rain one day when I saw an old woman walking towards me without an umbrella. I offered to walk her home, and she was clearly scared and didn’t want me getting hurt. I asked if i could come inside and call my sister, and she agreed, saying she didn’t want me out in the rain. We spoke as we walked and she told me never to go into anyone’s houses, and i said “yes of course, i just trust you because you’re a girl” (stupid i know). Anyway we got to her house and she goes upstairs while i’m drying things off. Her house is very clean and organized, but there was no one there besides her I don’t think. She’s distressed as hell, talking to me from her kitchen upstairs. I go upstairs to check on her because she’s frantic, and i see her fumbling with her jacket. She walks towards me and asks me to help her put it on, and she is completely topless. No bra or shirt.

Now , my father has Parkinson’s and needs help with his jacket all the time, and it wasn’t like I hadn’t seen breasts before, so I accepted while averting my eyes. It wasn’t working so she put on her robe. Then i waited outside for my sister to pick me up, and she was scared because she thought it was unsafe, so she kept checking on me. One time she went outside with one of her breasts fully out, but my sister got there and everything was fine. She wasn’t a threat to me at all, she was genuinely kind and caring.

Anyway, yesterday while driving i saw her walking into the street with her robe on. I haven’t had a chance to see her again since last Sunday, so I was glad to see she’s alive, but i don’t know what I should do. Should i check on her with my mom?

Edit: Spelling

something that i don’t understand about society right now is the lack of willingness to teach each other about our mistakes. if someone says something bigoted of course its not our responsibility to teach them why that was a bad thing to say, but if they genuinely want to change we can help guide them to where they can learn. we don’t need to cut people off immediately. literally everyone is biased in one way or another, we need to be willing to help work towards a better future by spreading awareness when someone screws up rather than automatically making conclusions. there’s no way to learn to be a better person without being shown that what you did hurt and explaining why. you can explain your intentions, too, because intent ≠ impact and it’s good to know why people do the things they do so that we can tell them where exactly their mindset went wrong.

kindness needs to be applied to everyone when it comes to mistakes

Acting is my passion and dream, but Im going to art school because I love art. Can I still make it? I have a pretty good resume, and I am decently talented.