u/boyinthestars

i wish we could have all of them is there any way to do that

like girl. my uterus needs to stop.

we had so much fun last year. we could do a fantasy theme. i want damien and amanda to play. there were laughs. please. please please please please PLEASE please please PLEEEEEASE

last year’s was so much fun. we all had some laughs. it was lovely. i want more. i want damien and amanda to compete. please. please please please

because her live action actor can’t be more than 25 years old and ragatha joined the circus in 2008 😭 so she was like eight years old???

like guys. you’re just saying shit to say shit. the definition of media literacy is the ability to access, analyze, evaluate, create, and act using all forms of communication. not everyone is going to have the same opinions about the show as you. who gives a literal shit. there are so many more important things to be harping on instead of someone thinking ur fave is ass. you don’t have to defend a fictional character guys. they’re not real.

when people criticize characters/writing, they are literally being literate. They’re analyzing media. Just because ur sad not everyone loves your favorite indie show doesn’t mean you have to call people stupid and dumb in comment sections 😭 like kim, people are dying.

Reuploaded to include links because I forgot to the last time.

[A quick preface on this piece: It’s not great, but i’m feeling a lot of emotions right now and I needed a way to express them.]

Congratulations!

You did it!

You can leave our care!

You don’t push
or fight
or yell
or scream

and we’re not worried about you anymore

isn’t that lovely?

You learn quickly
Not many people do, kid;
you’re special

but not too special

because, kid, now that you’re done
now that you don’t need treatment
it’s all on you

you used to blame your silly ol’ brain
but kid
it’s all on you

because you can’t claim any fancy disorders
or gender dysphoria
you already tried that

no kid
now it’s on you

you’re stable
you know all the coping mechanisms
you’re healthy

so the things that you do now kid

you can’t blame your silly ol’ brain on

and no matter how hard you try

you’ll never get it right

you’re leaving angrier than we first met
sadder
more impulsive
meaner

and maybe you are a bad person now.

but you’re healthy now, kid

we swear it

so it’s none of our business anymore.

it’s all on you, kid.

Congratulations!

now please sign the discharge papers up front
we never want to see you again.

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/7aANgTIwbi

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/5n9MZ6JoWQ

i was born a girl. i used to go by august when i was 14 and 15. i go by my birth name now and i don’t go by august that much anymore but i miss feeling free. i like being a girl but i don’t feel like myself as a girl. i wish i was truly a girl but im not and i dont even know if thats possible. is it possible to be born a girl and wish i was a girl but not feel like a girl? i miss being myself. i miss being august.

i feel like isabel in i saw the tv glow

im so scared

i was born a girl. i used to go by august when i was 14 and 15. i go by my birth name now and i don’t go by august that much anymore but i miss feeling free. i like being a girl but i don’t feel like myself as a girl. i wish i was truly a girl but im not and i dont even know if thats possible. is it possible to be born a girl and wish i was a girl but not feel like a girl? i miss being myself. i miss being august.

i feel like isabel in i saw the tv glow

im so scared

*and stupidity

i’m (suspecting autism, 18F) really sad. today i lost a friend (Jane) of eleven years because i shit talked her friend group (who basically bullied me) for a whole school year. jane is a lovely person. one of the best, for context.

anyway, i remember asking her if it was okay for me to talk about them like that multiple times and she gave me the go ahead. that doesn’t change that i hurt her but it’s there for context.

one of the people i dislike and talked about the most is extremely mentally ill (as in on watch), which is important for later. this girl (Hailey) did a lot of really mean shit to me, as in traumatizing, which she didn’t mean to harm me i think but did anyway because of her illness. i’m not going to go into details but it was bad.

i went to a mental health school for two years and dealt with many people like her, where i learned to see a person’s harmful actions as explainable but they don’t have to be excusable. so, that’s how i saw Hailey.

I was under the impression that Jane also didn’t like Hailey, and that Jane was okay with me talking about this. I came to this conclusion due to what I have declared as positive reinforcement—interacting with the conversation, adding on—and also after clarification multiple times. I decided to stop asking a few months ago because I didn’t want to be annoying, because Jane has explained she doesn’t like being constantly asked if everything’s okay.

there was also another person who used to be my best friend. they were very mean to me as well, and i would diss them as well. we had a long, complicated history.

it wasn’t okay.

i got a text on friday that she was really, really angry. that she had perceived that i had been condescending her, using her to get info (that’s somewhat true, i call her my spy on the inside as a joke sometimes), and downright mean.

the condescension part sucks because i can never tell how im coming across and so i probably was condescending and i didn’t even know

one time i was an asshole i made a joke that was uncomfortable and it was funny but she did not FW that so. that was a rough day.

anyway what fucking sucks is that i never wanted or tried to treat her in that way. but because of my symptoms i wasn’t able to tell i WAS treating her that way, and she didn’t tell me until it was too late.

and then, when i asked if we could talk, she gave back a sarcastic remark asking what about, and only after sending an entire mountain of text did i realize she was being rhetorical, and also digging myself a deeper hole in the “always has an excuse” grave. fun fact: not everyone wonders why someone makes the decision that they did and instead focuses on the decision itself. which i mean. valid.

because i always think everyone is being open to me due to my insistence on the need for communication, AND also because i didn’t realize my shittalking hailey was coming across as bullying her for her mental illness—WHICH BTW. I WAS VERY OPEN ABOUT WISHING HER THE BEST. I HOPE SHE IS DOING BETTER.—i lost my last true friend in my grade. oh also because for some reason i thought jane was okay with me dissing her friends.

i was following my rule set (my behavioral coding lol) and surprise! not everyone acts like that!!!!

i apologized to her a lot and she didn’t accept which is fine but that sucks.

we have ten million pictures together in the yearbook too. so. great. happy senior year.

anyway #makingmistakes i hate learning experiences i want to know everything so i never have to go through this again

edit: i had more stuff to say lol

so for context, i (18f) left my old friend group last year—they did some abusive shit to me (ex gf tried to send me to jail, ex ex bff would give me silent treatment over instagram followings)

i was still friends with this girl, we’ll call her Jane, tho. She’s lovely, a great person. Very kind. however this girl is still friends with my ex group. anyway i would rant to her about the old group and she’d rant to me, about how my ex gf is kind of evil but also needs help so we’re giving her the benefit of the doubt, etc. All of these people have been mean to her, from what I’ve heard. But she says they’ve changed, i say i doubt that, but i dunno im not in the sitch.

Anyway last night i try to text her, asking her how a trip with the old group went, and she dumps me. to paraphrase, she says she can’t stand the way i talk about the old friend group because they’re still her friends.

now normally i’d be ok with this but im constantly asking her if she’s okay with my behavior and she’s never said no. communication is very important to me and i feel like i’ve made that well known, but i also could’ve faltered there.

one time however i did go a bit far—called them all out with a joke, it was awkward, i laughed and thought it was funny. she didn’t, apparently. but hey i get it. sure. also she is constantly giving everyone chances except for me—ie my ex gf; she wants to cut her off and says she’s communicated with her but is still friends with her. i haven’t gotten any warning.

so i apologized and said this:

you know what girl, i truly apologize for making you feel this way. thank you for being honest with me. i’m really sad that i caused you to feel talked down to, that was never my intention but i know intent doesn’t equal impact. and i appreciate that you told me this. to be fair, the old friend group did treat me like shit. but that doesn’t take away the fact that they’re very important to you. i shouldn’t have talked shit about them to you.

anyway. idk what to do now.

i keep seeing some really rude things being said about Amanda, Arasha, Courtney, and Chanse. SOME people here act like they owe us smth and it pisses me off, because they’ve already given so much to us.

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Sorry for the double post lol

Specifically, what I'm looking for are quotes from people who suffer from menstrual disorders/conditions, and how the lack of research on them affects day-to-day life. This is my final project in high school; I'm making a website and a donation drive of period products to I Support The Girls in order to spread awareness about these conditions, and I would like to hear from real people. If you do send in a testimonial, please know it will be published on my site. Also, please add a name to refer to you by, and your age.

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