u/Advanced_End1012

I’ve kind of noticed this in myself but I might just be being delusional lol. When I’m near my Saturn I tend to look more tired/aged/hard faced. Plus my solar plexus/heart region/spine feel strained and overall a sense of heaviness. But living closer to my benefic lines I feel like my features soften and I look younger, and also my body feels stronger and I have more muscle tone. I lived abroad away from my Saturn for a few months and a lady I knew says I developed a glow whereas when she first met me I looked drained. I thought it probably is more enhanced for me too since my Saturn is in the first house so responsible for physicality. Does it change you like this??? Or am I just crazy lol.

I isolated socially for around 7 years of my life and it’s done a number on my brain, I feel socially lobotomised and it’s made it really hard to connect with people now. I feel like a wild animal in danger whenever I’m with people, and that warmth of a nice interaction I used to get doesn’t happen anymore. It’s also hard to be fully present. I just feel overall very antisocial and a constant need to withdraw. Idk I just can’t be fun and outgoing the way I used to be able to be and I’ve become so rigid and tense.

You might say social exposure is the way, the thing is I’ve done a lot of work which has helped to an extent but I still feel the damage there and it’s been a long painstaking process. Is there anything that improves sociability and helps with recovery? That I could take alongside the work done?

I’ve tried: psychedelics macro and microdose, ketamine therapy, CBD all forms, L tyrosine.

PS. I want supplement/noot recommendations only please.

It’s put me off from networking and going to art school, and finding jobs in galleries and such. I just find a lot of artists and creatives in and around my area (London) kind of ponsy snd trustfundy and take themselves too seriously and is just outright pretentious, with a lot of cliqueness too and elbow rubbing with trying to climb to networking ladder. I just want to find a community and workspace of eccentric down to earth weirdos who create from their inner child and not ego.

I keep seeing everyone fear the SCARY FLOCK CAMERAS 😰 and that we are moving towards a 1984 surveillance dystopia. But honey, we’ve been slaves to the surveillance state long before their introduction, and we are the ones enforcing it.

Why and how? Well ever since we’ve had social media and smartphones we’ve existed under its rule. EVERYONE now is afraid of saying something wrong, looking or being cringe and goofy and carefree, all because they’re afraid of being filmed and put on media. I’m saying this on this sub because it’s teens and 20something year olds who fall victim the most, we are EXTREMELY self conscious and perhaps the most repressed and self conscious generation that’s existed excluding those living under a dictatorship or totalitarian regime. This is the suppression of the human spirit and killing peoples morale is the one thing that’s used to control us.

These corporations have tricked us into policing ourselves and further took advantage of our self consciousness, and we’ve become our own dictators, censoring and subduing ourselves to become dampened sheep.

If you truly want to liberate yourself and fight against the repression, STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT IF YOU’RE GONNA GET FILMED OR NOT. STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELF CONSCIOUS. START EXPRESSING YOURSELF. SPEAK YOUR SHIT. BE CRINGE. EMBARRASS YOURSELF. PISS YOURSELF IN PUBLIC. DANCE LIKE A MANIAC. BE FREE. FUCK EVERYONE ELSE.

Edit: IM NOT saying state surveillance and our socialised censorship are the same exact thing lmao. And I’m not saying forget about government surveillance my point is more important. I’m using it as an analogy, making comparisons and parallels and how they are both used for control, as well as the fact that socialised censorship is utilised by authority by exploiting our malleability.

I keep seeing people in the city call themselves ‘creatives’ but it’s so vague and it doesn’t mean anything to me. It’s so mysterious, what do creatives actually do? I do art on the side, does that make me a creative? I don’t get it.

Growing up I was determined and motivated and felt like I’d do something amazing in my life, then I got nerfed by bad dissociative depression and avoiding life because of lifelong social anxiety and that depression. I’ve spent most of my adulthood isolated and crippled by my mental health, isolated no friends a NEET and still living at home with parents at 27.

By now I thought I’d have a great friend circle, moved out and living out my purpose. But I’m stuck on arrested development, needing to live out the years I lost but no longer being in that life stage, filled with regret and shame, severely grieving all the years I lost to my mental illness and not getting to enjoy my youth, cognitively impaired and not knowing how to connect with people more than before, and I’ve completely lost touch with the person I used to be I feel like a soulless zombie now. I didn’t go uni which was what I wanted, and I’ve got limited prospects and I’m on benefits.

I’ve let my child and teen self down and I feel so much shame for it, idk if I could recover/bounce back. I’ve tried but I just fell back down, it’s so hard to live life when you’re an empty shell of your former self and don’t recognise yourself any more, and severely impaired by alienation and isolation. It’s also so much harder to find a ground for growth and opportunity now that I’m not in school in terms of social life and inspiration. I’ve tried therapy, and many things apart from SSRIs but nothings helped all too much.

Like on astroseek it says “more powerful to the west/east of the line”

I want to get rid of my beard but I don’t want to lose the ability to develop and retain muscle very well, nor lose it and become weaker. I’ve heard people deal with weakness/loss whilst taking it. I’m wanting to start weight lifting so I’m concerned I’ll get nerfed. Is this the case and what potential alternatives are there? I don’t experience weight gain or any other symptoms.

I was wondering because it’s your life fate/destiny vs bending reality to your favour. How do they both play a part with eachother?

For example I want to manifest more confidence and less anxiety which is caused by my Saturn 1st house, however I’m worried that if I do try and manifest this (also because my Saturn return is coming up) I’ll be missing out on important lessons on how to achieve that on my own and it’ll be a short cut.

I was wondering because it’s your life fate/destiny vs bending reality to your favour. How do they both play a part with eachother?

For example I want to manifest more confidence and less anxiety which is caused by my Saturn 1st house, however I’m worried that if I do try and manifest this (also because my Saturn return is coming up) I’ll be missing out on important lessons on how to achieve that on my own and it’ll be a short cut.

Most are understudied and very new where we haven’t seen any potential longterm effects. As much as I want to try them I’m reluctant because of this. What makes everyone here feel like they can trust the use of them?

I’m looking to do this as a side hustle, but idk how good the bucks are and how frequent you’d get students. What’s the average amount of students and income?

I live right near west of mine (Saturn Taurus Saturn 1st house night chart), I feel much better when away from it but the thing is this is my home and my family live here who I love. But damn it’s to hard to exist here, I feel super depressed and isolated and my body aches otherwise, it’s getting worse the closer I get to my Saturn return. For those in a similar boat, have you been able to make it work? Or do you just recommend gtfo lol?

Idk if it’s because of covid, social media use or whatever. But damn we really are in such lame times. Everyone’s depressed and miserable, no one has social skills anymore, everyone’s so uptight and rigid and not outgoing at all, no one has parties and everyone wants to stay at home, everyone’s chronically online, everyone’s boring and bored, there’s no third spaces. I’m so jealous of previous generations like millennials and gen x because they really made the most of their youth and weren’t dead like this.

I’m talking about new ones like ACD, they’ve only been around for a short time. Concerned whether something might come out about them in 10-20 years like adverse effects of longterm use.

Mental health issues have took my sense of self away from me, I’ve been sleepwalking through life for years and I just want myself back. I’ve done therapy, psychedelics, medication- nothings brought me back to myself. I stumbled upon the tapes a little while ago and I’d like to know if maybe these could be of some hope to me? Thankyou.

I want to leave this reality to restart my past, but I’m concerned that I might live my whole life and then once I die I might return back to this reality. We don’t really fully understand the mechanisms of shifting so it might happen. Idk man I just want out but I don’t want that to be the case you know.

I want to leave this reality to restart my past, but I’m concerned that I might live my whole life and then once I die I might return back to this reality. We don’t really fully understand the mechanisms of shifting so it might happen. Idk man I just want out but I don’t want that to be the case you know.

I want to leave this reality to restart my past, but I’m concerned that I might live my whole life and then once I die I might return back to this reality. We don’t really fully understand the mechanisms of shifting so it might happen. Idk man I just want out but I don’t want that to be the case you know.

I’m looking to be a housesitter but idk if it’s worth the over $100 membership if you don’t get decent offers.