u/Advanced_End1012

I’m stuck on whether I wanna stick to this CR or shift to my past and do a do over. Has anyone else connected with their guides in this context?

I wanted to use the tapes initially to help release trauma and for mental health purposes mainly, using release and recharge, also for patterning. I don’t really want to have any metaphysical experiences just yet, although eventually when I’m ready maybe. Is it possible or is it out of our control?

I know people are gonna say “there’s no point and it’ll just make you regret where you are now” I don’t care too much lol I just want to know if it’s even possible with tarot?

I know everyone in their 20s feels behind, but most of the time they’re not behind they just have a case of imposter syndrome and are just on time. I’m genuinely behind, I’ve spent almost my entire adult life isolated at home and bedridden from depression and social anxiety, and as a result I have a case of arrested development and in my late 20s I feel like I’m still 18. I’m stuck between grieving all the lost years and wanting to make up for them, and the desire to fix up and actually represent a 28 year old.

Most people in my age range are focusing on their career and self development, and I’m here just deeply desiring shit a teenager would want such as just having fun with friends I don’t have. It’s deeply isolating, and instead of the social anxiety as my only obstacle it’s now my stunted mind which alienates me from people my own age. People notice my naivety and it makes me feel super embarrassed and more shame than I already feel. There’s this big hole in my heart where I didn’t get to have fun as a late teen and early 20 something.

I really struggle with where I live, grew up on a Saturn line and it’s heavy on me with lifelong isolation and depression and feels like I’m constantly swimming upstream. When I’m away I feel much better. I would absolutely move and stay away from here forever, but my family live here who I love and I’m super close with and it’ll kill me to not get to see them regularly, watching them age every time I would come back to visit and when they’re gone would super regret not spending as much time with them as possible. I’m in such an ultimatum, cus it’s killing me to live here I’m suffering, especially getting closer to my Saturn return.

I see a lot of prepper here aren’t city goers, and I think being in a city comes with its own unique issues in regards to being fully self sustaining in the face of SHTF, and it makes it way easier to be overly dependent and comfortable/complacent. Right now I’ve got nothing in my Arsenal in terms of prepping, but with how things are going I’m becoming more concerned and maybe it’s a wise decision to start hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. So what’s the go to for someone who lives in a London council flat with no garden access? Thanks.

My main concerns are: food and water security, power grid issues, healthcare/first aid, communication.

I’m trying to buy from there in the UK, but it’s not giving me the option to pay with debit even though others have said it’s an option for them. WHY?

I’m a very sensitive person (HSP or whatever you like to call it) I feel things very deeply and I’m very sensitive to energies around me, like people, environments, the current collective energy. Even though it has it’s good points, it’s HARD being this way and it’s causing me much more pain than any benefit. Particularly now, with the collective energy being very volatile and harsh. All I’ve been able to do is withdraw and numb myself out and it’s caused me to fall into a deep depression. I also can’t handle hardships in life such as grief and loss, and mishaps with people. I just want to turn my sensitivity into a strength, and develop the resilience I need without it looking like a wall I put up. Can the tapes help with this?

I’m a very sensitive person (HSP or whatever you like to call it) I feel things very deeply and I’m very sensitive to energies around me, like people, environments, the current collective energy. Even though it has it’s good points, it’s HARD being this way and it’s causing me much more pain than any benefit. Particularly now, with the collective energy being very volatile and harsh. All I’ve been able to do is withdraw and numb myself out and it’s caused me to fall into a deep depression. I also can’t handle hardships in life such as grief and loss, and mishaps with people. I just want to turn my sensitivity into a strength, and develop the resilience I need without it looking like a wall I put up. Can the tapes help with this?

I’m a very sensitive person (HSP or whatever you like to call it) I feel things very deeply and I’m very sensitive to energies around me, like people, environments, the current collective energy. Even though it has it’s good points, it’s HARD being this way and it’s causing me much more pain than any benefit. Particularly now, with the collective energy being very volatile and harsh. All I’ve been able to do is withdraw and numb myself out and it’s caused me to fall into a deep depression. I also can’t handle hardships in life such as grief and loss, and mishaps with people. I just want to turn my sensitivity into a strength, and develop the resilience I need without it looking like a wall I put up. Can the tapes help with this?

I’ve kind of noticed this in myself but I might just be being delusional lol. When I’m near my Saturn I tend to look more tired/aged/hard faced. Plus my solar plexus/heart region/spine feel strained and overall a sense of heaviness. But living closer to my benefic lines I feel like my features soften and I look younger, and also my body feels stronger and I have more muscle tone. I lived abroad away from my Saturn for a few months and a lady I knew says I developed a glow whereas when she first met me I looked drained. I thought it probably is more enhanced for me too since my Saturn is in the first house so responsible for physicality. Does it change you like this??? Or am I just crazy lol.

I isolated socially for around 7 years of my life and it’s done a number on my brain, I feel socially lobotomised and it’s made it really hard to connect with people now. I feel like a wild animal in danger whenever I’m with people, and that warmth of a nice interaction I used to get doesn’t happen anymore. It’s also hard to be fully present. I just feel overall very antisocial and a constant need to withdraw. Idk I just can’t be fun and outgoing the way I used to be able to be and I’ve become so rigid and tense.

You might say social exposure is the way, the thing is I’ve done a lot of work which has helped to an extent but I still feel the damage there and it’s been a long painstaking process. Is there anything that improves sociability and helps with recovery? That I could take alongside the work done?

I’ve tried: psychedelics macro and microdose, ketamine therapy, CBD all forms, L tyrosine.

PS. I want supplement/noot recommendations only please.

It’s put me off from networking and going to art school, and finding jobs in galleries and such. I just find a lot of artists and creatives in and around my area (London) kind of ponsy snd trustfundy and take themselves too seriously and is just outright pretentious, with a lot of cliqueness too and elbow rubbing with trying to climb to networking ladder. I just want to find a community and workspace of eccentric down to earth weirdos who create from their inner child and not ego.

I keep seeing everyone fear the SCARY FLOCK CAMERAS 😰 and that we are moving towards a 1984 surveillance dystopia. But honey, we’ve been slaves to the surveillance state long before their introduction, and we are the ones enforcing it.

Why and how? Well ever since we’ve had social media and smartphones we’ve existed under its rule. EVERYONE now is afraid of saying something wrong, looking or being cringe and goofy and carefree, all because they’re afraid of being filmed and put on media. I’m saying this on this sub because it’s teens and 20something year olds who fall victim the most, we are EXTREMELY self conscious and perhaps the most repressed and self conscious generation that’s existed excluding those living under a dictatorship or totalitarian regime. This is the suppression of the human spirit and killing peoples morale is the one thing that’s used to control us.

These corporations have tricked us into policing ourselves and further took advantage of our self consciousness, and we’ve become our own dictators, censoring and subduing ourselves to become dampened sheep.

If you truly want to liberate yourself and fight against the repression, STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT IF YOU’RE GONNA GET FILMED OR NOT. STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELF CONSCIOUS. START EXPRESSING YOURSELF. SPEAK YOUR SHIT. BE CRINGE. EMBARRASS YOURSELF. PISS YOURSELF IN PUBLIC. DANCE LIKE A MANIAC. BE FREE. FUCK EVERYONE ELSE.

Edit: IM NOT saying state surveillance and our socialised censorship are the same exact thing lmao. And I’m not saying forget about government surveillance my point is more important. I’m using it as an analogy, making comparisons and parallels and how they are both used for control, as well as the fact that socialised censorship is utilised by authority by exploiting our malleability.