u/Odyessius

Oats, honey, peanut butter, vanilla essence, choco chips. Air fry at 160 for 10ish mins.

Moka pot, freshly ground coffee beans.

Something bad happens every time I leave the house so I've decided to never leave again. I just stay at home and binge watch shows, play games, get high and goon to femdom. It's a good life, much better than a real life.

Oats, honey, peanut butter, vanilla essence, choco chips. Air fry at 160 for 10ish mins.

Moka pot, freshly ground coffee beans.

Something bad happens every time I leave the house so I've decided to never leave again. I just stay at home and binge watch shows, play games, get high and goon to femdom. It's a good life, much better than a real life.

I used to have an account long back for writing prompts, nosleep, askreddit, crappy memes. This is back when Imgur used to be a big thing and had a super strong community. I remember the Imgur staff would share photos and stories of their Christmas parties too. (Rip Imgur 🥲)

I deleted that account eventually because i felt it was a lot of negativity for my taste, especially in certain gaming subreddits and back then I would engage with trolls and disregulated people.

I made this account a few years ago so I could access nsfw stuff, post questions in cptsd and autism subs, and mostly enjoy memes and communities. I'm not a power user or a mod or anything like that. Reddit has just been a site I visit daily as my only social media aside from YouTube.

And oh man, I feel like now it's been invaded by botted posts, too much pop culture stuff on the front page, and the constant "popular near you" recommendations drive me up a wall. I moved to south asia and the recommended posts are horrific lol.

I feel like they optimised the site so much they removed the fun out of it. Nothing feels like a community or space anymore, it's just twitter with a twist at this point. And I'm not saying it was perfect or great before, I mean i deleted my old account. But currently it just feels so... Purposefully ragebaity by design? I feel like it pushes divisive or controversial posts for my engagement which just makes me hate it more. Even when i switch to just my feed, it's always the same meme templates being beaten to death. That originality and sense of subcommunities is gone.

And yes i understand as it becomes more popular all things become staler, but the type of posts I see despite aggressive filtering is just... Frustrating. I've used it for so long I don't want to switch elsewhere, especially due to the niche interests and communities, but it's just an annoying thing to browse :( I'm considering deleted my account again because there is no way this place is good for my mental health or bloodpressure.

hi, I haven't used this sub before so I hope this isn't a common discussion, however:

I feel like a few months ago, especially late last year, Gemini would give me pretty apt and thoughtful responses, but recently this past month it has been giving me outright wrong information and just doing weird stuff. For example

• I asked about countries and courses for further studies, and after a while it started linking chairs I could buy to protect my back when I study and headphones I could wear when studying... ok??
• I asked for a list of courses I should consider, and despite giving it context of my three year degree, it still suggested the Netherlands as a strong option... where my 3 year degree wouldn't even be valid!
• I asked for help regarding how to use my medical THC extract syringe, and it suggested freezing it to make it easier to use. When I asked how would I even press a frozen syringe, it told me "great catch". It really isn't!
• I asked for an estimate of living expenses for when I shift, it showed 49,000 in my currency. When I double checked online it turned out closer to 55,000! When I asked, it said that it used a historical number for the conversion so it could give a fast reply.

What the hell? I don't mind a few small mistakes and hallucinations here and there which is pretty common with most AIs, but this was very strange too experience in the matter of a few days. SQL queries and GMAT questions it still is great and helpful, but just searching, feedback, and everyday things it just seems to have gone downhill?

And I can't tell if this is just psychological, but how it ends every question with a random question for me is annoying. I don't think it used to do that before, and if it did, the question was at least relevant and not contrived and forced.

I can't tell if it was always like this and I'm just noticing, or if it has actually gone down in quality? Let me know your thoughts, thank you!

I bought binoculars but they have double vision :( I almost crashed out, but I feel recently the following have helped me regulate my emotions better:

• Mindless timepass: used to hate youtube shorts and mindlessly browsing Reddit, but honestly it is a good mental reset. It's like turning your brain off
• Physical touch: I keep a worry stone on me, and just rubbing it is very grounding and fun.
• Lots of rest: Especially in low lit quiet enviornments. Just eyes closed
• Medical THC: Tinctures or extract do calm me down
• Menial chores: Putting away the dishes, refilling water bottles, tidying up

However I still feel easily agitated by the friction of everyday life. I guess this is just what being autistic is like? Easily annoyed by things? Idk. I am in autistic burnout too, so small things hit me a lot harder and annoy me so much, and honestly just so tired of that. Do you guys have any suggestions, practical tips, or just stuff that works for you? Let me know, thanks!

Edit: Forgot to mention!

• I bought a plastic katana which is great for swinging out energy!
• Taking care of plants, like Aloe Vera, mint, holy basil, easy to care for plants, it's good to have a routine around them too!
• Video games like Genshin, Project zomboid, Stardew Valley
• Meditation - Japa Meditation or using Headspace, however I don't do it enough! Just like Yoga, it can feel kind of like a chore even though I know it's good for me :P

Holy hell. I bought Amazon Basics Fitness Dip Bar, and a generic mini kettle/cooker from amazon.

1. First, the generic mini cooker came with a broken steam tray, so I marked it for return.
2. Then, these geniuses sent me 500 rupee MATS instead of a 3000 fitness dip bar (lol), so I marked it for return too.

Here's the issue:

Both replacements for these items were marked as "delivered" and returned even though no associate has come to collect them. I have not received these replacements, nor the original deliveries picked up. But when I try to use the app, it is impossible to reach out to customer service for this or simply raise a ticket for it. Just last year this was so easy to do. If you raise a query, it gives you a generic "we'll make it right by x date", which doesn't even update on the website! It's only on the app, wtf!?

I try calling them, and I have to sit through maybe 8 options of, press 1 for prime, press 2 for an irrelevant bazaar order, press 3 to eat ass, random stuff instead of just connecting me with an agent until you sit and wait till the very end, it's literally buried somewhere inaccessible. I finally managed to get in touch, but this many hurdles? Damn!

They have purposefully made it difficult so less people request refunds and replacements. Surely there's a better way to deter scammers than putting the burden on the customer 🙄

Hi. I'll try to keep this brief. But i really need help. It's been almost two years since this happened and i just woke up again at 3am thinking about this. As i do almost everyday.

I am 27, with AuDHD and intense CPTSD, currently living in isolation with zero support network or roots due to a chaotic, abusive upbringing. I spent my childhood being abused by my family, and my first and last job was at a hedge fund, which turned out to be a 1:1 replica of that exact trauma. My two managers identified my autistic and trauma trained conditioning to absorb abuse, and they weaponized it to strip-mine me for parts. That's not a guess, my manager literally told me once that I'm most likely autistic. (I hadn't been officially diagnosed back then).

Under the guise of a future conversion, I was manipulated into doing the work of multiple people for two years under severely disregulated managers. Then for six months, both my managers, the only other members in this team, left for sabbatical and maternity leave at the same time (??) leaving me to build up and literally run an entire department from the ground up, absorbing massive amounts of sabotage, idiocy, unnecessary pressure and ego from higher ups along the way. I literally built that operation and kept it together.

**For working at a senior level (this was my first job out of college as an entry level contractor) and keeping the operation afloat, all i got was profound betrayal and disrespect and dehumanisation.. they came back and let me go with two weeks notice.**

For running an entire department solo and saving their skin and saving their bad projects and fixing things, **I** received no bonus/benefit/reward. They gave me conflicting paradoxical "feedback", while the entire chain I worked for took credit for my work... **and even after giving me my notice, my managers even hounded me for process documents on the way out** because they didn't know how to do the daily work. Holy shit man.

I am now stuck in a profound and paralyzing autistic burnout, dealing with 24/7 flashbacks and a permanent flashing 404 error in my brain because the sheer scale of the betrayal and exploitation completely broke my brain. It really did.

Therapy, psychiatry, spirituality, drinking, weed, physical activity, somatic release like TRE, bilateral simulation. Nothing has helped me get over this. I don't know what to do anymore and i feel like my brain is melting inside my head. Please share any advice you can. Thank you.

Hi. I'll try to keep this brief. But i really need help. It's been almost two years since this happened and i just woke up again at 3am thinking about this. As i do almost everyday.

I am 27, with AuDHD and intense CPTSD, currently living in isolation with zero support network or roots due to a chaotic, abusive upbringing. I spent my childhood being abused by my family, and my first and last job was at a hedge fund, which turned out to be a 1:1 replica of that exact trauma. My two managers identified my autistic and trauma trained conditioning to absorb abuse, and they weaponized it to strip-mine me for parts. That's not a guess, my manager literally told me once that I'm most likely autistic. (I hadn't been officially diagnosed back then).

Under the guise of a future conversion, I was manipulated into doing the work of multiple people for two years under severely disregulated managers. Then for six months, both my managers, the only other members in this team, left for sabbatical and maternity leave at the same time (??) leaving me to build up and literally run an entire department from the ground up, absorbing massive amounts of sabotage, idiocy, unnecessary pressure and ego from higher ups along the way. I literally built that operation and kept it together.

For working at a senior level (this was my first job out of college as an entry level contractor) and keeping the operation afloat, all i got was profound betrayal and disrespect and dehumanisation.. they came back and let me go with two weeks notice.

For running an entire department solo and saving their skin and saving their bad projects and fixing things, I received no bonus/benefit/reward. They gave me conflicting paradoxical "feedback", while the entire chain I worked for took credit for my work... and even after giving me my notice, my managers even hounded me for process documents on the way out because they didn't know how to do the daily work. Holy shit man.

I am now stuck in a profound and paralyzing autistic burnout, dealing with 24/7 flashbacks and a permanent flashing 404 error in my brain because the sheer scale of the betrayal and exploitation completely broke my brain. It really did.

Therapy, psychiatry, spirituality, drinking, weed, physical activity, somatic release like TRE, bilateral simulation. Nothing has helped me get over this. I don't know what to do anymore and i feel like my brain is melting inside my head. Please share any advice you can. Thank you.

You're telling me, that this entire neurotype

• Doesn't have abstract pattern recognition
• relies on invisible riddles and hidden subtext to communicate
• falls victim to peer pressure and advertising 💀
• has weak memories compared to us
• adheres to inefficient, unwritten, and overall insidious social rules
• and chatter with empty words ("small" talk, more like like annoying talk stfu)

and we're the disabled ones? Yeah, okay dude.

Holy fucking shit. I'm so exhausted and tired. I've made a "sanctuary" for myself. Just me, my cat, a few plants. I play games, go on walks, watch old movies. etc.

And still. I'll finish playing Stardew Valley and I'll be hit with such a massive wave of agitation and sadness and past memories.

I've tried therapy, psychiatry (antidepressants), medical THC, normal weed, yoga, meditation, reading. All this bullshit.

But if everyday I wake up in pain and suffering and constantly in emotional flashbacks because of how my life unfolded, then what the fuck? What the fuck is the point of all of this? I hate this shit so much.

I feel like I've taken too much psychological damage to ever be happy again. My parents literally trained me to not show expressions or express myself by hitting me and yelling at me. If I stopped crying that was the only time they said good job. Now I have valve for letting off steam. Everything is inside me and there's no release or catharsis. I'm so tired of being alive like this