u/Professional_Win3910

Well, SSRI's don't seem to be working for me at all. Anyone have success on an SNRI vs an SSRI?

I wanted to thank everyone offered me guidance the other day on my post. I meet with my psych on Friday and will be inquiring about switching to Effexor as I do not seem to have any response to SSRI's.

I am struggling with horrific unwanted suicidal thoughts and images that are nonstop. Did this med help ease the intensity of these thoughts?

Thank you!

I wanted to thank everyone offered me guidance the other day on my post. I meet with my psych on Friday and will be inquiring about switching to Effexor as I do not seem to have any response to SSRI's.

I am struggling with horrific unwanted suicidal thoughts and images that are nonstop. Did this med help ease the intensity of these thoughts?

Thank you!

Anyone have success with Effexor after failing SSRI’s? I have now tried both Zoloft and Lexapro and have not received relief. I have not tried SNRI’s yet and I think it’s time. I gave Zoloft a year , and I have been on Lexapro since January. I’m desperate for relief. *TW* I am suffering from horrific intrusive thoughts of death and suicide. They just don’t stop all day long and are truly ruining my quality of life. These thoughts are unwanted but are haunting me 24/7.

Anyone have success with Effexor after failing SSRI’s? I have now tried both Zoloft and Lexapro and have not received relief. I have not tried SNRI’s yet and I think it’s time. I gave Zoloft a year , and I have been on Lexapro since January. I’m desperate for relief. *TW* I am suffering from horrific intrusive thoughts of death and suicide. They just don’t stop all day long and are truly ruining my quality of life. These thoughts are unwanted but are haunting me 24/7.

Hello everyone,

I am still here, still struggling, still fighting. I want to live, I want my life back, I just don't want to feel like this.

While I do believe my issue is perhaps more related to OCD/Extreme anxiety, always in flight or fight, hypervigilance, it causes me to be depressed/hopeless because I HATE feeling like this and am scared I will forever feel like this and lose control of my life. It is constant, constant, constant intrusive thoughts of death, intrusive suicidal thoughts. I am still 5 months post-partum but I just want relief. I manage to function every day like get up, shower, take care of my beautiful kids, go to work (cannot focus for the life of me), cook dinner, and clean, work out 4-5 days as week. My sleep sucks, I toss and turn every 30 minutes, I do not get deep sleep, I feel like my brain is awake even when I am sleeping. From the outside I look normal, but I am deeply suffering. It's like I battle my brain every minute: One minute it says "Ok I'll get through this there is hope", and the next minute its hopeless, ready to check myself in somewhere.

To recap- I fortunately never had anxiety/depression issues until I went through back-to-back pregnancy losses in late 2021. It's like something glitched my brain.

I have tried Zoloft, Clomipramine, Trazadone, now Lexapro and lamotrigine. I started Lexapro the end of January and started Lamotrigine in early April. Is it even worth to try more meds? Has anyone tried many meds that failed, then finally found something that worked? I am truly beginning to worry that I am medication resistant.

Please offer any insight.

Hello everyone,

I am still here, still struggling, still fighting. I want to live, I want my life back, I just don't want to feel like this.

While I do believe my issue is perhaps more related to OCD/Extreme anxiety, always in flight or fight, hypervigilance, it causes me to be depressed/hopeless because I HATE feeling like this and am scared I will forever feel like this and lose control of my life. It is constant, constant, constant intrusive thoughts of death, intrusive suicidal thoughts. I am still 5 months post-partum but I just want relief. I manage to function every day like get up, shower, take care of my beautiful kids, go to work (cannot focus for the life of me), cook dinner, and clean, work out 4-5 days as week. My sleep sucks, I toss and turn every 30 minutes, I do not get deep sleep, I feel like my brain is awake even when I am sleeping. From the outside I look normal, but I am deeply suffering. It's like I battle my brain every minute: One minute it says "Ok I'll get through this there is hope", and the next minute its hopeless, ready to check myself in somewhere.

To recap- I fortunately never had anxiety/depression issues until I went through back-to-back pregnancy losses in late 2021. It's like something glitched my brain.

I have tried Zoloft, Clomipramine, Trazadone, now Lexapro and lamotrigine. I started Lexapro the end of January and started Lamotrigine in early April. Is it even worth to try more meds? Has anyone tried many meds that failed, then finally found something that worked? I am truly beginning to worry that I am medication resistant.

Please offer any insight.

Does anyone know why my walking/running distance is consistently off by about 0.20–0.30 miles? I know my usual pace and timing during runs and walks, and when I compare with my family’s watches, theirs show the correct distance while mine is always inaccurate. I’ve already tried resetting it and updating the software, but it’s been doing this since I first got the watch. Any insight would be appreciated!

Has anyone been able to successfully treat ADHD without increasing their anxiety? I have GAD with OCD features. Racing "What ifs" non stop. The problem is I also have severe ADHD which is not being treated right now. I was curious if anyone has found the right combo to treat both. I just titrated up to 20MG of Lexapro last week because 10 MG was not helping at all.

Hello,

5 Month old has bad eczema: I have him on a cream from the dermatologist but I do not want to rely on this and I would like to get to the route of the cause. He is currently on regular Similac, and I am wondering if he has a milk allergy? The pediatrician really didn't give me any guidance or advice. He also does spit up pretty often. Do you have any formula recommendations that could potentially help?

Anyone else scared they are going to go into psychosis? This is just a horrid feeling.

Has TMS been successful for anyone? I hear mixed things but considering it in the near future.

I lost my instruction sheet-What is the general rule to wet your eyebrows after you get a touch up?

Hello,

I just started 100MG today (started on 25 then 50 last month)- When did you start to get anxiety/depression/intrusive thoughts/DPDR relief if this worked for you? I have read and been told the average therapeutic dose is 100-200.

Any insight would be great. Thank you.

I feel like I am losing my mind. I am so worried I am going to go into psychosis. I'm scared I will forget my family. I am sick over this.

Hello,

Anyone not get relief at 10 but did at 20? I know ocd requires higher doses. Just losing hope and trying to remain hopefully that something could work for me.

Thank you 🙏

Hello,

I am starting to believe I may potentially be medication resistant. I am living in a hell torture chamber in my brain every single day. It’s ruining my quality of life. My brain feels inflamed, I can barely get through tasks at work, I truly don’t even know how I’ve made it this far without relief. I love my family, my life, and I just want to move on from this hell brain.

Has anyone had success with ketamine or TMS or BOTH?

Was this treatment successful in removing/lowering suicidal thoughts? Would love to hear some feedback. (Mine are more intrusive in the sense I just want peace from them and don't actually want to die).

I have tried over 5 different meds now with no relief-I still don't even know what my true diagnosis is-whether it be OCD or depression but I am suffering from constant intrusive suicidal thoughts and I am simply desperate for relief.

Hello everyone, it’s me again, and I’m really hoping for some help or perspective.

Over the past 4 years, I’ve seen 3 different psychiatric providers. My first retired, the second was a psych NP I didn’t really connect with, and I’m currently working with a third. The problem is, I still don’t have a clear diagnosis. One mentioned OCD or an obsessive personality, another thought it was postpartum depression and PTSD after my pregnancy losses. I’ve also tried therapy, but it didn’t help, and my therapist didn’t think it was OCD because I’m not doing physical compulsions to “prevent” something bad from happening.

At this point, I just want clarity. I feel like I’ve been living in this constant mental hell and I don’t understand what it is. I do have ADHD that was never really properly treated.

Before 2021, I never really struggled with anxiety or depression. Everything changed after I went through back-to-back pregnancy losses, a termination and a miscarriage. After that, things spiraled. It started as intense physical anxiety, panic attacks, feeling like I was having a heart attack, constantly checking my heart rate, anxiety around sleep, and a strong fear that I was dying.

Then in February 2022, a day I will never forget, I woke up with horrible, intrusive suicidal images. I became afraid to be alone, afraid to even sit near the kitchen because I worried I might hurt myself. That fear and those thoughts have never really gone away, in fact, they feel worse now.

I’m dealing with constant suicidal thoughts and an ongoing fixation on death. It’s all day, every day, death, death, death. It’s exhausting and it’s starting to make me feel completely hopeless. I’m still forcing myself to function, getting up, going to work, exercising, eating well, maintaining great hygiene but it feels like I’m just going through the motions with no real relief. My sleep was never great but my Apple Watch shows 7-8 hours a night but I wake up every 2 hours and I never feel rested - it almost feels like I’m up in my sleep because my stupid brain never turns off.

I can barely focus anymore. My brain feels jumbled, overwhelmed, almost like it’s swollen or going to explode. I’m scared I’m going to completely shut down or lose myself. My thoughts constantly swing back and forth, one minute I tell myself I’ll get through this, the next I’m convinced I’ll be stuck like this forever or end up in a facility, watching life pass me by to prevent suicide. I have this immense fear of going truly insane and going into psychosis. Sometimes I swear life doesn’t even feel real.

I want to be very clear, I love my life, I love my family. I have two beautiful children who mean everything to me. I used to be confident, social, outgoing, the kind of person who loved being around people and making them laugh. Yes, I’ve always been a bit hard on myself, but never like this. I still am confident in who I am but these thoughts are bringing me down to my lowest.

I don’t use drugs, I drink occasionally, I have a good job, and a strong support system. I know how precious life is, that’s what makes this so much harder. I feel like I can’t beat this, and it’s starting to break me down emotionally. I feel hopeless, like there’s no way out. I feel emotionally numb except for my racing thoughts, my brain never, ever stops.

For context, here are the medications I’ve tried without much relief:

Zoloft

Abilify

Clomipramine, unsure if I reached a high enough dose

Trazodone

I was off meds for most of 2024, things were slightly better but the thoughts never fully went away. I briefly tried Wellbutrin and felt somewhat better, but stopped due to pregnancy.

I’m now 4 months postpartum. Interestingly, my thoughts were a bit better during pregnancy because I was focused on the baby. Currently, I’ve been on Lexapro since late January with no improvement, and I just started Lamictal 3 weeks ago.

At this point, I feel so discouraged with medication. I don’t know what direction to go, TMS, ketamine, try an SNRI, I genuinely don’t know anymore.

I’m not asking for a diagnosis, but I would really appreciate any insight or perspective. I feel like I’m not getting clear guidance from my providers, and I just want my life back, even if it’s just 20–30% relief from what I’m experiencing. Could untreated adhd lead to thoughts as such ? Am I really just deeply depressed and don’t know it? I genuinely feel crazy.

I’m desperate.

Hello everyone, it’s me again, and I’m really hoping for some help or perspective.

Over the past 4 years, I’ve seen 3 different psychiatric providers. My first retired, the second was a psych NP I didn’t really connect with, and I’m currently working with a third. The problem is, I still don’t have a clear diagnosis. One mentioned OCD or an obsessive personality, another thought it was postpartum depression and PTSD after my pregnancy losses. I’ve also tried therapy, but it didn’t help, and my therapist didn’t think it was OCD because I’m not doing physical compulsions to “prevent” something bad from happening.

At this point, I just want clarity. I feel like I’ve been living in this constant mental hell and I don’t understand what it is. I do have ADHD that was never really properly treated.

Before 2021, I never really struggled with anxiety or depression. Everything changed after I went through back-to-back pregnancy losses, a termination and a miscarriage. After that, things spiraled. It started as intense physical anxiety, panic attacks, feeling like I was having a heart attack, constantly checking my heart rate, anxiety around sleep, and a strong fear that I was dying.

Then in February 2022, a day I will never forget, I woke up with horrible, intrusive suicidal images. I became afraid to be alone, afraid to even sit near the kitchen because I worried I might hurt myself. That fear and those thoughts have never really gone away, in fact, they feel worse now.

I’m dealing with constant suicidal thoughts and an ongoing fixation on death. It’s all day, every day, death, death, death. It’s exhausting and it’s starting to make me feel completely hopeless. I’m still forcing myself to function, getting up, going to work, exercising, eating well, maintaining great hygiene but it feels like I’m just going through the motions with no real relief. My sleep was never great but my Apple Watch shows 7-8 hours a night but I wake up every 2 hours and I never feel rested - it almost feels like I’m up in my sleep because my stupid brain never turns off.

I can barely focus anymore. My brain feels jumbled, overwhelmed, almost like it’s swollen or going to explode. I’m scared I’m going to completely shut down or lose myself. My thoughts constantly swing back and forth, one minute I tell myself I’ll get through this, the next I’m convinced I’ll be stuck like this forever or end up in a facility, watching life pass me by to prevent suicide. I have this immense fear of going truly insane and going into psychosis. Sometimes I swear life doesn’t even feel real.

I want to be very clear, I love my life, I love my family. I have two beautiful children who mean everything to me. I used to be confident, social, outgoing, the kind of person who loved being around people and making them laugh. Yes, I’ve always been a bit hard on myself, but never like this. I still am confident in who I am but these thoughts are bringing me down to my lowest.

I don’t use drugs, I drink occasionally, I have a good job, and a strong support system. I know how precious life is, that’s what makes this so much harder. I feel like I can’t beat this, and it’s starting to break me down emotionally. I feel hopeless, like there’s no way out. I feel emotionally numb except for my racing thoughts, my brain never, ever stops.

For context, here are the medications I’ve tried without much relief:

Zoloft

Abilify

Clomipramine, unsure if I reached a high enough dose

Trazodone

I was off meds for most of 2024, things were slightly better but the thoughts never fully went away. I briefly tried Wellbutrin and felt somewhat better, but stopped due to pregnancy.

I’m now 4 months postpartum. Interestingly, my thoughts were a bit better during pregnancy because I was focused on the baby. Currently, I’ve been on Lexapro since late January with no improvement, and I just started Lamictal 3 weeks ago.

At this point, I feel so discouraged with medication. I don’t know what direction to go, TMS, ketamine, try an SNRI, I genuinely don’t know anymore.

I’m not asking for a diagnosis, but I would really appreciate any insight or perspective. I feel like I’m not getting clear guidance from my providers, and I just want my life back, even if it’s just 20–30% relief from what I’m experiencing. Could untreated adhd lead to thoughts as such ? Am I really just deeply depressed and don’t know it? I genuinely feel crazy.

I’m desperate.