u/RadioPuzzleheaded543

my phone battery isnt low. it randomly shut off and keeps flashing the apple symbol

i did what it said online, completely shutting it down and then leaving it to charge for 30-60 minutes

it still isnt turning on, just keeps flashing, what do i do?

the only reason that i can come up with for this happening is that earlier in the day there was heavy downpoor and some water got on my phone, but it wasnt soaked or anything. i use my phone for both work and transactions since i tend to not have my card on me. im really gonna need it tomorrow so does anyone have any solutions that would resolve this problem by then? or am i just gonna have to get it fixed somewhere

ive just been really irritable all day. everyones been too loud and ive been overstimulated and it’s pissing me off. on top of that I’m now in trouble because I called my brother an idiot because he was invading the space I was in and I just wanna be left alone and now I’m punished and have to clean the kitchen. I really just wanna say “how about instead of cleaning the kitchen I cut myself and show you” and “if you ground me I will kíll myself and put your name in the suicide note” and it’s driving me crazy. I wanna cut myself and send my dad a picture of it so I get out of punishment, I wanna hurt I wanna die I wanna suffer I wanna cut I wanna bleed. I can’t handle this I’m soooo overstimulated right now and would rather split my own veins than have to get up out of this bed and clean. I can’t handle any of this and I wanna die so much I can’t handle anything at all

i dont care if it seems I’m overreacting I’m mentally ill and I would genuinely rather slice my neck than have to step out of bed.

I guess it’s just because I overthink. I have a problem where I analyze people’s facial expressions and movements too much. you give me the slightest side eye or negative vibe and I’ll think about it all week and be convinced you absolutely hate my guts. I wanna be social but everytime I do I just think everyone is tired of me, that I bore them, that I bother them that I am the problem that I’m too different that theyd rather do anything else in the world than have to be around me. I convince myself that theyre talking behind my back, thinking in their head (despite being nice to me) that they absolutely despise/hate me while interacting with me but are choosing not to say anything. that eventually they can’t handle what they think anymore and will leave me. then I get worried about what theyre thinking and before they can leave me I tell them that they probably hate me, that I’m sorry. obviously they tell me that they dont. but I’m never convinced. I wish I could stop doing that, but I need them to tell me that they hate me before it’s too late and they leave me without a trace due to not being able to handle it anymore. so I can fix whatever is wrong with me for them to be able to like me.

sometimes I wish I had the balls to kíll myself so I could stop being such a nuisance to the people I love. or at the very least, stay inside and never come out so I don’t have to burden anyone with my presence. even just interacting with a cashier at a store makes me wanna d!e. I wanna be free, I wanna dance, i wanna love, i wanna run, I wanna fall into someone’s arms. but I know I’ll never be able to due to the fear of their never ending hate for my existence. despite it not being real.

what would you call this feeling. ive dealt with it my whole life, just general anxiety? or imposter syndrome? idk

it would be straight as im a dude but to her itd be lesbian (as I am not coming out as Trans nuh-uh never I’m moving a million miles away and getting top surgery and never seeing my parents again haha yayyyy), i only got a couple more years left and I gotta survive tho so sadly I cannot 💔💔 (she’d probably be chill with it but my dad would NOT my ass would get kicked out if he knew dude)

would y’all be cool if I was just like a dude…. ok like I’m only really feeling this cuz I’m getting the WORST gender envy atm bc I’m getting back into deadplate and replaying the whole thing and I have the most insane gender envy from rody hes like me but if i was a dude vrooo I WANNA BE HIM SO FUCKING BADLYYY I CANT TAKE ITTTT I NEED TO BE HIM I hate everythingg yeah so anyways I wanna be a dude and bc of that everyone here is gonna start stoning me in the tone square and after will be a live hanging 💗💗💗💗💗💗 looking at my past transition spos theres definitely a pattern 🥹💔💔

I cut again idk why tho everything’s going good I have a good job atm my family is kinda how it always is but better than usual why did I do that vro now Im gonna have to wait like 4 months for it to fade 💔💔💔 i did make it into a heart so atleast it’s cute tho right…. im gonna have to live with that bigass scar on my hip for fucking ever now tho wtff I’m not even sad or anything I’m very happy and content with life I guess it’s just the urges idk

and like I’m gonna do it again and again. The scars will fade fully and I’ll be like “oh yes finally now I don’t have to worry about these showing anymore” and then five seconds later I’ll make new ones 💀

my parents were like super duper on me abt eating a bit ago (I’m not like underweight or anything I’m kinda chonk) and would say I’d get on a feeding tube or some bs and lecture me. good news I’m recovering dw I’m munching on all sorts of good foods but like what pisses me off is now theyre both dieting. ok nothing wrong with them trying to get healthier or anything they are medically obese that’s not the issue my issue is that they specifically are on keto. which means FOR WHATEVER REASON that they are allowed to shame me for eating fruit???? and having just any carb??? tf.

and I’ll be like eating normally and all of a sudden my mom will be like “don’t you wanna stay thin?“ (I’m thin compared to them so they think I am btw I’m like normal average weight). like dude YOU KNOW IVE HAD SOME DISORDERED EATING BEFORE… WOULDNT YOU WANT ME EATING???? WHYRE YOU SHAMING ME???

like god forbid I wanna consume a apple. “oH b-b-but it HaS SoOoOoo much SuGaR-“ I DONT FUCKING CAREEEE ITS A FRUIT I WANT TO MUNCH ON IT WHO GAF IM PUTTING IT INTO MY BODY NOT YOU!!!! I FUCKING HATE THAT DIET CULTURE HAS DEMONIZED ANY FORM OF SUGAR ARENT FRUITS SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD FOR YOU?????????? LIKE WHAT

like theyve shamed me for eating rice before, saying that rice makes you fat and going on and on and on about it for like 20 minutes. SHUT.THE.FUCK.UPPPPPPP

just needed to talk about that i cant fucking stand it