u/Winter_Efficiency_44

If you are currently in a job where you are being bullied and harassed… where the bullying has been going on for months… where you have even spoken to management about the bullying and the response is something similar to get over it or get out…. Don’t bother to go to HR…. Don’t report nothing else to management….

Please, please please
Documents, everything and anything
If you couldn’t get access to camera footage, get it quietly reach out to the correct people.
If the meeting was over, Zoom, have them send you the copy of the recording.

I honestly suggest recording meetings, depending on the legal right in your state… if you know you’re about to have a meeting record it..

If you could record conversations between you and the individuals that are doing the bullying do it based on the legal right in your state

If it’s a text messages that you have. screenshot everything. Unsave the contact name so you could have the phone number showing . screen record everything because even when I show these text messages I was told it could be AI

Research and take it beyond the workplace. don’t bother reporting it to the police. Unless you have physical hard evidence…. Depending on what it is, take it above the police.

I was too mentally far gone in my case to do it properly and it’s been a year and a half since I resigned, and I’m still suffering from the trauma of that workplace

I really truly wish I did things properly because maybe that would’ve alleviate some of the trauma that I’m still under

Get as much legal advice as you can
Understand some of things may cost money I sure as hell didn’t have any money, but it’s worth it in you can borrow it.

If you have to get evidence from coworkers know that sometimes they may not be truthful over text… speak with them in person.. and honestly record it… again, depending on what’s legal in your state…..

And the most important thing of all MOVE QUIETLY… don’t over share what you’re doing.. only speak when absolutely necessary when talking about the situation… don’t give anyone any warning that could delete or alter any evidence…

When I think about my situation, it’s not that I can’t get over it.. but what happened truly messed me up.. and all I could think is I wish I did more…. But mentally I was really so far gone….. it’s been nearly a year and a half and it still makes me feel sick… and so angry I didn’t do more… and they all got to get away with it…

In my situation, a lot of people would’ve been charged with serious crimes.. my boss manager included…

Don’t end up like me… depending on what your situation is… fight for your rights….

Add on: SECURE A NEW JOB FIRST BEFORE PROCEEDING WITH GETTING JUSTICE..

The worst people to have as a friend…. Are the main characters syndrome individuals……

I was literally going through the most traumatic experience and this person made the entire thing about themselves…..

These people are an absolute disgrace

“Nobody gets special treatment lol don't even start bro. U make urself the victim every time something happens and act like u don't do anything.”

This was the statement made by an individual I worked with that bullied me my entire employee til resignation.

It started since week 2 of my employment

I didn’t speak up because a member in management warned that this individual had a track record of getting away with the things he does because of favoritism. Other staff that talked about their experience said that it would only make it worse… so I silently collected as much evidence as I could …

He decided to go on an apology tour and apologize to me and other staff but I never accepted his apologies… because it wasn’t simple bullying…

It was constantly body shaming me and comparing me to animals
Making fun of my hair
Sabotaging my work process so I couldn’t get promoted and relationships with staff
Spreading false rumors about me
Blamed me for the actions of other staff
Telling another staff they could “beat me up” and honestly I would have loved to watch her try..
if I needed help with anything.. I honestly feared asking him because I knew it would become a report

It was to the point I’ve developed a form of ocd and anxiety… I became mentally unwell and stress.. I would jump of out my sleep worried about if I made any mistakes..I would recheck rooms over and over and over.. I couldn’t stop

But he apologized so it was all forgotten and forgiven?

No but he thought it was…even trying to joke with me around with me..

I had so much hatred for him…

But I did try to move forward since it was the start on a new year… but he started up again and I snapped and did a meeting with the management and boss…

The summary of that was to get over it… I was basically told to get over it or get out

And because he apologized already, it was like I had no right to be upset…the manager who was his close friend was upset with me..

It was laughed away…

So in his mind I was picking on him…
Insane

This guy has gotten away sexual harassment of multiple staff …including me…near the end
Bullying of almost every staff he met
Stealing for customers and tips for coworkers

Even his close coworkers friends disliked him

But I make myself a victim….

When other people would ask him what I did to him … he had no answers

When I asked him… he just got angry…

I spoke up against 3 staff

And I don’t regret it..

But he was convince

I think he got off on rage baiting people

You Stupid bitch wtf was wrong with you … why couldn’t you speak up or stand up for yourself… a fucking waste of space… she will literally take the food off your tray and you’d say nothing … they would take the money out of your hand and you would say nothing … coward ..,.look at the fucking shit of a mess you got us in… why the fuck were you so gullible?? Why the fuck did you have to do all that shit . I’m choosing to forgive you because current me deserves happiness… but God have you made that so hard…. You are incredibly lucky time travel does not exist because I would go back in time with a studded metal bat in a rearrange your skull you imbecile…. Everything I went through still going through all because you didn’t fucking think…. God…. I can’t even be fully angry at the people that did what they did because of you…. Because at the end of the day, it all goes back to you everything that happened is because of your stupid ass decisions…. You know what I wish… I wish you would’ve been up with someone from those damn chat rooms you were so busy fucking up our life in…. Wish you met up with someone that sold u in pieces on the black market you idiot… and every part of that would’ve been deserved… stupid fucking child… I forgive you… I know it doesn’t sound like it… forgive you just really struggling to look at the consequences of your actions of trusting the wrong fucking person…. All it took was just one person to turn your life into shit the next two decades plus…. I forgive you…. Just Struggling to live with the mess you made.

I wish I got revenge on you….I HOPE KARMA IS REAL AND EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU live A PAINFUL LIFE… doesn’t all have to be at once… doesn’t have to be right now while you’re laughing thinking you got away with it.. I hope it waits till you’re happy and successful in your life and destroys everything you have…. I hope it makes it so painful for you to live….. and I wish I could see it….FUCK YOU NASTY PIECES OF SHIT… you people are so lucky it didn’t end up like a documentary….fucking bitch … I haven’t forgotten you… u will get what’s coming

I honestly don’t know what to do with my life…

Work to pay bills to then work to pay bills

Is that all life is…

The trauma I live with makes it impossible to get close to anyone…

Life feels so empty and boring…

What happens when my youth finally leaves

Then I’ll have nothing

I see nothing in my future… even being depressed bores me …

What now?

It’s like the people that have hurt me , cut a wound in me , buried themselves in it, and I healed over it with them still in it …..

And the reason I can’t move on it’s because even though I’ve tried to heal these wounds, they are still very deep in it wiggling around reminding me that they are there….

If I tried reopening the wound to try to remove them they just get pushed further in

So I’m trying to learn to accept it and live with a healed wound even if they’re still there in it….

Trying to accept the fact, they will stay in there. I just have to focus on healing.

I guess

For years I thought people were just making fun of me and body shaming but it’s been 18 years …if someone posting cp of me on the internet…

I thought I was just shaming but … it’s been years… I was 11/12 —- I’m 29 today… the people involved are grown…(20-40) … so why is it still going?

There has to be more with the post.. some caption with the nude to push a narrative that makes people just justified in sharing it in workplaces or telling me to end myself on the street…

I have a very awful feeling the person that had access to the cp either posted it online saying awful things or randomly sent it to people or used my image to try to solicit stuff from others …

Or maybe there’s like some hate campaign stating that I’m blaming people for it existing? Or blaming men..

This is driving me insane….
I’ve been called all sorts by strangers…
Coworkers participating in it…

There has to be more to what happening

It can’t just be people sharing a nude of a child

Why do they know what to type in to find it???

They can look at me and can pull it up to show whoever near them

My coworkers had it and lied …

It’s driving me insane because it’s been 18 years…

Everyone I ask “knows nothing “ ….

They have to put a caption saying I’ve harm someone because nothing makes sense for y it’s been going on for years… of y I need to end myself life.. or why no one sees anything wrong with it….

Tell me what could it be?…a nude a lone can not be the source of the anger and hatred towards me…

Can I please just skip to the part of my life where I stopped thinking about this shit…. I am so sick and tired of those disgusting people occupying any more of my mental space…..i don’t give a shit about any of those people… like if I found out something very awful happened to them I would feel nothing for them at all…. It was just the situation… the traumatizing ass experience…. And a thing that drives me so insane. It’s none of it was necessary…. None of any part of what happened was necessary…. It was made into a much bigger situation than it had to be…. All the lying manipulation… gaslighting …setting up…. it makes me feel like scrubbing my skin with a Brillo every time a memory popped into my head…. It’s like they left this dirty grease tar stain on me…. Or in my brain or something…

I just can’t accept everyone that participated got to get away with breaking laws-yet… I’m being mentally imprisoned by this situation…..

Therapy therapy therapy….. It’s always go seek therapy….
If people just leave me the fuck alone…. I’ll be OK…. this is why I stay to myself…. Then you stay to yourself and you’re still a damn problem…. people start projecting onto you….

God, I fucking hate people… I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I hate it. I hate every last one of them….

Just wipe us out….. people always claim in the world go to end… I’m ready to take us out, bro

I’m still stuck on the whole congratulating me after my promotion….” congratulations you deserve it.”

Congratulating me as if it was supposed to form some kind of truce…..

It’s so crazy how people work… the grown woman who was older than me that bullied me for months… while Mr. BOSS man tells me to move on.. she kept going because I crossed her… and by cross her responded to her in the same way she disrespected me….. congratulating me…. As if for months, she wasn’t doing some seriously sick stuff… and not only congratulating me , but trying to make jokes with me… it’s crazy how people work… it’s so insulting… but I bit my tongue cause I had a tad bit more to lose…. I wish I spoke my mind when she congratulated me… because of that moment, I was gonna say something so wild …. They probably would’ve fired me right there …….even if that risk me being demoted right after… I wish I did it…

Wth was wrong with yall man… like if there was a way to stand in front of a jury and showed them the messages between me and that woman that led to her doing the wickedness… and if they honestly said I deserved what she did, I accepted it….

But I know that is not possible…. they would not agree it was justified….

Yes, I’m still on this… yes I still talk about that disgusting excuse for a job…. I probably will never forget any of what happened…. I’ve had almost 3 other jobs after it and it’s still there…..

I’m still youngish.. The Lord knows what other traumatic events will come my way…. But I know this job will follow me to the day I die….

80 on my death bed if I made it to the age… reminiscing about the parts of my life… and I know this shit will creep right up…..

Not because I refuse to let it go…. But because it is so deeply ingrained in my skull…. No matter how hard I try not to think about it….

I wish I never stepped foot in that place…..

To many people have gotten away with the disgusting stuff they’ve done to me…

They all got to move on…..live there best lives… karma free
…

I don’t want to end up behaving like them.. but I’m filled with deep hatred…there is a wickedness stewing in me… but it is reserved…. Waiting

Eye for an eye

I HATE THE FACT YOU DISGUSTING PEDOS STILL INVADE MY MIND . I wish there was a way to buried you all in my head…every last one of you are so lucky I was so mentally far gone near my resignation… YOU MAKE ME SICK… like I want to vomit whenever I think about it…so fucking disgusting man … whatever names yall want to call me… EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU WERE ADULTS…

I don’t think I’ve hated or will ever hate another human being as much as I hate you (A)… you all are so fucking lucky…All the lying yet picking apart every part of my story to find your justification….. then in my face acting like you weren’t participating in a crime…Jesus…

I need this angry out my system…

FUCK YOU (J)… how dare you humiliate me in that way….

I hope karma is real….

GET OUT MY FUCKING HEAD YOU PILE OF SHIT

Fuck you all

Though this happened a few years ago I still think about it till this day

There was this guy I had been talking to for a bit. I hanged out with him a few times and he had wanted me to meet up with him at his house.

Deep down, I had a bad feeling about it, but I was new to the dating scene. And I liked them.

🚩Red flag number one-he kept saying that no one was gonna be home for hours. And that we can be all alone.(not that much of a red flag he kept saying it.)

🚩Red flag number two-when I arrived he was behaving nervous which I didn’t really question too much. He just had this antsy nervousness to him like something was on his mind.

🚩Red flag number three-he kept asking me if I was thirsty. The first three times I said no but decided to say yes, so he’d stop asking.

🚩Red flag number four-he hand me a glass of water and sat on the couch further from me. When I looked at the glass, the water was spinning. I dismissed it as maybe when he poured it it poured in a circular of motion.🤣

🚩Red flag number five-he kept staring at me.. like we are supposed to be watching the TV but he is watching me…

🚩Red flag number six-because I haven’t taken a sip yet he kept bringing it up. Are you not gonna drink the water?.. are you just gonna waste my water?.. so I took a gulp and put it back down…

🚩Red flag number seven- to kind of relieving the awkward feeling I said we should go to the park outside and walk around. He kept trying to convince me to stay in the house. I said to him I didn’t leave my house to come stay in another house. Let’s go outside and after going back-and-forth eventually he allows me to go out.

🚩Red flag number eight-I start feeling really hot and sweaty… drowsy I assumed it was because of the summer day… but I felt like something wasn’t right.. I tell him I think I’m just gonna go home.. he kept asking if I’m OK and told me we should go back to his house.. I said I wanna go home. I’m going home… and he stared at me as I walked away

🚩Red flag number nine-I got home around three something knocked out woke up at 8/9pm .. covered in sweat and dazed… I look at my phone and I see four missed calls and eight text messages from this guy. Asking me if I was OK over and over.

🚩Red flag number 10-this guy barely messaged me.. he was one of those guys where you hear from once every two weeks yet blowing up my phone that day in that way…..

Maybe it was all a coincidence….. I still think about that day
Because what if it wasn’t… well, I went back to his house… would it have been a documentary?

Was I drugged or was it just the heat? But I was perfectly fine before I got to his house and I traveled in the heat to get there.

This happens went I stay inside for too long. I develop the fear of going outside…. it’s just so uncomfortable being stared at.. not knowing the situation about the online harassment I’ve been dealing with… some people stare at me like they want to harm me.. I’m so sick of it… it’s been years… 18 years… I need to make money … I just can’t bring myself to leave the house… I’ll let garbage pile up and pile because I can’t even step out to the trash cans.,..I have to force myself…I miss having someone to call whenever I went out… it’s distracted me..

I have to break this before it gets worst..

I have more hatred for my mom than I have love… weaponized incompetence seems to disease this woman.. yes she’s getting older but she behaves like she has a traumatic brain injury… she is very capable of doing the things she asks me to do…but asks because of parent’s mentality that their children are their servants…yes I’m depressed out of my mind but I don’t dump it on her… like she does on me… I swear there is a murky thick fog around her because when I’m near her I struggle to breathe… if I looked how I felt around her , I’d look like the perfect zombie casting for the walking dead….always so negative… always saying hurtful comments as “jokes” yet I say one thing … after years of silence… I’m a disgraceful daughter… I really wasn’t feeling good and the depression I was trying to suppress around her slipped… all she did was poke me the wrong way and I blurted out “leave me the f alone” … I didn’t even mean to say it but it took her nearly a month to get over it… as if she hasn’t done and said worst to me.. unprovoked… I get so happy when she leaves the house… sometimes i wish she wouldn’t come back… i know thats messed up …. I track her location so i can see how much time of freedom i have before she’s back.. I don’t even know if miserable can justify as a way to describe her.. . I’m not good enough as her daughter… yet her college degree should basically be mine.. all the stress that woman put me through to help her get it… selfish b… barely saying thank you…

what I hate the most about all this… I hate that I feel this way… I just wish she could find someone who could make her happy… that could take her out the house… someone healed and could heal her mindset…. I wish she had friends but I don’t blame people for not wanting to be her friend…
I want her happy yet far away from me….very far away ….

The older I’m getting… I’m afraid I’m turning into her.. I need to fix my life… I want to be happy and healthy

Individuals will drag you into a mental breakdown/ borderline psychosis then turn around and call you mentally unstable for your response…

Like I’m doing this awful thing to you but you need to say calm and respectful to me….

They would manipulate you and gaslight you into questioning your own memory and experience they get angry with you for your response…and I mean very angry

I don’t wake up and decide.. “yes, today I’m going to reek chaos” … I would be pushed at over and over until I finally snap and it’s never a good result…I can’t even stop it while it’s happening… it takes years to heal….
Took 3 years to heal from my ex … went no contact but took a while to be well again and now I’m 2 years trying to heal from this other situation…. I need it to hurry up

Then it’s “she’s crazy”
“It’s clear you need professional help”
“Go to church or go pray”

It’s burns a fire in me…

Therapy doesn’t work for me

I just want to be left tf alone

I was doing training in a hospital for a job a while back .
This was a professional setting and I was the youngest staff in groups I trained with.. at like 25-26 ….

This woman comes up to me swearing that she’s know me… Ive never met her a day in my life.. I was in locker room getting my lunch .. and she busted with another coworker gossip about whatever and she started staring at me with this concerned look… I was standing over to lunchboxes… it wasn’t intentional… I just paused in front of them to be on my phone…

She walks over to the lunchboxes and picks them up as if I went through it or stole something….

Literally within the next 10 Mins, the grown woman (gotta be 45-50) that was training me run into the break room not knowing I was there saying “ I sent the naked lady on break” to which I ignored at first until she saw me and started covering her mouth… to add she said this to my supervisor at the time…

They were both just staring at me..

I eventually find out that these grown adults were share revenge cp of me ….

I believe it started with that woman who said she knew me despite never meeting her…

It’s so weird man… I truly don’t get it

And I tried to look at things without bias

But I can’t see me grown adult participating in any of that type of behavior in a professional workplace, such as a hospital…

I understand human curiosity
I understand humans love to gossip

But these people were grown
Too grown

And I keep running into this pattern

Of grown ass people accessing cp of me…..something I don’t even have access to sharing it amongst themselves

There has to be a narrative posted with the cp because I refuse to believe there’s no narrative driving this behavior… something pushing hate… it’s can’t just be a picture…

I ended up finishing my training
400 hours

Putting up with the stares
The laughter

My supervisor knew what was going on, but I just wanted to finish my training… I had no intention of staying at that hospital…

But I never bothered to get placed anywhere else cause the idea of that happening at a permanent job

Really mentally messed me up

I don’t understand… I really feel like I’m tripping and maybe this behavior is normal?

I just want to know what tf is happening…

Everyone I ask, plays, Helen Keller

I acknowledge why I can’t heal from what happened…

It’s because I’ve been unable to get any clear answers about wtf happen

It’s because of all the manipulation and lying I endured , all while trying to push me out of my character to use my actions against me

It was the fact that it was seen as deserved after that place sent me into a mental breakdown… they watched me get more and more mentally unwell and kept trying to break me down further

It was be told to drink bleach and made of suicide by the same staff that was bullying me for my entire employment…

It’s knowing the staff had access to something I’ve searched for years for … had access to it…all I’ve wanted for years was access to the online bullying I was receiving for year.. 18 years today… someone has been playing in my life … and for what?

I was so close to being able to report the situation to the police if those disgusting selfish pedos just told the truth… I begged and begged but they made their own justification for it… “I was crossing people” lol I gave them the same disrespect they had been giving me for months… by ignoring them….which is NOTHING compared to them….

I’m told “ you would have been seen what happened “ yes if any of the 60 people I’ve begged spoke up …. No one wanted to attach themselves to it despite sharing and interacting with it….

I’m talking about the sharing of cp of me when I was 11/12…. I’m basically 30… the people involved 30++…

I just don’t understand what’s happening online… I was a child .. I wish I could find the post to see with my own eye and finally understand y.. Ive never posted it myself… I’ve never randomly sent it to people.. I’ve never bullied anyone… are they saying I’ve victimizing myself?? so y…I need to understand y after all these years… is it that funny that I was gullible enough to think someone liked me despite them setting me up???

It’s be close to 10 years since I’ve dated anyone because I found out amongst the wicked people .. they are guys that would pursue me looking for sex like some kind of sick fetish… like it was owe to them .. I had no right to say no….I believe my “ex” was one… I believe he was trying to get more stuff to add to what was out there…. (That’s another story) I found him following expose pages etc…

I can’t heal until I get information on what’s happening …
I’m so traumatized I’m a nightmare to be around honestly…
I acknowledge that…

Ive realized that I don’t what to die… I want what im felling to die… I want the situation Ive had no
Control over to die…. I’ve killed off parts of my self through out the years and what’s left is …was someone I don’t recognize…

I want to be reborn… I want to revive the part of me I’ve buried…

Idk how to make what I’m feeling stop… maybe if I was able to get some kind of justice… but I can’t .. and likely I never will….Im trying to accept it

In the end none of this matters

What all those awful people did to me doesn’t matter … they don’t care about what they did… even if they drove me to end my life they wouldnt care

We all will die

I want to live.. life … and be happy… I want this pain to die.. I want the memories to die…. I want this rage in me to die..

I want to find peace and accept I’ll never find the answers I’m looking for…

It stills messes me up when I think about the staff member that witnessed the bullying I was getting,(1 year long of bullying) consoled me venting about the bullying, secretly took part of the bullying, took the bullies side because I finally cracked and started responding to the bullying … only to then give me an almost hour long speech about how it was all in my head ( that I didn’t hear what was said directly to my face), how I’m letting “kids” bully me, how he knows nothing despite his disgusting slick comments, laughed at me while giving me the speech saying how the business has more important law suits to deal with… he even stood his crusty ass up and drew on the white board a diagram of how I’m spiraling ……

Almost Every person that left that place wanted revenge on the company.. some even tried to get it.. and they didn’t even go through what i did… put them in my shoe and the place would have been on the news

I know I have to move on from what happened that year but the rage is still there…

It’s crazy how the people who traumatize tf out of you want you to hurry up and get over it…

If I could go back knowing everything I know today I would have carefully collected as much evidence to shut the place down. What they did to me wouldnt even be the main thing in the multi layered lawsuit …
Stealing from paychecks /customers
Workplace environment issue -osha related .. even putting customers at risk….lack of sensitive information/confidentially

The list I had …

Move on already , I know

It’s more important for me to move this hatred out my heart and off my mind …

We need better law enforcement because work is NOT a highschool ..

I’m losing the ability to be kind to people… disrespect me once and i don’t see you as a human being anymore… I’m not even exaggerating