u/alasw0eisme

First I want to highlight that I'm not looking for medical advice. I'm just doing this out of curiosity, for fun, shits and giggles, let's say. I have SDAM but over the past couple of years I've started to experience something super weird that I've never heard about before. I can't tell if something has already happened or if it's about to happen.

Don't get me wrong. I'm fully aware that I can't foretell the future. I just mean that my brain thinks it knows what will happen. Like I'm watching a movie and I know what's about to happen.

I'm 35 now, quite healthy. I've been diagnosed with ADHD but I'm not taking any medication (thanks, Eastern Europe!). Chronologically, things developed as follows.

First I realized my serious memory problems. When it comes to facts, my memory is OK. But I don't remember life experiences. Almost zero over the past 10 years. In addition, I forget tasks that I've done. Not ones that I have to do, but ones I have completed. I design some things for my work and multiple times now, when I move I file to the folder when it's ready, I see there's already a file like that! And the information is 99% the same as the other file. I've probably wasted so much time doing the same things. So now before I decide to compile something, I check and most of the time I've already done it. So I've adapted and learned to avoid this issue.

Another funny or actually scary thing is when I need to buy something and I put it off... This year I finally went to town and to the center and to that high end store and bought a garlic press. I'd been putting it off for months. When I got back home and put it in the drawer....... I saw there were two more there. Exactly the same. It was like a scene from a horror movie. I was stunned. Literally in shock. Since then I've been meticulous about shopping and to-do lists so I largely avoid fiascos like that.

Fast forward - the latest problem that appeared is that I will sometimes get to a moment in my daily life where I'm sure I know what will happen next. And it does happen. Again - what I mean is it feels like I knew it would happen. I realize that this is some trick that my mind plays on me. For example, I'm talking to a friend. I think "next he'll tell me about those tickets he has bought" and he does tell me. Or "during this hike, the next thing that I'll see after that hill is a river and a bridge" and I do see that, even though I've never been to that trail before. My only explanation is that my brain rewires the experience as a past one while it is being written. I can't explain it exactly. And maybe I'm wrong anyway. Now I don't even know "this is that thing that happened... Or that hasn't happened yet?" I feel very confused. Some things look familiar even though I am 100% sure I've never seen them. Places especially. At the same time I struggle finding my way around places I should know like the back of my hand. Like my old hood, for example.

Does this thingie have a name? It doesn't affect my functioning too much, I've found ways around it, but it feels funny. Especially when I'm hiking or exploring.