u/butterflykilla222

I just completely cussed the universe out. Like don’t give me these fucking signs if you aren’t bringing my sp back today. I literally screamed. I know he’s mine. I know we get married but I’m tired of the games. I’m tired of his name popping up. I’m tired of my friends asking about him. Like fuck stop playing. I even said when I walk up things are different. I woke up still pissed off

It’s my third day locking in. Faster than normal I’ve stopped crying because of no contact. I feel at peace I know he’s coming back.

Well all last night I listened to subs and this morning woke up early to robotic. Well as I am getting out of bed, the man’s name pops up. I throw my phone, hop in the showers nd said “this is not a dream.” Three days of no contact. I knew it. He’s been stalking my social media. I knew he was lurking. He told me himself.

And I’m manifesting a specific text “let’s fix us” and a healthy committed relationship with him. I know it’s coming. I don’t even care if he answers. He’s my man and my man only!

Okay so I’ve locked in before (once before I knew what locking in was) and always get my results.

1- didn’t know it was locking in but got the I miss you text I wanted
2- got my happy birthday text and surprisingly a gift
3- a trip with him
4- spend his bday with him

This time is serious. I want the “let’s fix us” text. My plan is to actually learn to mediate and do stats. I already do robotic and subs. I also dabble in spell work and thought transmission. Now you don’t have to do spells or thoughts if you don’t want to. But I will be making a nightly routine. I will update everything on this post as well. I’m giving myself 3 weeks (since there’s an event we will both be attending then). I will also focus on self concept.

Other than updating here, would anyone want to make a chat to do daily check ins? I’ve had chats before but everyone goes ghost. I need people truly down for this. Plus we can make routines together to help each other out!

I’ve done two lock in challenges both successful. There was even a supposed 3P for about 12 hours and I somehow manifested them to be fake. Yes my SP made up a 3p to make me jealous. But in the process he said he wants nothing to do with me. But yet text me twice in the middle of the night with life updates but then said I don’t want you to answer. And before all of this we agreed to talking once a month?

And let me give you guys back story. My faith is my faith. But I believe in manifestation, spells and the universe. I believe we co create with the universe. I’ve manifested a trip with him, and specific text. I just don’t understand why they aren’t staying. He’s avoidant. We do really good and he pushes away.

But like fuck I just want him. I don’t want to lock in again but I feel like I have to. And I’m at the point I’m mentally drained from outside issues that manifesting becomes hard for me. My job is draining, I’m currently sick too. But fuck universe I want him. And I’m stupid I told him I’ll always be here for him. And I meant it but I just don’t have forever. I know time means nothing but it’s been a long almost two years of this. And I know part of it is my limiting beliefs. I temporarily manifested a 3p when I heard about her but I quickly changed it to she’s fake. And she was. Idk.

Thanks for listening to my rant

Ladies and gents. I manifested a vacation to see him. It happened. Even got an unexpected bonus to cover the trip days before. Then last night he brought up us getting back together?!?! We didn’t get far in the conversation because I was at work. But guys it happened. That’s all that matters

So keep living in the end friends. Heal as well. Get therapy if needed. Persist but also enjoy the journey.

That’s my man my man my mannnnnn

So usually I manifest text, free coffe, small things. This past weekend I manifested a trip to a city and it worked out so perfect. I want to move there. So many things have to happen for me to go.

Any suggestions? I’ve been trying to visualize but I really just watch the video tour over and over

I’m hoping to move in May. I have months to save up but I struggle in this economy. What are your guys biggest tips on moving?

My sp went from I don’t want to talk to telling me about his day in about a week or so. Now I am manifesting a consistent healthy relationship with him. I feel like he is fighting the urge. I’ve manifested him back before but I’ve never had him try to fight it. I know it’s just the new story coming to light but I really need the phase to end soon and him to be mine

My friend practiced tarot on me. Her whole reading was seemingly on point until it said this: my partner and I are going to have a huge fight and then break up. We’ll make up for awhile but this time next year I’ll have a new partner.

Look my partner and I are messy but we are working towards things. I just don’t agree. My friend also doesn’t know I do spell work either and I’ve done communication spells with my partner. Also while she was reading I was getting a different vibe from the cards. Example when she read a new partner, I took it as a new beginning. She asked if I’ll be moving to his city, cards say yes but that we still break up? Idk.

Would you guys go with your gut (and I don’t know shit about tarot) or go with her?

Anyone wanna be manifesting besties? I need my SP back before a certain date. The goal is daily check ins and we hold each other accountable for self concept.

Goal dates:
Relationship by August 31st, so I can celebrate an important event with him in September

It’s been over a year and a half since my last shift. This morning I woke up and said fuck it let me try getting a block. What type of chokehold does Amazon have on me 🫩

I’m thinking of starting anti depressants. Has any one had it effect their practices?

This seemed like a fitting place to ask… who’s ever moved to a new city alone? What was it like?

I think it’s time I go from mine

I cursed my abuser last night. I spoke into a jar to curse him and everyone who supports him through the police report. I shattered the jar last night And now I feel a large amount of guilt.

I don’t believe in putting negative energy into my spells but I felt so strong to do so. Anyone else ever felt guilt like this?

My mom did a spell that involved throwing “someone” (a jar I think) in the river. She won’t give me details now but I just need to know. She caused a woman to go to jail basically.

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I saw SAed and I went to curse the hell out of him. I reported last night and they said it will most likely go all the way to court. My mom won’t share the spell fully because she wants me to heal then do it. Respectfully I understand where she’s coming from, but I need to make sure this man pays for what he did. She did it to her husbands ex because she didn’t like her. I have a legit reason. Please.

I need a simple but effective spell. I was SAed and filed the report. I know he is going to spin it on me and drag me through the mud. I just need something that makes sure he goes to jail.

My mom has thrown a jar in the river years ago and that person was sent to jail. I just need something. A jar or candle. I don’t have much energy but I need it to be effective.

Any advice while the investigation continues

My mom did a spell that involved throwing “someone” (a jar I think) in the river. She won’t give me details now but I just need to know. She caused a woman to go to jail basically.

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I saw SAed and I went to curse the hell out of him. I reported last night and they said it will most likely go all the way to court. My mom won’t share the spell fully because she wants me to heal then do it. Respectfully I understand where she’s coming from, but I need to make sure this man pays for what he did. She did it to her husbands ex because she didn’t like her. I have a legit reason. Please.

I was assaulted by someone who I had have prior relations with before years ago. I thought we were friends and made it very clear I didn’t want him to come to my apartment and that nothing was to happen while he was there. He showed up and proceeded to assault me.

Here’s the problem I never fully went to the police until today. Because last night the man I’m trying to have an actual relationship with found out and I told him everything. Now he wants nothing to do with me and doesn’t believe I was assaulted because the person who did this was a former sexual partner.

To be clear: I said no. I said stop. I said don’t come over. I let him in because I was confused and thought this would be a short visit.

And now I’m sitting here waiting for the police to show up to finally report it after two weeks. And my partner promised to be by my side through everything

Location: California

I was sexually assaulted a few nights ago. I want to go to the police but I’m scared for the investigation and if it somehow goes to court. What’s the process like