u/Hereitisguys9888

Ive had this before but it was never an issue until recently. Especially if im lost in thoughts, I guess its sort of like a drop in dopamine? Its really annoying and causes me physical stress

Am I doing something wrong?

So in my A levels, I did really bad: a D,E,E. I was ill for 2 months but I also didnt focus as much as I should've.

Now im on final year of university, at wolverhampton, which is obviously a very low tier university. Im in track for a 2:1.

I know training contracts are almost impossible for my situation, and even vacation schemes are hard to get, so im not sure what to do.

Im currently applying to more vac schemes and I plan to look for paralegal work, but my a levels and university aren't helping my cause. What do I do?

Im a final year student, and i know the sqe is an extremely hard thing. But I wanted to ask, let's say you fail three times and then there's the 6 year wait, what do you even do?

Ive seen people say to consider another career, but after 4 years of uni and alot of debt, is that even viable?

I dont know exactly how to put this in words, so apologies if this sounds like waffle

But during my walking meditation, my mind was wandering to a past friendship which ended badly and my mind was winning arguments in my head, but I was focused on the sound of the pavement under my feet.

Then I sort of realised, this overthinking of this past friendship, im not doing it. My mind is. Then I realised this applies to so much. I used to have a porn addiction, for example. It wasnt me who was actively craving it, I knew it was bad, it was my mind.

All these bad habits and overthinking that I have, its not me? Its my mind

Idk it just sort of came as a realization to me during this meditation that I can exist from out of my mind. My mind can tell me one thing and I can just...let it be? I dont have to act or listen to it.

Also walking meditation is amazing lol

Whenever I meditate, whether it be walking meditation or listening to the sound of my fan, sometimes i notice im so focused into the sound of my feet or my fan that Im not aware of anything else?

Im going into third year, and i realised that on average i was spending around 8 hours in uni (lectures and seminars) which just sounds so strange to me. That's one working day.

Even weirder when I realised three years of uni is still shorter than a year of secondary school, in terms of hours required in the uni

I know there's societies and stuff, but I go wolverhampton, the societies are quite dead

How's uni schedules for you guys?

Im not sure how to explain this, but let's say I meditate for 40 minutes. I can be aware of my breath the whole time whilst also thinking about other stuff? I know that meditation is about bringing my attention back to my breath, training that muscle, but what happens when I can focus on the breath whilst also having a cluster of thoughts?

So im 19M. My life so far has been really dull, just masturbation, video games and working out. Ive never really had much friends. I go Uni and that's it

But, what's the point? I feel like ive done everything I'm wanted to and could do. Walked in nature, listened to music. Stuff like love and whatever isnt gonna happen, im not good enough for that bs. And I dont like going out, infact I haven't been to my city center in 2 years.

So, is that it? I kinda just jerk off, workout and play video games really. I feel like ive completed life

People always give me the usual "volunteer, pick up a hobby" etc, but ive volunteered before and its just working without pay. And I never had a hobby, I dont know what I like

So yeah. Is this it? Its very anti climactic, idk why people hype up life so much.

Seen so many people say it works

So let's say, i have a thought. I realise im thinking and instead bring my awareness onto my breath. Then what? I just focus on my breath? Isn't that just the same as being distracted with my thoughts? If im focused on my breath, im not aware of other things?

Im gonna try talking to her, however its been 2 years. Im in my final year of uni soon. Won't it be weird to her that a guy is trying to get to know her in the final year? When uni is almost done?

There's never group work or anything. And she never stays after lectures (everyone in my uni rushes home after lectures, very antisocial uni). My only chance is the small time before the lecturer is here.

So wtf do I do? Ive never approached anyone in my life before (even as friends, guy or girl) what do I say without sounding like a creep?

Future obv had multiple features on MUSIC, so i feel like carti will be on the album.

Although on first listen id probably think its still future rapping

So im 19, I have mental health issues, self esteem issues all of that. Went therapy, and ive been posting multiple times on reddit with no intent of improving

Today I woke up and had enough. I had enough of being depressed thinking my life is over at 19.

But the one issue that has always gotten me is I care way too much about what others think. What will they think if im at a club being awkward, what would they think if I get rejected, what would they think if I wear a certain style of clothes.

Ive always heard that in your 30s and 40s, you stop giving a fuck about other people's opinions. But how?

I just want to learn this one skill, and I genuienly think it would save me.

Thanks for any responses.

Stuff like retail, warehouse, cleaning, dishwashing, barista etc. I cant get any sort of job even though I do what im "meant" to do. Can I just go ahead and say I have 3 years of experience in a bar for a batista job?

I cant have the experiences people talk about as a teen/young adult

Im gonna be 20 soon, and never worked a day of paid work. No one is hiring in the UK, I have so many applications but this country has failed me

Why the hell do I need experience for a cleaning job??? How am I getting rejected from cleaning?

Im so broke and I can't do anything man. I hate life what's the point

Im 19M, about to be 20. I know I'll get the whole "youre still young" or "your life just started" but i feel like my case is different

I want to start by saying I barely have a single memory of my teen years. Its like asking an adult how their first years as a human were (0-3), they dont remember.

I went weeks without conversation, never ever left the house beyond my street by myself until i was 18, didnt listen to music, had two school friends, didnt have much family so never went out. All I did was play xbox and watch porn.

Now im 19, going into my third year of uni (I'll be 20). Even uni was dead for me, no friends, nothing. Ive never ever spoke to a girl, and I think ive lost the ability to even be romantic?

For someone like me, what the hell do I do? Because I want to live the teen life, I want to talk to girls and have a big friend group and go out and get drunk and whatever, but I have the mental development of an 11 year old. Infact, an 11 year old has probably done more in life than me

Im just thinking of ending it because even therapy didn't help. I have no idea what to do?

Im 19, and ive finished my second year of uni, third year starts in September

I always hear stuff about how you never get any free time as a lawyer. And this worries me because ive had a really horrible and boring life so far

Is becoming a lawyer even a good idea for someone who has never really lived at all?

Is this normal? It was meant to be 9am to 9:30am, but they didnt join. Woke up early for nothing

Im 19, and ugly, going into third year, and my uni experience has just been depression.

Yes ive joined societies, yes ive tried talking to people, but no one likes me. Im a reject

In my first year, whenever there was group activities, the people next to me who were assigned to my group would ask the lecturer to go into other groups. It got so bad that eventually I had to ask the lecturer to stop group activities because there was no point of me going uni on the days I had that lecturer.

And in my second year, no one ever sits next to me in a two seat range. Lectures I understand as there's alot of space, but in my seminars, in a full room there are people who would go into other classes, get chairs and sit in the front without a table, instead of just sitting close to me

Even in societies, no one fucking talks to me

I feel like a ghost, like im not a human. I dont get it man, am I not a human anymore? Even the lecturers blank me when I say good morning