u/Lonely-dude

I think I look really really obviously queer but every single boyfriend my friends have had tell them to not speak with me cause they think I'm gonna try smthg and my friends can say wtv but they're still gonna believe I'm into them

I've been hit on by some girls(very few), some guys thinking of me as a girl also flirted w me, since starting t only 1 guy has flirted w me and I am fairly sure he would've flirted with me regardless of me being straight or no so he probably also thought I was straight

How do i get perceived as gayer without compromising my cispassing???

I wanna meet guys who like me as a guy 😭

I've seen pain scales that put uncomfortableness as a level of pain but to me pain and uncomfortableness are 2 different sensations right?

I've been trying to figure out if I have joint *pain* and i do not know, I am usually uncomfortable with my joints, I wouldn't say they *hurt* I'm not in pain* most of the time but they do fell off(?) like just uncomfortable as if they were kinda oddly positioned so no pain but yes uncomfortable

How do pain scales work??

Could this be related to Ed’s? never been able to stand still for long periods of time because my knees hips and legs in general start feeling weird, not exactly pain but uncomfortableness, like pressure, but only if still, I can walk for 30 min and fell better than standing 20 min, I know joint pain is related but is this as well? Is this even a thing?

I have a friend that according to many ppls opinions SAed me and has a lot of abusive behavior towards me, Im not sure if it's 100% accurate cause when I talk Abt things they do they sound a lot more horrific than they actually are so idk if I'm exaggerating

they are turned on by my SH scars and fetishizes them, sometimes they're kinda manipulative and guilttrippy, once they covered my eyes and kissed me while I was wasted drunk, one time they shoved me into a wall, I'm pretty sure they have been trash talking me and making others think I'm manipulating them, they tell me that they need me around and say and do many other stuff, I sometimes wanna get away from her but I fear I'll regret it and every time I make the decision to start pulling away she asks "wanna drink?" and I can't make myself say no, we drink pretty much every time we're together, always, mid day, in the morning before class, after class, very often even in class, I've told friends that if they ever do anything bad to me again or if things get worse I'll completely end the friendship but I know it's a lie I'll stay regardless

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I have a friend that according to many ppls opinions SAed me and has a lot of abusive behavior towards me, Im not sure if it's 100% accurate cause when I talk Abt things they do they sound a lot more horrific than they actually are so idk if I'm exaggerating

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they are turned on by my SH scars and fetishizes them, sometimes they're kinda manipulative and guilttrippy, once they covered my eyes and kissed me while I was wasted drunk, one time they shoved me into a wall, I'm pretty sure they have been trash talking me and making others think I'm manipulating them, they tell me that they need me around and say and do many other stuff, I sometimes wanna get away from her but I fear I'll regret it and every time I make the decision to start pulling away she asks "wanna drink?" and I can't make myself say no, we drink pretty much every time we're together, always, mid day, in the morning before class, after class, very often even in class, I've told friends that if they ever do anything bad to me again or if things get worse I'll completely end the friendship but I know it's a lie I'll stay regardless