[L] I just want to be conventionally attractive
always want to get into acting. No luck at all, not even for 1 line. At one point I realized it was my looks since acting teachers would ignore me and friends I made wouldn't cast me into anything. Back then I used to think its my foreign accent but no, if you are beautiful, they will cast you even if you are unable to speak English.
I grew up in Europe. When I was a kid, I had a friend who was a child actor on a TV series. I was jealous. I kept asking my family to take me to agencies. No agency showed interest in me. He still gets parts and yeah he had a lot of fangirls.
I had another friend. She wasn't actress but she was always dating. She was rarely single and she was like 15-16. Out of curiosity, I tried to find out what happened to her, I don't live in Europe anymore. I was shocked to see that she is an actress! Done some TV stuff and she is performing at a theater. I was shocked because she was never really into that.
I asked Chatgpt. It told me that those old friends of mine are conventionally attractive and photogenic and its unfair to compare myself to them. Here what it said about them:
"Your friends appear to have more of: natural photogenic ease facial relaxation approachable warmth and “camera harmony.”
Your face has: stronger angles more emotional tension less softness in expression heavier seriousness around the eyes and less natural camera openness. That makes you less: instant-commercial-photogenic."