u/Bulky-Culture-4482

Through out most of my schooling, I was put on IEP for my autism and so far... It didn't do jack shit for me. All it was is just put me in full day special education classes that just simply give me easier school work compared to normal classes, by the time I got into high school, I had literally no knowledge with algebra, didn't know how to write essays at all because special education classes I was in never taught me I pretty much had very little prep at all. I am 21 years old currently taking grade 11 courses because I really need to build skills I need for senior high school courses... It sucks so much being behind...

I have been realizing that all of these years I never received real support or help. It was all just segregation.

I really wanna go to college or even university, I am not interested in sticking with crappy boring manual jobs for rest of my life.

Like despite trying my best like decent sleep, extra help in school, studying a lot, etc. I never really got very decent grades. It's just some of the things that are beyond my mental capacity to be top of the class, there are some things that are way beyond my ability, like being able to write essays with very good grammar, being able to explain complex concepts in very accurate details, etc. I was never able to do these kinds of stuff, being able to understand multiple abstract ideas in my head, etc. I was never able to do these stuff because those are too hard for me.

Many people won't really admit this.

If other guys in the class who are equally as kind as you, same amount of social skills, as decent looking, etc. but has better academic performance and better grades than you, why would any girl wanna date you at all? Doesn't matter if you're very kind, even decent social skills, it won't ever compensate. I am sick and tired of normies saying how all you need to do is be kind, respectful, have decent social skills have confidence etc. When in reality, you need to actually stand out. Not just in terms of just looks ofc, that's only 1 thing but other areas like good academic performance, high GPA.

Being very good student in school like As ofc is without a doubt pretty attractive to girls, like if a guy who is also ofc kind, decent social skills, etc. as you do, but has better grades than you, then you are obviously cooked. No amount of kindness, social skills will ever compensate.

Like if you do not have any flashy traits such as top student in school, exceptional talent, etc. then you are basically cooked, it doesn't matter how kind you are, or if you are capable of functioning socially, because no girls are gonna give a shit about you if you do not posses talents.

These days it's very hard to tell what my own potential mostly because it was very depressed by lack of proper environment like proper schooling, very little structured at home like not reading regularly, I do hear that g-factor is coorelated with stuff like math, reading and writing, etc. doe this mean if I only do things and focus on things that coorelates most with IQ I will improve my IQ by a lot?

So far, I recently have been encountering some youtube videos saying that self improvement won't help you to get a girlfriend when that is the most bull shit thing I have ever heard, like especially if you're someone who is very lazy, NEET, don't have a job, etc. how the hell will girls value you???

I honestly have no idea at all how to study, so far I have been watching lot of videos such as making mind maps, taking proper notes, etc. but I have no clue how to actually apply those methods...

Just wondering how well does it run in default settings like 12 chunks of render distance, fancy graphics on default world? Do shaders work?

Like back I demonstrated very good math skills in early elementary was highly curious but my parents hardly did anything about it, they never got me tutors, they never put me in proper schooling, etc.

My problem with hobbies is that it relies a lot on willpower, like I only ever do things when it's an urgent and there's consequences if I don't get it done such as deadlines with school, I do ofc study math during my free time but that's simply cuz I rely on external structure, and I usually just stick with taking courses like summer school course if I ever wanna learn something, like I just get things much more faster and more consistent when there's structure.

I really wish I was smart... What I mean by that is being able to get very good grades in school, having mental capacity to study a lot even if it's hard, not procrastinating too much, etc. but all of my poor work habits has led to being pretty dumb... And I feel like it's too late for that because I am 21 years old, and I feel like this opportunity is only if you are before 18 years old because past strongly shapes who you are sadly...

I seriously hate english class, i have to write a literary essay basically while I am basically trying to decode metaphors into a structured essay with proper grammar all of this shit just feels too hard for me... What do i do??

As someone who has very unfortunately been below average in terms of intellect like i was never very good at academics, needed special ed was approx bottom 10 percentile in academic skills, it really makes me extremely annoyed hearing people who are gifted complain about being gifted like how an earth are you not happy the fact you are literally top 2% in terms of cognitive ability, like bro this means you will have everyone liking you and especially when it comes to getting lot of girls and stuff bruh because they will admire your intellect because you can learn very fast... how is that not a good thing??

Like try being below average where effort barely pays off... like 21 years old, can barely do basic algebra or write academic essays, know lot of biology, etc due to my low IQ and even if I work my butt off for that, what reaction you think imma get from people??? "Oh ok, you are just getting caught up" instead of "wow you are so smart man! Thats so cool!" Like wtf is the point on effort if I am not going to standout?? Like you all can easily standout even with bit of effort...

It just feels very pointless if you aren't going to be above average. If I were to be at least average to above average in intellect ofc I would have actually tried because it is actually worth it...

I just wanted to make sure I am not using it completely wrong. Especially after hearing how much people are screwing themselves over due to Over reliance of chatgpt, and stuff.

In terms of helping with school work how reliable is it? Like should I use it sort of like a tutor to help me understand concepts?

I always hear a lot about how AI gives incorrect information, etc which has left me pretty concerned. I was just wondering how could I use it properly then? Of course I never really copy and paste i use it to help me explain complex information that I do not understand. How can I use it right?

Mainly it is because every time I try to sit down and read books It ends up being pretty stressful for me because I always worry if I understand the book super well otherwise it does not feel like real reading and just wasting time, I always feel like when reading books I must be able to understand and retain nearly everything otherwise it feels pointless sort of like how in school, you need to be able to engage in reading prompts such as understanding key concepts, main ideas, themes, write paragraphs and essays about it.

I am not very good with deep focus, I cannot notice details other miss particularly in academics like I can hardly notice grammar errors very well, so thus I cannot write good essays, I also am not good with pattern recognition.

Especially because the fact I have below average intelligence which what my autism came with..

Anyone else not have any strengths related to autism?

Also please do not tell me BS like "there are different types of intelligence" like no there isn't. If you were not good at school and academics like I did then you are not highly intelligent at all.

As someone who always had non verbal reasoning as a relative strength of mine according to past IQ tests by psychologist it is practically completely useless, especially in school setting where 80% of learning is learnt through verbal reasoning. I feel like my low verbal IQ is just result of lack of reading books most of my childhood and preferred things like playing with puzzles, etc. I really wish I have spent more time on books but as 21 year old I am at the age where IQ becomes much stabilized and cannot be increased... it is too late to do anything about it.

Just curious but is having like IQ like 100 - 110 a prequisite when it comes to becoming academic rigor student?