My situationship got pregnant by her ex, and I got rejected twice this week. I should be happy that I at least get dates, but the black pill is brutal. I’ve improved my looks and gotten super in shape, but it only gets you to the door. Nothing else can improve my looks without surgery. At this point, I would rather just be gay than alone.
I hit my year mark on April 8th, and I am so
blessed. I reconnected with family, have friends, hobbies, and life is overall good. I can't find the motivation to show up to my home group anymore. I love everyone there, but the thought of heading there at 8 pm, it ending at 9pm, then the night's over at 10 after blast off. Is making me procrastinate hard. I understand the answer is probably discipline and not motivation.
From what I read, neurodivergent refers to autism, but she doesn’t outright say I’m on the spectrum. She says I’m neurodivergent, but you don’t need to worry about a label yet??? I’ve been wanting to get psychological testing to figure out what’s wrong with me, but they cost like 5,000$ dollars, and I don’t have the money. Do you guys think neurodivergent is more than just autism or what?
“Why is my stomach constantly hurting?” “I’m so depressed and suicidal”. I start taking the dose correctly, and all of a sudden, my problems are gone. God, I’ve no clue why I’m so hard-headed. Hopefully, no one else is being a dummy like me. Take Latuda with a meal.
I feel ungrateful in a way for being depressed. I don’t work; I have passive income at 25; I have my own apartment; I'm about to graduate from college; and I have good family relationships. Only thing I’m struggling with is getting a girlfriend, but even then my dating life is technically better than before. Despite, I still wake up sad and unhappy. I miss being hypomanic and that pure state of bliss. Now everyday I am just meh. Maybe, I need more hobbies to distract me or something. Or increase in medication.
I'm pretty suicidal and scared to be alone. Thinking about moving in with my grandparents until things get better. Thoughts?
I’m diagnosed with BP2, and lexapro has mostly helped my depression. My anxiety is also non-existent at this point. My problem is that I still get low moods, suicidal thoughts, and no motivation. Maybe, I think this is some miracle drug where all my problems go away when it isn’t. I miss the time before when I was off medication, I would be “hypomanic” and would be happy! Do a ton of hobbies and am super motivated. I haven’t felt that in so long, I miss it. I know I’ve got to run on discipline now, but it sucks. I wish my mood would just be normal.
Tired of the constant uphill battle, self-improvement, and mood fluctuations. I never have a consistent mood; it’s always depressed or neutral throughout the week. Tired of mustering up the energy to make friends, do hobbies, work, and go to school. Sick of trying to improve my life. If I could be constantly stable for a whole week, things would be much easier, but sadly, my life isn’t like that. I’m exhausted from fighting myself and want a break from normality. Sad things are that’ll never exist in my life, and I’ve to cope with that. Is there anyway I can have a normal week for once???
I know this won’t make any sense, but I used not to feel feelings. I more so analyzed and tried to understand what’s going on so I can stop it. My therapist taught me how to sit with them and actually process it, but now I feel it intensely. I wish I could explain better. But right now, I've been obsessively feeling love, and it's tiring. I want it to go away so bad. I get it, you love your aunts because they make you feel safe, you don’t need to constantly crave their attention. I miss not feeling love. I used to only feel angry and sad. Now it’s gone.
Y'all have decimated my physique on this forum one too many times. I don't count calories, but I eat a ton of protein, so maybe it's the program?
My aunt is like the mother I always wanted, and I want to give her a gift. I just don’t know if it’s weird to do, since I’m not her kid or technically blood-related. Lowkey wish she could adopt me even though I’m an adult.
I’m not trying to push 200, but it seems that’s where I’m headed right now. This is my second cycle; the last one was 300mg. I didn't expect to put on this much water weight. Cock stats 7 inches longer, not sure of the girth, but I get compliments.