u/GloomyWill4

I'm so exhausted. I feel like I was just handed a broken plate and told to put a meal on it.

Every dream I had as a child is dead, because I can't motivate myself do to anything. My emotions change every 5 minutes.

I've been on antidepressants and anxiety meds, adhd meds, mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, and nothing really helps besides stopping my quick anger. I've been in therapy since 2nd grade, I know everything I should know, but I'm just getting worse.

I'm turning 21 in June. My family says they love me but my mother has BPD and Bipolar too, so she can't show it correctly, if thats even true. I annoy her and she tells me to leave her alone.

I have a job and a girlfriend/bestfriend/fiance/FP I love, and she understands and wants to help me and she does but I feel so ungrateful and useless that it doesn't work. I always go right back to this.

I was rejected to every college I applied to, so I work a minimum wage job 12 hours a week to make 450 bucks every 2 weeks. I want to travel but my mother won't let me, and she used my ocd against me.

I have no plans to do much of anything beyond dreams of traveling. I really wish I had anything to hold on to for the imediate future, but I know all summer is going to be rotting in my bed or working, or smoking and drinking. I don't have any friends and I can't drive. The only person I know irl is my girlfriend who I've known since I was 12. I love her and shes my everything but I feel like I'm missing some fundementa human expierence in having friends.

I don't have the motivation to do anything at all. I've lost interest in all my passions. I was working on a graphic novel for years and now I haven't drawn in months. I have no inspiration and I feel like I'm dying.

I don't know what to do.

Growing up I was in and out of a lot of mental health facilities, therapy schools in the basements of normal schools, etc. Started in 2nd grade. What people don't realize is even that young, physical abuse was the norm.

Public school teachers were allowed to hold you down and sedate you for any reason, and then lock you inside a padded room, called a quiet room. There was no time limit. We were told to never tell anyone what they would do. This was in public, well known schools in classrooms just adajcent to normal classes. Every school I had ever been in had these.

My school was featured in an article by ProPublica, which ultimately got the practice banned. 'Quiet rooms' were made 'illegal' only a year or so after I graduated.

It was suggested I write a memoir about my experience, but I'm not sure if it's interesting enough to merit one, so I guess:

AMA.

Edit: They reversed the ban in 2020, apparently.

To preface, we are both women. We both live at our parents house. She is transgender (which is relevant).

We've known eachother since we were 12 years old. We've been best friends the entire time weve known eachother, and dating never changed that. We started officially going out in 2024, and instantly it felt like: "yeah, okay. this is the rest of my life. im hers." I had a CRAZY thing for her since 2019, and i finally mustered up the strength to ask if we had something else going on. Turns out we did.

Fast forward to now and it feels like weve been together our entire lives. Shes my best friend. Shes getting her name legally changed soon, and drunk as hell we both said LETS GO GET MARRIED WHEN IT CHANGES! (and not tell anyone until we can afford a real wedding)

I still want to: I'm scared.

I don't want to be with anyone else and I'm not afraid of commitment. I'm scared of me changing and her not liking who i become ot being unable to follow a lifestyle choice i make, or she falls out of love with me and regrets it, or.. i dunno. A million things.

And yes, we do fight sometimes. But we usally just cry at eachother and talk it out.

For context I am 20 years old. I live with my parents. I have no expenses. I work. I never go out. I don't order doordash or anything.
I was in Mongolia last summer for a study abroad thing and I really wanted to go back this summer. The plane tickets are insane!?!? 2k for me to go?? Thats more than what I have in my bank account! I have no savings!

Once I get to the country it's whatever - but 2k just to *get there*? budgetair has a ticket thats only 3 dollars less than all the money I own at all. Period. I get paid every 2 weeks but I only get 450 each paycheck, I can't save all of it just to leave for 2 weeks!

I'm heartbroken. Is there any way to find even cheaper flights?? Weird hacks to get travel money??

Heyo. So I've never booked a plane ticket before personally. I'm kinda broke, so obviously I go over to google flights.

I'm trying to get from O'Hare, to Ulanbaatar. July2nd to July 19th.

The flight that stood out to me was the Hong Kong 21 hour layover, for 1.4k on BudgetAir. Of course I imediately start dreaming about my little side vacation and where I'd quickly head in Kowloon before making it to Mongolia.

The return flight is a 3 hour layover in Istanbul.

...But I started reading up on third party flights. And so I thought alright I'll book all 4 flights via the airlines.

But the flights dont seem to exist?? At least, I can't book them the way I'm trying to book them. And the flight that do exist are 1900 for one way! When the whole bundle would have been 1.4k.

And then I saw people saying not to book connecting flights seperately, for obvious issues about luggage and timing and blah blah blah.

I'm not sure what to do.

Edit: Flight numbers on Budgetair are as follows

ORD to Hong Kong: Miat Mongolian Airlines OM5807

Hong Kong to UBN: Miat Mongolian Airlines OM2972

UBN to IST: Miat Mongolian Airlines OM161

IST to ORD: Miat OM1165

Howdy!

Solo female traveler. I'm heading to Mongolia for the second time, but first time solo. I've only ever been through Istanbul airport to get there, so I'm unclear on how Hong Kong does things. Obviously it's an airport like any other, but I have some other caveats.

I have a 21 hour layover, I'll land at sometime around 7-8-9, and then take off the next day at 6pm.

I've never had a layover longer than 4 hours.

My plan is to go get a female only hostel bed, sleep until 7am their time, go out for some street photography at Goldfish street and the Bird market. Then head back to the airport around 1-3.

Is that enough time?? I'm scared I'm gonna miss the plane. haha.

Heya,

I'm gonna try importing my dream car. Total quote was 8,200, certified by goonet etc. 4star rating for both interior and exterior

I'm really nervous since I've never done this before, I asked for a video of the car running before I buy it, but now I'm worried that I didn't ask more questions.

My nightmare would be being out of this much money and having a lead box that doesn't run.

What should I ask beyond that?