u/Illustrious-Water726

It took me over 4 hours to read the book a short stay in hell which is about 26,000 words or 104 pages. I have spent most of this year trying to improve my reading speed as I was sick of being behind in school and I start college this coming September and when I say trying I mean TRYING I have read approximately 3,581,693 words in books this year and some change for the books i didn’t log which may not sound like a lot but with my reading speed it has taken a hefty amount of time I’m still so slow. I have zero struggle understanding what I’m reading and making my own opinions on what I’m reading it’s just the act of reading that is hard. I have always struggled with reading I was taken out of class to read extra all through primary school I just don’t know what to do anymore I can be fully immersed in what I’m reading taking zero breaks and still I am slow I am so tired and frustrated with this and myself.

I was thinking of drawing a picture of us that I have after we went hiking. Is it weird or self-centred to draw myself as well, do I just draw a portrait of him idk I over think a lot so please help me out.

Any time after 3rd year especially after 5th but I’m not picky. Snape is not Harry’s bio dad. LOTS OF ANGST but happy or at least bitter sweet at the end actually scrap that I’m ok with hurt no comfort in specific cases. Snape finds out about the dursleys. Snape meets the dursleys. Snape and Harry end up living together at some point during it. No romance please or at least non that are a main part of it I get so bored of it :( . I like the fics that go into magical theory and stuff but it’s not a necessity. Anywhere between 50k - 200k words is fine! :)

F17 66kg 5”7 fibromyalgia and pots
I have had this pain for about five days now it is worse during urination and when i sneeze or cough or tense at all, went to the drs no infection shown on test. I have also had a high temperature (not sure exactly what but it comes and goes) and nausea pretty consistently, the peon sometimes starts without any movement at all sometimes it will just happen when I’m lying in bed it is a very overwhelming pain like to the level where it’s all I can focus on. The pain is very low like in line with I think it’s my pelvis bone (the one that protrudes a bit on most women at the front) I had pain in the other side of my abdomen last month only when pressing on the drs discovered it and sent me to another hospital thinking it was my appendix but it wasn’t, their is still pain there only when pressure is applied. My last 3 urin samples done at the drs for various other issues have all shown blood in them not enough to see I guess but it shown up on the tests. The dr just said it is cramps but I know it isn’t cramps don’t feel like I’m being stabbed in one specific spot I don’t even get cramps on my period really and when I do it’s light and in the centre of my stomach. Definitely not pregnant!

Haven’t been able to have a single appointment yet and I’m suffering. Does anyone have any idea how much longer I’ll wait just a general idea from anyone in a similar position? I feel like I am just lost I’ve been waiting so long it’s like I’m constantly looking for something to happen and it doesn’t I mean I was prepared for a long wait when I got put on the waiting list but man it just feels endless. Idk how different the wait time is for the adults in comparison to the children’s and how much time is gonna be taken off my waiting because of my long stay on the children’s for the transfer like.

I feel so unwell I’m scared to sleep because I know it’s one of those times I’ll wake up feeling worse I’m so scared right now I hate feeling cornered by my own body I haven’t even done anything that would make me sick I’m stressing so bad I hate this so much

Like I’ve tried fixing my grip but I can’t draw like that but holding it normally is causing pain is there something that can help? I need to draw but I’ve been struggling because of the pain in my fingers .

He/him ftm. It basically means if you don’t look the gender of the bathroom you are in they can kick you out (to explain it on the most basic level) and that you have to use the bathroom of the sex you where assigned at birth. I’m so scared rn bro like I have used them men’s for years my voice is terribly feminine but you don’t really speak in the men’s and most of the public disabled toilets need a key and also I feel bad for using them. The last time I used the women’s I was kicked out but I’m scared that one day if I’m just not passing my best I’ll get kicked out and that is scary I can’t use the women’s I mean for one it just makes me terribly uncomfortable and it always has but also I’ll get in trouble for being in there too.

I’m fighting with These springs every god damn night oh my god was it always this bad. I gotta get a mattress topper asap.

I have broken about 6 bones (confirmed bc ill never go to the hospital for toes) within my childhood, I have hyper mobility which makes me clumsy. I can only remember not having to literally beg to go to the hospital for two of those and I was quite young when one of those happened (my nose was crooked and gushing blood) and the other was my ankle the size of a tennis ball at the age of like 6 so very obviously broken. But the rest I would have to literally beg bc I was in so much pain I new i needed the hospital and not just to “sleep on it” one time my collarbone was completely snapped like the dr only glanced at the xray before fixing me up kinda snapped and i remember literally begging to go to the hospital for that like crying saying it was broken for ages before my dad would finally take me, or he would be like “yeah my ankles playing up too” he still does this I have chronic pain and he’s always like oh yeah my hip hurts too or my shoulder hurts too. It’s so frustrating like me being in pain doesnt take anything away from him but he thinks it does like he can’t be sympathetic or helpful until I’ve felt bad for him first. It’s like I can’t be in pain without him making sure i know he is suffering more or something.

17 m. I’ve had the same nightmare about being assaulted in some way (the nightmare is different but the same thing bad thing happens) by the same person since I was a kid. The nightmares happen quite rarely they aren’t frequent but they have been happening for years maybe a couple times a year. It makes me nauseous and scared to think about I feel spaced out the day whole after at minimum. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to think that something happened at all I really don’t I have no memory of anything happening but then again I have hardly any childhood memories. I don’t want to talk to anyone in person about it because what if it happened or what if it didn’t happen I feel like I’d be ruining everything. I don’t know what to do what if it didn’t happened and I’m just disgusting or weird and my brain is making it up. I had one last night and I saw him today and I felt genuinely scared I wasn’t even consciously scared I just felt like my stomach drop and the need to leave when he came close to me. I don’t really know what to do I can’t get a therapist I’ve tried in the past for my anxiety and depression but I couldn’t get one on the nhs and I can’t afford one. I feel sick just writing this out but I need advice or just to talk about this in some way. I don’t even know if anything happened I feel so stupid I hate it.

This sounds stupid but i didn’t know where else to ask. I’ve had nightmares about being assaulted since I was a kid all about the same person these specific nightmares are rare but they happen and have been for years idk why ok ive never really thought about it they are just nightmares i have nightmares all the time. I had one last night didn’t think about it till i was near said person and i felt like i was scared like not consciously just automatically on high alert and inching away sort of scared. I honestly don’t know what to do or think. I have always had vivid nightmares but usually they have a different target it switches up each time only the ones with this stuff happening have always had the same person. How do I stop being scared about things that haven’t happened. I haven’t got much memory of being a kid but I’m pretty sure i wasn’t assaulted I feel so stupid and weird for having these nightmares idk who to talk to this about or what to do or how to fix it I hate this any advice on what to do literally any at all?