(28 F) idk why I'm just feelin like I really need some affection right now.. 😔 I'm going through something and it's really stressful, plus my time of the month is coming in a few days, I get especially teary and needy around this time and I also feel so lonely 😞I'm just sad and stressed out, with no one safe to hug around me
I can do either a studio apartment, one bedroom, or a room in a shared house with only female roommates.
I don't smoke, drink, or have any pets. I'm quiet and introverted and very clean. Budget $1000 a month preferably under 900.
Anyone who is leasing or subleasing with the description above, please DM me or comment so I can DM you.
I really don't know where else to post this i feel like i might get mocked about it anywhere. I don't know why I've been hyperfixating on misogyny these past few days. I also likely have PMDD and I'm going through this right now so I feel more activated and on edge than usual but still. This feels actually unbearable. I'm in this constant state of paranoia. I wanted to call 988 but worried it would be a male answering. I went through and deleted most of the male YouTubers i was subscribed to, I have this urge to cut off every single male in my life. Sorry if I sound incoherent. I'm just in extreme distress. These images of sexual violence of men against women I've heard about and seen keep popping into my head. I keep crying and just feeling in utter doom and despair. It just doesn't make sense to me. If life comes from the pairing of male and female how is it that the male is so cruel to the female and doesn't care at all about our well-being. How is life supposed to thrive this way. I dont even understand life. I've just seen so much cruelty and injustice from males that it almost feels like this is the natural state and in that case i simply don't understand this world and i just want to be gone. I either want to be gone or i want this world to be gone. I really don't want to end up doing anything drastic but I feel just extremely activated and on edge I feel actually insane.
Does anyone else feel an overwhelming need for more hugs and affection before period? I just want someone to hold me, tell me everything will be okay and reassure me a lot and tell me they love me. To be in their arms for hours just non-stop. But I have no one. And I feel like I'd be a burden if I ask for that. :(
I'm getting it especially bad this time around I don't know why. I've been extremely depressed and tearful for a few days now. And I have this feeling of unrealness. Paranoia increases. When I look back on when I've had the worst panic attacks and anxiety of my life, it's almost always been right before or on my period.
Today I was feeling so horrible and just crying uncontrollably that I couldn't continue work. Even my managers who were so kind and sweet encouraged me to go home.
I remembered walking somewhere today and just feeling unreal. It was such a strange feeling. It was like an out-of-body experience. Like I'm observing someone and the world outside of my body. This has happened when I'm in extreme stress I guess it's some form of disassociation.
Anyway, I've just been so stressed I needed to let this out. I'm also moving in August so a big transition is coming up. A lot happening. I feel a little better now after I left work and I slept for a bit. Listening to some calming nice music right now. Trying to stay comfortable and not overwhelming helps. :( 😢 😞
I started since April and still going strong. I'm so happy 😊 😊 😊 especially with everything I've been going through recently, I feel so proud of myself. And the longer I keep going, the more I want to keep going. And the more automatic it's becoming. Some days ago I went to a college event where they had lollipops and sweets. I didn't even consider grabbing one, in my mind it was just "nope not taking that". And a week ago there were like 3 boxes of cookies and sweets in my workplace's staff break room as treats for us, I was literally sitting next to them during my whole break eating my own food and I wasn't really bothered by it. I'm happy!!
I'm also moving in August finally getting my own place, and I'll have complete control over what foods will be in the house, I'm excited to implement that in a healthy way :)
Can we stop with this stupid ass "joke"? It's such an outdated, unfunny comment just rooted in sexism and honestly misogyny too. I don't give a fuck call me bitter or humorless because this shit is so fucking annoying especially nowadays when women are literally all over the Internet. Subreddits dedicated to women and participating in the millions. Women are actually normal human beings with variety who go on the Internet and Reddit too wow. So shocking.
I'm probably gonna have a difficult conversation with my dad tomorrow ...and I'm honestly anxious and scared. I've been feeling off all day today. I think I'm also PMSing. My anxiety is always worst right before my period. I'm sad that this has to happen right now:(
But I also don't want to stall it too long.
I don't see my therapist until Monday. 😢
I'm just sad 😞it's a very complicated situation. I'm trying to be more calm and just stop thinking it's such a big deal especially at my big age...ughhhhhhh. I really need to stop caring so much what others think especially my parents :|
I'm probably gonna have a difficult conversation with my dad tomorrow ...and I'm honestly anxious and scared. I've been feeling off all day today. I think I'm also PMSing. My anxiety is always worst right before my period. I'm sad that this has to happen right now :(
But I also don't want to stall it too long
I'm just sad 😞it's a very complicated situation
I want someone to hug me and tell me they love me 😢
My hobbies and interests include the things I like to do, the things I look forward to and the things I'm involved in
I don't like the things I hate
And I work and survive and exist
Wbu
I'm 28 and I'm going back to college but also moving out this time. I'm moving away for college, although I've also thought about just staying moved out even after college, although I'm not completely sure about that yet, but for now I am moving away for college and also to spend some time on my own at least. Me and my parents have never had a very good relationship and our relationship now is just kind of distant and surface-level these days. I've been wanting to move out for a very long time and away from them but there were many reasons I couldn't, including severe mental health problems and also middle eastern culture where we don't really typically move out until marriage, especially for women (although we grew up in the US, parents are immigrants). Anyway, I have made a more firm decision to move out and have been working on it for the past several months. I didn't tell them until I was more certain and prepared. I told them 2 weeks ago that I'm moving away for college and explained details and I guess they have been thinking about it more too these days.
My dad just asked me a few questions about how I will do this and that once I move out (he has also done a lot of fear-mongering), and then he told me he wants to talk about my decision to move out. I'm worried that it might turn into somewhat of an interrogation. I already explained to them a lot, and calmly too. I told him that I'm too tired and going to shower soon and sleep and tomorrow I have work so the talk will probably happen on Sunday. I don't know if I should have just said something like "I have already explained and I won't repeat or answer any more questions" but I really don't want any conflict to happen especially now because I will be moving August 1 and there's only a month and like 10 days left. I just want this last bit to go smoothly, but perhaps I've been a bit too conflict-avoidant myself too. I just don't feel emotionally safe. Now I think I'm gonna have anxiety tonight and tomorrow. I guess I just need some advice on how to handle possible questions or if my parents start to "grill" me, how to stand my ground while also being calm and respectful because if I get angry or impatient it might end badly for me.
In particular I'm worried they might interrogate me on why I didn't "consult" or talk about it with them before making this decision and signing the lease. But like, we haven't really had a proper relationship where both sides consult with each other on things. They never "consulted" with me when they bought a house here in a different state, I was 23 at the time so a grown adult, but they just dumped it on me one day and said if you're coming then come and if you're not that's on you. Also part of the reason I didn't tell them before it was because I was worried they would instill self-doubt in me and that it may have made me believe less in myself to make the decision.
I'm also worried about any possible scrutiny or they might criticize the place I'm going since the door of the place is kind of rusty and old and it has a few defects but it is overall a good place especially for the price and location and (it's not like it's going to be my permanent place forever). But they get really intrusive especially my mom and she also talks way too much and goes overboard with her "comments" but they both said they want to see the place (it's a studio apartment btw) and offered to help move my things in with me. I wasn't completely keen on the idea but I also think if I reject then it might cause more conflict with them.
Help. :(
I know I'm 28 and I should be more mature and care less about what they think by now, but my situation is very difficult and unique and if you were in my shoes you'd understand so please don't judge me on this :/
I'm 28 and I'm going back to college but also moving out this time. I'm moving away for college, although I've also thought about just staying moved out even after college, although I'm not completely sure about that yet, but for now I am moving away for college and also to spend some time on my own at least. Me and my parents have never had a very good relationship and our relationship now is just kind of distant and surface-level these days. I've been wanting to move out for a very long time and away from them but there were many reasons I couldn't, including severe mental health problems and also middle eastern culture where we don't really typically move out until marriage, especially for women (although we grew up in the US, parents are immigrants). Anyway, I have made a more firm decision to move out and have been working on it for the past several months. I didn't tell them until I was more certain and prepared. I told them 2 weeks ago that I'm moving away for college and explained details and I guess they have been thinking about it more too these days.
My dad just asked me a few questions about how I will do this and that once I move out (he has also done a lot of fear-mongering), and then he told me he wants to talk about my decision to move out. I'm worried that it might turn into somewhat of an interrogation. I already explained to them a lot, and calmly too. I told him that I'm too tired and going to shower soon and sleep and tomorrow I have work so the talk will probably happen on Sunday. I don't know if I should have just said something like "I have already explained and I won't repeat or answer any more questions" but I really don't want any conflict to happen especially now because I will be moving August 1 and there's only a month and like 10 days left. I just want this last bit to go smoothly, but perhaps I've been a bit too conflict-avoidant myself too. I just don't feel emotionally safe. Now I think I'm gonna have anxiety tonight and tomorrow. I guess I just need some advice on how to handle possible questions or if my parents start to "grill" me, how to stand my ground while also being calm and respectful because if I get angry or impatient it might end badly for me.
In particular I'm worried they might interrogate me on why I didn't "consult" or talk about it with them before making this decision and signing the lease. But like, we haven't really had a proper relationship where both sides consult with each other on things. They never "consulted" with me when they bought a house here in a different state, I was 23 at the time so a grown adult, but they just dumped it on me one day and said if you're coming then come and if you're not that's on you. Also part of the reason I didn't tell them before it was because I was worried they would instill self-doubt in me and that it may have made me believe less in myself to make the decision.
I'm also worried about any possible scrutiny or they might criticize the place I'm going since the door of the place is kind of rusty and old and it has a few defects but it is overall a good place especially for the price and location and (it's not like it's going to be my permanent place forever). But they get really intrusive especially my mom and she also talks way too much and goes overboard with her "comments" but they both said they want to see the place (it's a studio apartment btw) and offered to help move my things in with me. I wasn't completely keen on the idea but I also think if I reject then it might cause more conflict with them.
Help. :(
I know I'm 28 and I should be more mature and care less about what they think by now, but my situation is very difficult and unique and you would understand if you were in my shoes so please don't judge me on this :/
Im so frustrated.
It's a little hard to sleep. I am sleepy but my mind is so preoccupied. I feel so bothered and annoyed. Had an interaction with my dad that really triggered too much stuff within me. I'm trying so hard to ignore it and sleep but it keeps creeping back in. I don't know how to feel calmer again. My anxiety is bad right now. I just feel so angry, sad and anxious all at the same time.
I already knew that they sneak in added sugar in so many products, but I'm still learning every day. I don't have much ketchup in general. But the past few weeks I've been going through some complicated things and have been buying out more when I need a quick boost. Sometimes I've bought a small pack of Wendy's fries. I know that's not the best thing to eat but it was cheap and gave me some quick energy without going for sugar. I sometimes had ketchup with those fries, maybe around 3 packets. Apparently that's like... 6 grams of added sugar 😳
Well anyway. I'm almost two months and a half on my sugarfree journey. I feel pretty proud especially because my main problem was the sugary processed snacks I used to have after dinner, and I haven't done that at all this while :) I still feel a little disappointed that I might have been having some added sugars here and there without knowing, but that's part of the process too I guess. I can still call myself sugarfree since I was for the most part, at least while knowing 😁
This might be a weird question. But I'm genuinely struggling on what to do.
I'm going back to college + moving in August, so I'll be leaving my current job. I've had a lot of good memories at this job and I like my coworkers. I'm definitely going to miss some of them. I'm going to make my own personal thank-you card that will address everyone at my workplace. I'm also thinking of getting a few personalized gifts to a few of those I was closer with. But I also wanted to do something more for everyone. I've thought about requesting a custom cake in the shape of a book with a short thank-you message in icing (I work at a library). But I can't help but feel like it might be hypocritical because I am going no-sugar myself. I've been at it since April 1 (no added sugar or extremely minimal) and still going strong. I just don't know how I feel about reinforcing this type of thing, like giving sweets and added sugar as "treats" to others. What do you think? Do you still give treats like this to others even if you don't eat it yourself? Is there any alternative to a treat similar to a cake where everyone can get a piece, and it's a light-hearted gesture? Maybe it's just the most common go-to thing as a treat or for a celebratory event that other things feel weird to me lol. Just thought I'd get some thoughts from other people in a similar position as me.
I'm also kind of a sentimental person and I like doing personalized things (such as the book shape of a potential cake) and I really want to do something like this. I'm kinda stuck on what to do if I don't go with this idea.
Im just trying to distract myself, use coping mechanisms and self-soothe. There have been some pretty big events lately. I just feel so overwhelmed. It's too intense. I just need some comfort. :(
Please :( I feel so alone, sad and frustrated. I just need a hug and for someone to tell me everything will be alright. 😔
I just told my parents today about my plans for college and moving out.
I'm in my late 20s but going back to college, and also been wanting to move out for many years now.
I kind of had controlling parents growing up and was very angry at them for a very long time.
The conversation we had today went pretty well, better than I expected. But now I'm feeling a strange mix of so many emotions at once. Relief, excitement, happiness, sadness, loneliness, grief, and even guilt for some reason.
I don't have much friends either and I guess that's one reason that might me amplifying especially the loneliness I'm feeling. I'll be going to a new place, not knowing anyone, and have to basically start from scratch. I'm excited though and it's a great place, but still, I think I'll have to work through a lot once I get there.
Welp. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow which is good especially after this pretty big matter today.
But I feel sad right now. I feel so strange too. I feel almost like a different person. Maybe part of me is grieving the version of myself from the past and maybe also the relationships that didn't go as I'd hoped they would. Now that moving on is actually becoming a reality, I guess it feels like unfamiliar territory. But anyway. Sigh. I guess I have to push through this. I just wanna be okay....
There was a post on reddit of someone showing a plate that looked like it had a face on it because of the position and reflection.
Someone commented "he looks disappointed" (the plate "face").
I just commented "what if it's a she".
Someone else commented "why because it's dishes to be washed? /s"
I responded with "that makes no sense".
Someone tried explaining the "joke" to me and I simply repeated it makes no sense because the dish is not a woman. Also, it wasn't funny anyway.
also the "woman+dish" joke got a bunch of upvotes while I got downvotes.
Idk. I could be overreacting or being boring. Whatever I guess. I've just been exhausted with misogyny and ever since learning some things I just see it everywhere all the time. My brain can't stop connecting things. Like, why is the "he" pronoun a default for so many ambiguous things even objects. Also, why always some stupid joke about women and dishes? I'm just tired. 😐