I Deactivated My Facebook
I had to ask my husband to step back from over the road trucking and switch to local runs because I genuinely couldn't handle being so isolated and alone for weeks at a time. But making that choice just highlighted how empty my world is and how isolated I really am.
I don't have many people who would say they're my friend, and the few I thought were true friends don't show up. When you're sitting in a house by yourself day after day, yearning for simple human connection and feeling like nobody gives a damn to check in, it breaks you down.
I made a post earlier just to my friends and over 150 people saw it, and not a single person reached out. It hurts to feel this invisible. It makes you feel pathetic when you can't even pay people to spend time with you. People love to talk about how mental health matters, but the second you actually speak up and show your raw struggle, you're met with silence. Or people actively make it worse.
I'm crying out for human connection because I am so goddamn lonely, and people's reaction is to isolate me even more. It's clear I'm not important to anyone. I deactivated my Facebook and uninstalled the app because it's obvious I won't be missed.