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I have decided I am going to fully change my hair, makeup and clothing style plus I will make rules about showering twice a day and brushing my teeth four times a day and only drinking certain amounts a day and eating very little everyday, I would need that. I also know I need to change my personality. I need to be quieter and keep more to myself. I need advice on how to become normal not say too much and to understand social cues. I also need to learn volume control, I don’t know how to do that.

I like to dance and I know I am a good dancer. I wouldn’t really want to be part of a group, I would rather be the one in control and choreographing everything and being centre stage.

I like to dance and I know I am a good dancer. I wouldn’t really want to be part of a group, I would rather be the one in control and choreographing everything and being centre stage.

Im 16 and I have been overweight my whole life and I’m not exactly sure how, I didn’t over eat growing up and I was super active, I was in swimming, football, dance and gymnastics but somehow only got bigger and bigger. I know that if I start working out now everyone in my family will have that “I told you so” attitude and tell me that they did tell me to try and lose weight sooner and thats what I’m scared about.

I don’t hate my body, recently I stared to love it but I know that the reason nobody wants to be my friend and doesn’t treat me the best is because I’m fat and Im sick of buying clothes and showing my mother and her saying “It looks great but it would look even better if you were skinny.”. Its been a thing I was reminded of my whole life, I remember being 8 and my auntie telling me only to eat if I’m starving and I try but that doesn’t work.

I probably eat around 1000 calories a day or less. Theres been a few periods of time where I was eating less than 700 a day and then trying to make myself sick if it went over. I currently don’t live near a gym and I also don’t have any work out clothes, I have jeans and thats kinda it but when I get appropriate clothes id be more willing to go to a gym but i’d have to go in secret and alone.

Im 16 and I have been overweight my whole life and I’m not exactly sure how, I didn’t over eat growing up and I was super active, I was in swimming, football, dance and gymnastics but somehow only got bigger and bigger. I know that if I start working out now everyone in my family will have that “I told you so” attitude and tell me that they did tell me to try and lose weight sooner and thats what I’m scared about.

I don’t hate my body, recently I stared to love it but I know that the reason nobody wants to be my friend and doesn’t treat me the best is because I’m fat and Im sick of buying clothes and showing my mother and her saying “It looks great but it would look even better if you were skinny.”. Its been a thing I was reminded of my whole life, I remember being 8 and my auntie telling me only to eat if I’m starving and I try but that doesn’t work.

I probably eat around 1000 calories a day or less. Theres been a few periods of time where I was eating less than 700 a day and then trying to make myself sick if it went over. I currently don’t live near a gym and I also don’t have any work out clothes, I have jeans and thats kinda it but when I get appropriate clothes id be more willing to go to a gym but i’d have to go in secret and alone.

Im 16 and I have been overweight my whole life and I’m not exactly sure how, I didn’t over eat growing up and I was super active, I was in swimming, football, dance and gymnastics but somehow only got bigger and bigger. I know that if I start working out now everyone in my family will have that “I told you so” attitude and tell me that they did tell me to try and lose weight sooner and thats what I’m scared about.

I don’t hate my body, recently I stared to love it but I know that the reason nobody wants to be my friend and doesn’t treat me the best is because I’m fat and Im sick of buying clothes and showing my mother and her saying “It looks great but it would look even better if you were skinny.”. Its been a thing I was reminded of my whole life, I remember being 8 and my auntie telling me only to eat if I’m starving and I try but that doesn’t work.

I probably eat around 1000 calories a day or less. Theres been a few periods of time where I was eating less than 700 a day and then trying to make myself sick if it went over. I currently don’t live near a gym and I also don’t have any work out clothes, I have jeans and thats kinda it but when I get appropriate clothes id be more willing to go to a gym but i’d have to go in secret and alone.

Im sixteen and as of lately I cant sleep a full night, last night I fell asleep at 7pm and woke up at 8pm and then I couldn’t sleep until 3am and when I woke up again it was 6am. I keep sleeping this way and Im not sure how to fix it because I keep falling In the day when I’m around people or on the bus, I don’t know how to fix this.

I’m sixteen so forgive me if my eating isn’t great but currently this is what I eat in a month

1st - porched egg
2nd - porched egg
3rd - probably bacon
4th - probably bacon
5th - a sandwich of sorts maybe?
6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17 - scraps
18th - probably takeout
19th - meal with chicken
20th - meal with chicken
21st - meal with mince
22nd - meal with mince
23rd - meal with chicken
24th - meal with chicken
25th - probably takeout
26th - noodles
27th - probably noodles
28th - some sort of pasta packet thing
29th - a meal deal maybe?
30th - probably at someones house or not eating
31st - porched egg

I have olive oil, paprika, garlic, salt, lemon juice, beef broth, garam masala and pepper

I posted last night about not having food and I did get to eat, I had two slices of ham and half a pot of noodles. Right now in the fridge we have garlic and bacon. That is basically it. There is rice here but I’m not sure how to season it to make it bearable. My mother does have the money to order takeout but if she orders some now (11am) Its basically useless because I’ll have to eat again later which means more money. I know the obvious answer is to go out and get groceries but my mother refuses to go out to get groceries, she gets them delivered and because she didn’t put in an order yesterday we cant have anything here today but if she puts one in today we can definitely eat tomorrow, it’s just now I’m worried about. I also know that i shouldn’t be hungry because I ate at 3am so really i should starve until about 3pm.

EDIT: i ate two slices of ham, a bit of cheese and half a pot of noodles.

im a female if that helps. i know that it isnt shit, i make sure to wipe my butt even when i haven’t shit so i dont understand why they always look dirty. im too embarrassed to ask anyone because they are obviously going to assume im not wiping correctly which i am.

currently in the fridge there is an expired cucumber, cheese, ham, bacon, jam, red bull, garlic and cola. I have eaten today, i had some chicken balls at about 1pm but i woke up unbelievably hungry and i cant sleep, its 2am so i cant order food and im also sixteen and have no money of my own so id have to wake my mother and i dont think she would appreciate that.

a few days ago i had a vision in my brain about a boy i dont know, i only know about him from his dad but the boy was in pain and my brain kept repeating to me that he needs someone to check on him asap and that he is in danger but i didnt tell his dad because i didnt feel like it was my place to tell him to check on his kid. yesterday he overdosed and is in hospital and i feel so unbelievably guilty because if i had said to check on him there was a chance that wouldn’t had happened.

i have to go today because its my last chance but i cant leave my bed and i just cant do it, i dont see the point anymore because i probably wont be around very long and im only going so i can have a friend but i probably wont even get any because im not skinny so whats the point? i just dont want to be without friends, i cant do that again.

im sixteen and i dont know how to be my own person while im around my mother. i have been depressed for years and i havent gotten myself treatment or ever been able to help myself because all i can think about is how my mother would feel. i feel physically sick at the thought of trying to look after myself knowing that my mother is aware im trying to get better.

she makes me feel bad all the time. if i try on clothes she will tell me how much better it would look if i was skinny. i cant become skinny overnight or in a week or a month so why tell me that? i dont know how to form my own opinions on things. if i like a certain makeup look i do and she doesn’t i wont do my makeup like it again. she always makes sure to tell me if it doesnt look good.

im scared that it will keep getting worse. its already to the point where id sooner let myself silently die then try and help myself and get any help because getting help means she will have to be involved and if i dont involve her she will get so mad at me. i cant even go to therapy but if i did she would ask me after every session what i talked about which i dont want to answer and when i didnt tell her what i spoke about she got angry because clearly i was talking about her and how “bad of a mother she clearly is” when i didnt. i just told the truth.

i also needed money from my dad who should be funding me anyway but she wont let me, i really need a laptop for college and she isnt letting me get help from him because she doesnt want to swallow her pride.

im sixteen and i feel so sad that its making my whole body hurt. i dont know how to fix it because the only thing i want isnt possible yet. i want to be normal and like normal people because normal people go to college and they dont use benefits. they can afford whatever, like if they wanna go to a concert with a friend they can do that. normal people have friends and partners. normal people dont talk too much or talk too loud. normal people have hobbies and interests. normal people go places like restaurants with family. normal people have their own money. normal peoples best friend isnt their own mother. normal people dont have to ask their mother for money because they already have pocket money and stuff. normal people have birthday parties with friends. normal people go places alone, like going for coffee alone for fun. i really want to be normal, it hurts so much everywhere. i just want to be able to help myself but i cant because normal people dont help themselves because they dont need helping so i cant and if i do try my mother will know and i dont want her to know because its out of character for me to look after myself so i cant. i dont know what to do because i cant help myself because theres so many rules in my head and they dont let me.

im sixteen and i need some sort of life advice. i need a job. i know that but everywhere is not hiring or im too young or i dont fit the criteria needed. i need to get a job to fund college. i DESPERATELY need to attend college this year. im deeply lonely and college is something i need to help that. without a job i cant go. i dont have pocket money to save up money and then fund college or anything along those lines. i have £60 from my birthday, i thought i was getting £200 but its not happening. i cant fund college from £60. i have to buy clothes and a laptop and get bus fares everyday. i need help on how im supposed to do this. i am really trying to get a job but nowhere is taking me. please help me.

i am sixteen and it was my birthday a few days ago and birthdays are the only time i receive any form of money because i dont get pocket money and i dont have a job yet.

i want to attend college this year but i do not own a laptop and i know that i can borrow a school laptop or whatever but i would rather not because the thought of doing so makes me upset because its not a good impression that i cant even afford a laptop.

i also want a job but i do not have the best footwear so i would need shoes. i also dont have much clothes and the clothes i do have are somewhat revealing which is not a good look and if im working around kids or whatever it is really not a good look.

both options would most likely have to be funded by me because my mother doesnt have a job and now that im sixteen its my job to make sure i have the stuff i need.

TLDR; so i either spend all my money on a laptop but then run the risk of getting a job because i have no proper clothes or get clothes and have a higher chance of getting a job but then not being able to attend college this year.

i am sixteen and it was my birthday a few days ago and birthdays are the only time i receive any form of money because i dont get pocket money and i dont have a job yet.

i want to attend college this year but i do not own a laptop and i know that i can borrow a school laptop or whatever but i would rather not because the thought of doing so makes me upset because its not a good impression that i cant even afford a laptop.

i also want a job but i do not have the best footwear so i would need shoes. i also dont have much clothes and the clothes i do have are somewhat revealing which is not a good look and if im working around kids or whatever it is really not a good look.

both options would most likely have to be funded by me because my mother doesnt have a job and now that im sixteen its my job to make sure i have the stuff i need.

TLDR; so i either spend all my money on a laptop but then run the risk of getting a job because i have no proper clothes or get clothes and have a higher chance of getting a job but then not being able to attend college this year.

I am sixteen and I am hopeful going to college in September but I have such a miserable life. This hit me on my birthday, I spent my night getting drunk and clubbing with my mother and my auntie. Most people do that with friends. I found out afterwards that my auntie only took me because she felt bad for me and how I don’t have friends or a life, not because she just wanted to take me somewhere.

I want a job but I’m not exactly sure how to get one and I don’t have anyone to help me do that. I only want a job so I can have money because I literally have none and never have because I don’t have pocket money or money I can just have. Im not exactly sure how I could juggle a job with college and a social life but I cant have a social life without money.

Im not sure how to get friends, Ive never really had friends before. I don’t know how to get friends that I get to see outside school, I would like to have friends I can hang out with. Its always been my dream and I would like advice on how to achieve that. Its all I want in life so please don’t tell me friends aren’t worth it.