u/Ryuken_ishida25

I 25 M have been dating 31 F for past 3 years , and knew for 5 years before that as an online friend, she's russian lives in Moscow and I am from a different country , I joined HSE for masters in Moscow , russia came all the way to her country and with zero connects and only on my merit worked my ass off to establish a great career for myself learned russian and become fluent which was super hard.

We live together and i had to go back to my home country for some urgent family stuff and such for 2 weeks in this timeframe she and her girlfriends went on a trip with all the girls going with their boy friends and my girl going with a common colleague, and they came back 4 days ago from the 3 day retreat and i am supposed to be back in Moscow on Tuesday that is what she thinks because I wanted to surprise her , and was near her office building to surprise her and saw her yesterday on Wednesday at her time to get off coming out with the same colleague she went to the trip with holiding hands in hand and she kissed that guy , I left the scene with the bouquet I got and am now staying at a hotel with my phone switched off from yesterday night , on my laptop right now and the only thing I have been doing is fucking escorts and crying in their lap . Did yesterday night and today morning just having sex with the escorts and crying in their laps because for the lady I moved countries , learned a language, did all this and devoted myself to all these years has been cheating on me with a random who is not hotter than me , not sexier than me , not anything tbh .

I will wait till Tuesday to turn my phone back on just gonna use my laptop , and don't know what to do like , we were so good together like perfect all the stupid dates trips for just this , cannot talk to anybody so here I am.

We met on trips and after that I moved to moscow for a new beginning to life and maybe to take things farther with her .

I hate that my last 5 years were treated like this .

It all good ruined i developed identity fragmentation, imposter syndrome, bpd and cptsd and i am better than before but I would love to have that life back if there is any demon i can get to and make a ritual

There is a lady i really like and can imagine my life with , we talk but it's not going anywhere and its clear , is there a demon that I can do anything for that will make it comes true for me ?

I am aquarius moon , leo sun , and Aries rising .

I love deeply as deep as anything and I know that , I will love them with all my passion so much so I am ready for even changing countries but when not even half of it is reciprocated even if for 20 days i cannot detach .

Yes the title is right , I am 21 she is 27 , I am a virgin and she has a body count of 23 and I am here 24th , she broke up with her boyfriend last one over 8 months ago but on her public page as she is a music icon and her ex is also a musician they both still have their posts about each other up but they do not follow each other anymore , she needs it for work .

But how am I supposed to deal with it seeing pictures of them hugging z her sitting on his lap kissing his cheek .

For the past 3 weeks she just withdraws and stops talking whenever I bring up something slightly unocmtto talk about like how I feel invisible in our relationship and the intent to date from her side seems to fade .

Same as title , it all comes down to me for that I look for people I can see in some stupid way and find them fascinating like being with someone who's existence I find fascinating like her eyes or smile .

This is what happens too me and I just miss out a lot , would love your take on what you guys feel fulfilled with or looked for in a partner that you are 1000% happy with

Hey , I am 20 and I don't live in russia but my girlfriend does , we met on a trip to Thailand and hit off from there and been good for 11 months now . I am finishing college with a graduate degree in commerce, finance and management and have some consulting experience.

I would like to meet professionals in similar fields I can talk to , and it would be a real help if they can guide me in a way that I can be employed in a corporate job in moscow in next 1-2 years.

Yes i will be learning russian.

She is my first gf , before me she has had 3 bfs all she ended because they were different people in the end and has a bodycount of 23 and i am a virgin.

I don't feel like she is wrong for having such a high body count but I feel odd. I feel bad because it's too much but I still like her ,

We are having problems recently her ignoring me a little and such.

I still like her a lot lot and can move past this i think but don't know how to.

She refuses my sexual advances because she feels we should take it slow , but what of all those hookups with men she met the same day and fucked. It makes me feel she's trying to settle down with me who actually has a good future ahead and cares for her .

Will I be wrong to ask her to cut off all the men she was involved with ? Like block them on everywhere and stay away from that social circle

Please help me people i value her a lot and I can she a amazing future if she puts in some effort