Picked this up a few years ago from Synapse. The only Bluray I own because I still haven't upgraded to a Bluray player. I use an older gaming pc hooked up to my television so I get an upscaled resolution already. It was the only way I could find the DVD, as a combo. But Synapse does some beautiful transfers. One of my all time favorite Hammer films.
And still I'm trapped here in this worthless flesh prison. I'm burnt out, have absolutely no capacity to carry this burden anymore. My life is just this side of Hell. Nothing is good in this Evil fucking world anymore, if there ever really was anything, tbh I don't think there ever was. If I wasn't such a coward I'd have stepped out a long fucking time ago. I'm also starting to question whether or not there is a God and if so I think He's an Evil asshole. I just wish someone would push the Goddamn button already.
I've lived with this since I was in 6th grade.
Concerning hope.
"You'll never find freedom you'll only find lies... you'll only find freedom the day that you die..."
Hello. I thought I'd give this a shot. I'm a young Gen Xer that has not been able to adapt to the digital dystopia. I'm from a time when you could make friends just sitting on your porch. Seeing as I live in an apartment building that's kind of out of the question. So I thought I'd give this a try. I'm looking to connect and make friends with similar interests. I'm really into horror movies, well, all sorts of movies really but horror is probably my favorite genre. I'm also really into music. Music is probably a bit higher in the hierarchy of my interests but movies abs books are close behind. I'm also into ttrpgs, hiking and exploring the outdoors, coffee time, thrifting and conjuring eldritch horrors under a waning crescent moon. Ok, that last one was a lie, though I'm up for anything. But honestly, I'm just looking to make some friends to share similar interests, movie nights, music listening sessions, hiking or the occasional arcane ritual.
The conditioned soul has a body full of dirty things—bones, blood, urine, stool and so forth. Nonetheless, the most intelligent men in this material world think they are these combinations of blood, bone, urine and stool. If this is so, why can't other intelligent men be made with these ingredients, which are so readily available? The entire world is going on under the bodily conception and creating a hellish condition unfit for any gentleman's living. - Srimad Bhagavatam 5.12.2 purport
Hi. I posted a few weeks back about needing help to run some errands at least once a week, saying I'm willing to pay someone to help me. I did get some responses and even a couple people that showed up but nothing that's gone anywhere. I did meet an awesome human that was everything I could hope for but unfortunately situations in their life has made it impossible for them to continue. Im still in need of someone dependable for at least an hour, hour and a half once a week for a trip to the grocery store, or who might be willing to come sit with my dog for the short time it would take me to catch a bus and do my errands. As of now I have nobody. I can't keep paying to have instacart deliver and I have no options. I'm waiting to hear back from social services, I used to get Supportive Community Living but was abruptly cut off with no notice 3 weeks ago. I just need a little dependable help. Like I said. I'm willing to pay. Thanks again.
Stoked to finally start reading this. I've been putting it off waiting until my record arrived. I got it off Bandcamp so I've had the digital copy but that doesn't have the cues the record does. So stoked!
Admittedly not Industrial but the Dots definitely fit all the same. The greatest song about the End of the World ever written. (OK, that was obviously hyperbole)
"Dragons walked the Earth again and paraffin was free. A fireeater went insane and torched the final tree."
I'm reaching out to see if there's anybody looking to make a few extra bucks for a weekly trip to run errands. Nothing really onerous that will take long. An hour tops. I just somebody dependable willing to run me to the store or the occasional general errand. Thanks for your time.
Damn. This album is going to be so tasty.
Hello. I hope this is the right avenue. I am in desperate need for a drop in dog sitter this week, preferably Wednesday morning. This morning I was dropped from my services at Successful Living with no notification. This is extremely inconvenient as I am completely dependent upon services to get me to the grocery store as well as other errands and I am now completely stuck. I have a super sweet but extremely needy dog that I can't leave alone and my counselors helped me by sitting with her while I ran into the store and I now no longer have anybody at all. I did sign up for Rover but I'm yet to hear back from anyone and I am running out of food and desperately need to get to the store. As I said, my current services were abruptly cut off without any warning an hour before I was to meet with my counselor for our session yesterday. I absolutely cannot leave my girl alone even for a short trip to the store because she suffers severe separation anxiety and will hurt herself while I'm gone. I just need somebody to come visit her at by place for an hour some morning this week, preferably Wednesday. I'm really stuck here and am desperate. She is a super sweet 9 year old dog. She loves attention and belly rubs. She wouldn't need a walk or to go outside so I just need someone to sit with her for the time it will take for me to run to the store. I have no idea where else to turn. Thank you so very much.
The Dead Milkmen telling like it really is.
I'm high masking, late diagnosed Autism with ADHD. I'm on disability because I can't work. To be honest I'm not sure how I flew by my entire life without anybody actually noticing that something isn't right with me, even being high masking. I just spent my childhood and adolescence being told I was too sensitive, a hypochondriac (I have OCD particularly around health anxiety, I was badgered and bullied by friends and family when they should have protected me. I'm a lifelong underachiever, I've been homeless numerous times in my adult life and I've been tolerated, patronized, and finally abandoned. I've spent the better part of the past 25 years drifting and the past 5 in literal solitary isolation with no connections besides professional counselors, therapists and other mental health workers. I'm broken. I've tried my damndest to keep going and even the strength to offer comfort to others in between meltdowns and "recovery", despite the fact I am in such extreme compassion fatigue. The only respite I get is indulging my special interests, but even those often fail to comfort me too many days to think. I'm tired. My heart is worn out. My mind and nervous system is shot and my body is failing me. I've read about the higher percentage of neurodivergent people that end up stepping out and I'm going to be fully transparent here. I'm seriously considering that option myself. Almost daily. I don't know why I write this now. I guess maybe I'm still reaching for a true connection I suppose, even if that's something I feel is never going to happen.
(Edit) I also have PTSD. I test through the roof every time I take a toxic stess test.
>"No, you, you people, you're the crazy ones. You used to worship Gods. But this? This is what passes for idolatry? Celebrities? What have they got besides small dogs and spray tans? You people used to have old-time religion. Now you have Us Weekly."