u/AdFamous7264

I've been completely obsessed with that guitar part for a few years now. Sometimes it makes me tear up just thinking about it. It feels like getting a hug from someone after you were just really vulnerable with each other. And it's so simple!

So far I've listened to Soft Bulletin, Yoshimi, and The Mystics. As for other artists, two songs where the guitar is similarly beautiful are Nude by Radiohead and New Grass by Talk Talk.

It is much less of an uphill battle right now. I don't think about it much and the urges are much more rare. I can have idle time at night and not feel like I have to resist anything, I can just go to bed.

After I hit the one month mark I stopped counting every day and stopped thinking about it as much, and time is already flying by. I just don't want to get too complacent. I want to continue reaching out about it so the addiction doesn't sneak in through the back door.

24 days clean today.

Yesterday I had this thought about the irony of how much pornographic content I've consumed yet most of it cannot be recalled. It's so purely chemical that I don't remember the things I've seen.

But instead of leaving that realization as is, my brain decided to start TRYING to remember them, but I can only remember the most disturbing things, not the most arousing. So now I keep having these flashes of some of the scariest, most disturbing and heartbreaking content I've made myself watch, and they keep visiting me and making me feel disturbed and ashamed and in pain.

I'm so scared that my brain will use those to keep me in the shame/dopamine cycle, where I convince myself subconsciously that the only way to soothe that shame is to seek that content out voluntarily and get aroused by it again, to exploit the shame, to get off on it.

I've seen a handful of live performances I could find on YouTube but I'm sure I've missed some of his best recorded performances, especially from the microphones era.

And has he ever had a performance where he went all out on the sound design and variety of instruments? Having lots of fx, loops, a bigger band, etc. Or does he always keep it pretty quaint?

It's probably obvious that I'm not sure what to do with the ending. I like the idea of having it drop off abruptly, leaving a feeling of quiet reflection or emptiness. The title refers to a phase in sobriety where you feel intense euphoria and optimism, which can crash and lead to a sort of depression. I started making it during that phase, where I felt like a rolling snowball, gathering more and more optimism, taking on more and more new responsibilities, making more and more promises to myself, to the point where I felt like I was white knuckling my way through it all, and eventually it was too much and I crashed.

Luckily I made it through that phase and can reflect back on it as I continue to work on this song.

I am desperate at this point to quit, I've been trying for 2 years. I can't do this on my own.

Reply or DM if you're open to being my accountability partner and we can discuss logistics and everything.

I had seen Saving Private Ryan many times but it'd been probably a decade since the last time. I actually was motivated to watch it because of a podcast, but the headspace I was in after The Odyssey ended up being perfect going into Saving Private Ryan.

They're obviously very different films, but I think there's something about their artistic integrity, episodic structure, intensity, empathy, and depiction of carnage that made sense together.

I'm interested in the different interpretations of a 5 star film. Would you still give a film 5 stars if it has obvious technical mistakes, plot holes, logical inconsistencies, clumsy line deliveries, etc.?

For me personally, 5 stars usually means a few things:

1. If there are any of the aforementioned flaws, none of them hinder my enjoyment of the film. In fact, with the right tone and style, flaws can add to the charm.

2. The film has a consistent vision all the way through that feels purposeful and human. You can feel that creative, passionate people made the decisions in the film, rather than a bunch of studio executives.

3. I'm consistently moved, entertained, immersed, and/or intrigued throughout the entire film.

4. The film sticks the landing and ends with some level of thematic resonance and/or a thought provoking revelation.

5. Most importantly, after finishing the film I'm reminded why I love cinema.

I made a really shitty recreation of what it might've sounded like. The beat and melody are what I remember best. The saw synth is meant to be the vocals: https://voca.ro/16HLYontqt0N

It may have been on MrSuicideSheep or UKF, definitely in that realm.

The beat sounded a little bit like Glue by Bicep, faster than 128bpm with a double time swinging hi hat, and there might have been a pulsing saw pad in the background, maybe piano chords. The vocals sounded a tiny bit like CHVRCHES but it was a pretty sad, defeated kind of delivery. The vocals had a tinny reverb like she was singing from inside a metal box which added a lot to the emotional effect. The sound was overall pretty minimalist.

The chorus was vocal chops that sounded like her either saying "baby" or "stay with me." To write it out, it was like "bay bah ee bay bah ee bay bah ee." The verses were about shattered expectations after a break up. I think "I thought " was said a lot, like "I thought we had something that could last forever" something like that.

I know this is a low effort post, but you guys are my only hope!! I've been looking for this song for a decade!!