u/ArtisticKay_Marie

So before the last day of work, my boss gave me a talk about how overwhelmed I was in the classroom with the little ones and some screaming. So she cut my hours to two days a week. I mean I know what you guys might be thinking. That’s not very bad. That might be good for you. But that’s not all two days a week it’s not gonna be enough income and plus I explained to her that I need a full-time job so I can pay the bills that I need to pay. I mean, she understood. I’m also a university student taking an online class and she said that that’s also why she’s offering me a two day a week job so I can focus more on my studies. I know my two coworkers appreciate what I do.

I don’t know if they’re really looking at my well-being, or finding an easy way to let me go. Plus, I’m on the autism spectrum myself. So I was talking to one of my relatives about it and then he said he thinks that’s the easy way for them to let me go that’s bullshit. Why would they cut my hours like that? I’m just going to find something else. He thinks I’m probably being the least paid and I believe it. I think I’m the most unappreciative one from the admin because I’m autistic, but I don’t know if that’s the real reason. I know the admin will say they appreciate what we do for the kids, but for some reason, I feel like they don’t really mean it. I feel like I’m the least valued.

He was telling me I should take it while I find another job. I mean I can, but I can just apply right now, but I know getting hired is the tough part. Personally, I don’t think they even like me that much and I think I have a feeling that they don’t so why stay? I’ve already applied for like four jobs and I’m going to keep applying. Sorry for the long rant, but I just needed to let it out.

So I was working in a classroom with students in the Autism Spectrum. I worked with kindergarten through 2nd graders. I did struggle in there with overstimulation and was overwhelmed sometimes but I still showed up, did my best and always was there for those students. I am appreciated of what I do just like other employees. The thing is when I went to go for my review for the school year, my boss knew that I was overwhelmed, and handed me a contract with only two days a week work. I mean it is a great opportunity to be a music teacher and arts assistant for two days a week is but it’s not enough for me because I have bills I need to pay and plus I’m going to a University taking classes online so I need to pay for that to (Got grand and scholarships). I mean I’ve been working full-time and do classes, and I still do it. I know that my boss said it’ll be great because I will have more time in doing my classes so I won’t be so overwhelmed and I work two days a week, but the thing is that’s not gonna be enough when I pay bills and I need to work full-time. I don’t know if they’re really looking at my well-being, or finding an easy way to let me go. Plus, I’m on the autism spectrum myself. 
Oh so I was talking to one of my relatives about it and then he said he thinks that’s the easy way for them to let me go that’s bullshit. Why would they cut my hours like that? 
On top of that I never got para of the month and even some paraprofessional that has been there less than me have gotten it. They do teacher and paraprofessional of the month which is pretty useless. I’m just going to find something else. He thinks I’m probably being the least paid and I believe it. 

He was telling me I should take it while I find another job. I mean I can, but I can just apply right now, but I know getting hired is the tough part. Personally, I don’t think they even like me that much and I think I have a feeling that they don’t so why stay? Sorry, for the long rant, but I just needed to let it out.

Edit: Im already looking for other jobs.

We went to Mexico and stoped at Los Cabo and Ensenada. Cabo was beautiful but it was so damn hot that we didn’t stay to long. Ensenada was beautiful too and the weather was nice. We got some souvenirs from both places. A couple things that I did not like where the elevators that take too long sometimes and when our room keys got mixed up, but we got that figured out. I’m not gonna lie. I was very nervous and scared about going on the ship, but once I got used to it, it was not so bad. This one was a five day cruise.

So I currently work in an autism classroom as a paraprofessional. I was talking to my boss and she said she had a great opportunity for me. I got my contract and it says that Fine Arts assistant where I help the music teacher assist with all the classrooms with art and music. But the thing is it’s only two days a week so so I will only be working two days a week seven hours a day. She knows that I’m a college student in juggling college and working with the youngest kids and sometimes me getting overwhelmed is a lot. I currently 35 hours a week but next year I’ll be working only 14 hours be getting paid less. I mean it is a great opportunity and I would have more time on my studies so I won’t be so stressed out. With working five days a week and doing university, but I do online classes one at a time. I do have financial aid and scholarship, but I still have to pay out-of-pocket for the rest. If I decline and I don’t know what else is there I should’ve asked. Plus, I paid the water bill and the phone bill. I’m sure it’s not gonna be a problem, but I haven’t decided yet and I did read the contract. I do love drawing and I am very artistic and I wouldn’t be working with all the levels so that I can see which age group of kids I want to teach When I have my own classroom and when I am a teacher. I would be less stressed with university if I worked but I would be paid less, which does the downfall of it. I’ll have to get another job I guess if I accept but accepted yet. Tomorrow’s gonna be my last day working in that classroom with our kiddos and I’m pretty sad about it. I don’t know what to do.

Some people think when an autistic child and teen becomes adults, the autism disappear. No it doesn’t. Autistic children become autistic adults. I feel like us adults are just thrown under the bus and we get yelled at for showing autistic traits or hatred. I dont understan. I thought things would get better. I mean it has somewhat but I feel like it’s still happening.

I know I have wonderful people that love me dearly and how is my back which I do for them. Sometimes I feel like some people with or other people actually do like me. I know there might be some people that are annoyed by me because of who I am. I’m not gonna lie. I feel like one of my coworkers is uncomfortable around me or straight up not really like me that much. She barely says hi when I come in the classroom. I mean she does care for me and appreciate what I do. I don’t know. Maybe she’s not a morning person or she has things going on in her mind I can’t just say anything. I feel like no matter how much are you trying to get things right? It’s always wrong. Sometimes being autistic in a workforce sucks sometime. I mean, I do love my job but come on. I had an autism school. Another coworker didn’t seem that fond of mean and I think for my opinion, she was uncomfortable around me. I don’t know who told her I was autistic, but I’d certainly. I know there was time she got frustrated with me or told me off for not seeing social cues or what the kid wants. I show up every day and do my best that I can do. One time, the student was trying to reach for his lunch bag I asked him if he was thirsty. Then she was like, “NO! He‘s HUNGRY! You CLEARLY saw him reach for his food. Give it here so he won’t get it. Like jeez she didn’t have to yell. I almost cried but I had to hold it together. I mean, I understand not everyone’s gonna like me understand me or be fond with me. I know that for sure. I’m very dedicated to my job and I love what I do and I love the kids.