u/Far-Mouse-3841

Maybe ill watch it but im in no position to go into the unknown, not knowing.

I found janice pretty attractive atleast in first season

I could do that no problemmm

What if joe starting catching not pitching??

I need help would anyone be willing to chat/dm about it

My life is incomplete shambles right now i am a high school dropout and have been socially isolated since 18 in 24/7 fear from depersonlization i scroll all day aimlesslesly and feel like a brick wall feeling out of my body and nothingness in my head and emotions i imagine everything in my heand and my thoughts loop i have no one to talk to i complusively masturbate even tho i have a limp numb penis and zero sex drive and smoke cigarettes and music i feel like monsters might come and hurt me and im going nowhere in life and im terrified of what will happen to me once im forced in the real world

I can try and explain all this i dont want pity because this is all my fault

How did all this happen im not sure i grew up lower middle class My mom had a bit of a drinking problem and anger and my dad was a working man who would come home and be angry too they fought alot and had almost zero romantic connection to one another but i still loved them both dearly i miss my mom everyday

As a kid for i caused them so stress and greif u cant even imagine i was an angry brat i was so sheltered and spoiled and wasnt taught to do anything right i always had a problem with attendance my whole life my father would sometimes have to come from work to drag me to school i switched schools constantly and had no real social circle and was so sheltered i was very lonely but was scared of socializing (An oxymoron i know)

My teenage years werernt any better i cut my wrist like a little whiny dork and broke into my fathers gun cabinet and almost shot myself when the thing went off when i was like 14 and was sent to a psych ward after which i was put on the meds that fucked me up so bad and made me a numb vegetable also i developed a bad OCD which caused me so mich weird mental shit where i would do horrible things in anger like punching shit and screaming (I was a fucking monster)

All this being said im almost 22 now no job no life i waste away and all i know is how Fucking awful i am i didnt wanna be this way why couldnt i have been better why was i so weak why did i fail my mom and dad Bottom line is i hate myself

If u can help please do but please dont be afraid to be mean or cruel i needed this my entire life i made it here without rules i needed someone to show me whats whats

Thank you and i know this post is a bad read but im just letting it all out as i go

My life is incomplete shambles right now i am a high school dropout and have been socially isolated since 18 in 24/7 fear from depersonlization i scroll all day aimlesslesly and feel like a brick wall feeling out of my body and nothingness in my head and emotions i imagine everything in my heand and my thoughts loop i have no one to talk to i complusively masturbate even tho i have a limp numb penis and zero sex drive and smoke cigarettes and music i feel like monsters might come and hurt me and im going nowhere in life and im terrified of what will happen to me once im forced in the real world

I can try and explain all this i dont want pity because this is all my fault

How did all this happen im not sure i grew up lower middle class My mom had a bit of a drinking problem and anger and my dad was a working man who would come home and be angry too they fought alot and had almost zero romantic connection to one another but i still loved them both dearly i miss my mom everyday

As a kid for i caused them so stress and greif u cant even imagine i was an angry brat i was so sheltered and spoiled and wasnt taught to do anything right i always had a problem with attendance my whole life my father would sometimes have to come from work to drag me to school i switched schools constantly and had no real social circle and was so sheltered i was very lonely but was scared of socializing (An oxymoron i know)

My teenage years werernt any better i cut my wrist like a little bitch and broke into my fathers gun cabinet and almost shot myself when the thing went off when i was like 14 and was sent to a psych ward after which i was put on the meds that fucked me up so bad and made me a numb vegetable also i developed a bad OCD which caused me so mich weird mental shit where i would do horrible things in anger like punching shit and screaming (I was a fucking monster)

All this being said im almost 22 now no job no life i waste away and all i know is how Fucking awful i am i didnt wanna be this way why couldnt i have been better why was i so weak why did i fail my mom and dad Bottom line is i hate myself

If u can help please do but please dont be afraid to be mean or cruel i needed this my entire life i made it here without rules i needed someone to show me whats whats

Thank you and i know this post is a bad read but im just letting it all out as i go

So i go to a 24/7 gas station and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks wize" oh wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her WHOLE BODY around and look my way bht i stared at my phone then the other brown haired girl was like "Oh wow okay" in like a weird disappointented tone

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I asked around some online friends and they all think she may have been interested

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

So i go to a 24/7 gas station called sheetz and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

So i was at sheetz and

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies at the dining area dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

I know this is weird question cause im sure i have OCD and also its late night at sheetz so anthing can happen but can someone maybe tell me??

So i go to a 24/7 gas station called sheetz and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

So i go to a 24/7 gas station called sheetz and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

So i go to a 24/7 gas station called sheetz and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

So i go to a 24/7 gas station called sheetz and and its the only one open but its also a kinda fast food restraunt with a lil diining area

I go in to get a slurpee and i walk around and pay for my slurpee and notice two Very attractive ladies dressed provacatively (not that its bad or im judging) and the blonde one keeps looking at me like 5 diffrent glances

I pay but decide to kill a few minutes cause i wasnt in a rush so i sit beside them and the tables at like a 45 degree angle i scroll some stuff yada yada

But i can hear a few words like "Like looks size" o"h wow" and i can see out of the corner of my eye the blond one turn her whole body around and look my way

Her order called and she got up and did a little skip and dance to it and she looked at me again

I dont know why but this is sticking out in my head i felt weird did i do something wrong?? I dont even know why im thinking about this??

Idk what to say ive been going to sheetz late at night and i saw this woman working everyday who let me skip on paying for something and after seeing her for awhile i told her she was pretty and ever since i saw her she treats me veryy well

Like always has a big smile and like a week ago i went in and i was standing in a line of 4 people and she like singled me out and asked how i was with a big smile

There isnt much to this post but I havent seen her for awhile Sooooo yeahh

Wont make this long but in short ive been going to a gas station at night to get things and theres this cute girl there who is always so nice and calls me "baby" and even let me slide on paying for things and i devopled a crush a week or so ago i said she was pretty and she was so extact i said that "Omg thats so sweet" anyways

I started researching and talking to people about Manifestation and The difrrents laws ive used visualizing,Love letter method and subliminals

The other night i went in and she light up when she saw me with a big smile and everything and knew what i was gonna get and was like "you always get this"

I think she may like me back and im gonna give her my number when i see her next

Could anyone give me advice on what to do next or raise success rate

Wont make this long but in short ive been going to a gas station at night to get things and theres this cute girl there who is always so nice and calls me "baby" and even let me slide on paying for things and i devopled a crush a week or so ago i said she was pretty and she was so extact i said that "Omg thats so sweet" anyways

I started researching and talking to people about Manifestation and The difrrents laws ive used visualizing,Love letter method and subliminals

The other night i went in and she light up when she saw me with a big smile and everything and knew what i was gonna get and was like "you always get this"

I think she may like me back and im gonna give her my number when i see her next