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I suffer from health anxiety for sure, I always try to seek reassurance (through doctors, internet researches etc..) and I’m always afraid that something might be wrong with my health and that if I don’t check everything quick, it might be too late (sense of urgency).

But I think I also struggle with OCD. I noticed that I started washing my hands way more, I throw away any food that I suspect might be expired (even tho it’s not), or if the food has a weird aspect (I’m not talking about mold, but for example I can eat a banana and if it has a weird taste, I’m convinced that it’s poisoned / toxic).

Also I don’t live alone and one day I opened a jar of yogurt that was already opened and I was convinced someone in the store opened it and put poison into it (turned out my mom opened it).

Today I accidentally touched a gel that is supposed to be for cockroaches infestation, I was so afraid I called the poison line and they told me I was fine. I washed my hands 4 times, and I washed my bag because I thought okay i touched my bag with my hands so I need to clean it as well.

I’m not always like that, but I feel like it’s getting worse and worse

So I’m always afraid for my health, but I do feel like it overlaps with OCD?

I didn’t know that you couldn’t play online with other people, is that true? There is no way? I bought a PS4 a few days ago because it was cheaper than the PS5 but I didn’t realize that I couldn’t play Rust with other people, I was so hyped for that game :((

So I’ve always been avoidant regarding suffering. I’m the type who’d rather look away than face it.

But I knew it would get to me eventually and that I’d be “forced” to look, and that day happened.

I have a cat named Gaia that I love so much, she’s 3 years old and has always been healthy. She’s so sweet and well behaved, she has so much love within her, and I think she’s really wise, I can see it in her eyes.

A few days ago, she stopped eating and couldn’t stop vomiting, so we took her to the emergency vet. They told us that she had pancreatitis and she needed to stay for 2 days in order to hydrate her (cause she was severely dehydrated) and feed her through a tube since she couldn’t stomach anything. Pancreatitis is one of the most painful condition, whether it’s in humans or animals. And just to know that while she was laying on my lap a few days ago, she was suffering GREATLY and I didn’t know, it makes me sick.

Animals can’t ask for help, they’re helpless and that’s what is making me sad, I wish I could just know everything about her without having the need to speak. Although her change in behavior told me a lot.

I will hopefully be able to pick her up tomorrow and will be given the instructions by the vet on how to take care of her, pain medications etc..

But here’s the thing, and I think I’m a coward for that, but it’s hard for me to look at her while I know she’s suffering. I will take care of her (which I will do with unconditional love), but while I will do it, I know there will be a lot of fear involved. I cry and I shake, and I know it’s not helping, but facing the suffering is so hard, especially in such vulnerable beings.

So I guess my question is: how to face the suffering with grace? How can I be there a 100% for my baby Gaia? How do I not cry everyday and how can I be courageous?

I don’t know why, I feel like I’m going to sound crazy trying to explain that but there’s something about that “Mr. White” that Jesse says that is really cute. Maybe it’s because they’ve been working together for so long and they’ve gone past being “formal” but he still calls him Mr. White.

It’s like it creates a contrast between the situation that they’re in and the fact that he stills call him Mr. White as if he was in high school and he was his teacher still

I want to hold Jesse in my arms like he’s my first born I’m taking care of.

No but seriously, I couldn’t stop crying I think starting from season 4? Or maybe season 5 I don’t remember.

Yes he’s flawed (like every human being) but he’s not evil, what he needed was love and compassion.

I saw something on here which shocked me to the core, but maybe it’s because it’s coming from people who are not aware of how to view / treat drug addicts? Yes it’s heavy, but to say “what did you expect from a drug addict?” Is purely dehumanizing, like they don’t get to try and get a better life?

He was a drug addict but it didn’t define him. I would say : he was a human being who had to deal with addiction.

He was failed by Walt because to me, Jesse needed a father figure, and maybe that’s what he potentially saw in Walt, from his older age, his position due to the fact that he used to be his teacher etc..

I noticed that everytime Walt was seeing Jesse, it was just purely for himself, just because he needed something from Jesse. And everytime (or at least in the beginning / middle of the show) Walt would come to Jesse’s house or whatever, you could see in Jesse’s eyes that he would expect more from Walt: an emotional connection. Jesse had no one, but Walt had his family (that he lost anyways).

Jesse wanted Walt to ask how he felt, if he needed help, but he never did. In one scene if I remember correctly, Jesse wanted to hug Walt, I’m pretty positive that he wanted to, but instead, they ended up shaking hands, and I think that explains perfectly what I’m trying to say.

Walt was Jesse’s abuser, due to all the factors that I mentioned above. It’s almost like he was trapped in a toxic relationship, and Walt took advantage of him.

Jesse unlocked a maternal instinct in me I didn’t know I had lol

I love you Jesse

Hello!

So I always walk a lot, although I started walking 15k steps a day instead of 10k steps, around 6 months ago.

I notice ball of foot pain in my left foot (not so much on my right foot). Especially when I walk barefoot.

I wear Sketchers shoes.

I was wondering how could I get better? And what shoes would be good for me? I live in Europe so I’d like something that I can find there.

I come from a Muslim family so the idea of being punished for my sins is heavily rooted in my brain, although I did a lot of work to deconstruct from my family’s beliefs.

I’m not always a good person, and sometimes I lie, sometimes I hurt people, sometimes I’m greedy, sometimes I steal. But I know there’s a place in my heart where I feel a deep compassion towards other beings, and whenever someone needs help, I always do my best to be there for them and help them the best I can.

So I’m flawed like anybody else, not purely evil, but not purely good.

My question is: how do I detach myself from obsessing over the idea of karma and the fear of being “punished” for all the bad things I did?

I also struggle with OCD so that doesn’t help.

Do you believe in karma?

Do you think it’s kind of an energy that I feed and the more I believe in it, the more I will feel the consequences? (Kinda like when people think they’re cursed but that’s because they only focus on the negative stuff that happen in their life).

Hello!

So I suffer with trapped gases which make my stomach painful sometimes, as well as constipation. I explained this to the pharmacist, but I told her I wanted something specifically for gas, and she gave me an antispasmodic with simethicone.

Now I didn’t know that it slowed motility, damn, it’s already slow!!!

Thank God I “only” took it 2 times and not a whole month, but now I’m kinda panicking, I’m already on PPIs which is hard on my digestion, and I don’t want to make everything worse.

Today I woke up with wanting to go to the bathroom, but my stools were so hard and not bulky at all.

I’ll try to drink lots of hot fluids and pray I guess

EDIT: does anyone know what can I do for trapped gases that won’t impact my bowel movements in a bad way?

Hello!

So I was on Pantoprazole for a few months, and my GI decided to switch to Esomeprazole. Today was my first day of taking this PPI.

But I noticed that my heartburn is getting worse.

Is it due to switching PPIs? Will it get better?

I’m so miserable right now lol

Hello!

So I noticed that maybe within the past 6 months, I was EXTRA bloated, to the point where some of my clothes don’t fit me anymore.

My first thought was: I gained weight. So I weighted myself, and actually, I lost some weight.

The reason I’m making this post is to ask how to deal with it, but here’s my history and what could potentially be the cause.

Within the last 6 months, I’ve also been constipated. Some days are better than others. I notice that it gets a little better when I increase my fiber intake (especially kiwis and dried prunes).

But I started being constipated around the same time when I started taking PPIs for my GERD (acid reflux), and I’m still on PPIs because if I stop, the pain comes back.

Also, within the past 6 months to a year, I’ve been taking a lot of antibiotics (I always listened to doctors but there have been cases where I shouldn’t have taken antibiotics because I didn’t have any infection).

My last dose of antibiotics was 3 weeks ago. Now I’m trying to work on my gut microbiome by drinking kefir everyday and try to eat a diverse diet.

I look like a 7 months pregnant woman, and it’s ruining my confidence. Sometimes I wanna dress up and wear clothes that show my figure, but I can’t.

I'd love to meet people who enjoy Jung's work

I’m aware of George Harrison’s song called “Be Here Now”, and I often see the Ram Dass official page on Instagram interacting with The Beatles / George Harrison content.

Have they ever met?

Hello!

I’m new to Depop, I’m used to sell on Vinted but I wanted to try Depop.

I’m from France and I would like to sell all across Europe (and even the US / Canada), but one thing that bugs me is that there’s only one pricing option for international shipping and it doesn’t make sense to me.

Because I live in Europe, it’s going to be obviously cheaper to send in Europe, but I can’t put the Europe shipping price because what if someone from the US buys something from me and then the shipping price is higher?

Why isn’t there a shipping option for each country? I’m really confused

My dental hygiene is impeccable. I eat some sugar yes, but it makes up a small part of my diet.

I just treated a tooth infection back in February, and now I’m discovering that I have another one?? I’m only 25 years old, at this point I’m going to end up losing all of my teeth if it keeps going at this rate.

My first crown was when I was 16 years old