u/SquareFriendship2662

To start off I am mentally ill and I have a lot of life issues so if that is a bit much for you you do not need to contact me. I have been told I can be funny and I am a nice person overall.

I enjoy memes, TV, music, books, etc. and I know how to code somewhat and draw. I enjoy John Candy movies, the band The Beatles, shows like What We do In The Shadows, King Of Queens, etc.

I am looking for someone to talk about life with, share music, memes, etc.

I live in the United States, I am disabled and do not work so I have a lot of time to talk to the right person.

I already posted about being denied by social security for disability and if nothing works out for my appeal I have to work...

I have NO idea what to do or where to even work..I have trouble socializing, multitasking, basic math is hard for me sometimes, etc.

My anxiety is so bad I cry if I have to leave the house sometimes and I have self harm marks which are noticeable.

I have only had remote jobs mostly in technology and thought of learning to code again and make some more projects but im worried it'll be hard to keep up with mentally..I also don't drive and my Dad who drives is disabled so I can't do Uber Eats or anything..

I feel so fucking depressed. I got many issues but my 3 main ones are Bipolar, Schizophrenia, and Anxiety.

I have no idea what to do. Before anyone asks YES I have a lawyer I hired and I ALREADY just went through a ALJ (Administrative Law Judge) hearing. I also see and have seen a psychiatrist since I filed. After my hearing I got denied for Supplemental Security Income and don't qualify for Social Security Disability Income.

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar, severe Anxiety, and Schizophrenia, and I also struggle with other issues but Bipolar and Anxiety were the main focuses of the hearing and my hallucinations and I have medical proof and paperwork of both and was hospitalized twice (one time I was at a psych hospital for almost a month). Im only 23.

I feel like they just want to deny me because im young when I can barely function and am suicidal a lot and depressed.. the vocational expert even said there are no jobs I can do with my limitations mentally. I have severe panic attacks just leaving the house and going to a store, and working in public in front of people would be a nightmare. I also lack social skills and due to my cognitive decline and meds im on it is a struggle just writing this post or replying to an email, let alone actually working and having to be on task all day.

I thought of coding from home but finding work doing that is really difficult. I already have college debt and basic daily tasks just overwhelm me.

I have no idea what to do and im so so fucked.

Unbelievable. I told the judge how anxious I am and how bad it is and he seemed to understand and he even approved a large number of cases compared to stricter judges AND the job expert said there are 0 jobs with my types of limitations..I have already been feeling like shit but this is just the cherry on top.

Mine are Trulieve and MUV near me.

I cannot stop self harming, im a 23 year old woman with no life and no future. Im terrified of driving, using Uber or taxis , and struggle leaving the house. I am hoping I get approved for disability if it works out..

I am ok looking but have weight on me (not huge but not skinny either), I used to have a 3.65 college gpa until my illnesses got worse mentally (I deal with mental illness and chronic pain) and I dropped out of online college. I also had a few jobs from home but couldnt last more than 4 months..

I have a family who cares but my parents are getting older and my Dad is always angry or just doesn't want to bother with emotional shit.

Even if things are going OK I still feel dread every day...I have tried therapy previously which kind of helped a little but the therapists always leave since I can only use low income providers..I also tried antidepressants but they all make me manic.

Im tired of hurting myself and im tired of being depressed (being in the psych ward previously also just made things worse for me mentally overall besides getting new meds that somewhat work for my mental illnesses besides depression).

Overall, I got no future, no car/license, no friends or boyfriend, no job and no college..I am trying my best to keep myself together but it feels impossible when I have nothing good going for me..I have hobbies (like art and learning how to code and things like that), but I don't consider myself that amazing at it.

I would just like to get my disability or have a friend or maybe a partner eventually..focus on hobbies maybe..I need the self harm to stop but don't know how.

It has taken me FOREVER to lose weight..im short and female and was at 173 lbs and now it says im at 167 lbs..I havent lost tons of weight but im glad im not gaining anymore! Im on 5mg Zyprexa, 50mg Trazodone, and 300mg Trileptal.

I cant take a pic because the bump rubbing against my gum is at an awkward angle. I have a bump inside the right side of my upper lip and it rubs STRAIGHT against my gum, it isnt super painful but it feels hard even though I dont notice it much it still rubs against my right side of my upper gums since the bump is inside the right side of my upper lip. It feels stiff/hard and has a little white point you can barely see. It hurts and feels raw when I try popping it and its been months and months and wont pop. What is it??

Im also in Florida with no dental insurance so I dont know what the out of pocket cost would be..

I have had Motorola phones, Google Pixel, and iPhones and have tried using a couple Samsung phones as well. I prefer iPhones but am open to hearing all suggestions, thanks. I also care about the camera as well as the speed the most, a decent battery life helps too but it doesn't have to be anything crazy and I plan to get a phone unlocked so I can use Mint Mobile.

I feel like my illnesses have taken so much from me. My wit, my intelligence, my creativity, etc. I have many illnesses including chronic pain as well but I primarily suffer with severe forms of Schizophrenia, Bipolar 1, and Anxiety. I also struggle with ADHD and OCD, but my Anxiety, Bipolar, and Schizophrenia is the worst.

I have trouble and anxiety over EVERYTHING. Jobs, making friends, dating, etc. I have no partner, or friends, or even a car or license (got my permit though) but my driving anxiety is terrible in general. I try to make friends on here but it is hard, people either write nothing or I just lose interest or the other person does..

It also doesn't help I live with my parents and my Dad has anger issues and is always angry.

The one thing im hoping is that I get my disability since I got done with my hearing a month ago and am waiting on a decision.

Ugh.

I feel like my illnesses have taken so much from me. My wit, my intelligence, my creativity, etc. I have many illnesses including chronic pain as well but I primarily suffer with severe forms of Schizophrenia, Bipolar 1, and Anxiety. I also struggle with ADHD and OCD, but my Anxiety, Bipolar, and Schizophrenia is the worst.

I have trouble and anxiety over EVERYTHING. Jobs, making friends, dating, etc. I have no partner, or friends, or even a car or license (got my permit though) but my driving anxiety is terrible in general. I try to make friends on here but it is hard, people either write nothing or I just lose interest or the other person does..

It also doesn't help I live with my parents and my Dad has anger issues and is always angry.

The one thing im hoping is that I get my disability since I got done with my hearing a month ago and am waiting on a decision.

Ugh

I don't really have any friends. 23f in the United States. I struggle with a lot of issues including Schizophrenia and hobby wise I enjoy computers/coding, art, video games, books, tv/anime, etc. I would like to have a friend to relate to since every time I open up about my conditions people stop talking to me..

I wish I could stop but im tired of being in pain mentally all the time. Ugh.

I relapsed cutting myself. All I hear is a narrative in my head that I should die. I cut my thighs, arms, and put the glass up to my neck and cut my stomach. I CANNOT keep doing this everyday. I have to survive mentally and it is impossible.

I tell my family about my thoughts and they either do not want to hear it or they freak out or they give the same old advice that doesn't even work. I try antidepressants and they don't do anything, I try therapy and it is the same old advice. My family doesn't even want to wait in the waiting room while I do therapy so I either do no therapy or telehealth therapy. Therapy in and of itself is exhausting.

I can't stop having fantasies of ending everything. I can't take my pain anymore. My family just yells at my problems or ignores them..I am also dealing with multiple mental issues and ON medication and STILL cut. I applied for disability for my mental health and am waiting forever. I got no car, no friends, no partner, no job, no degree, nothing. I am scared to drive or use Uber so I go with my parents everywhere. Im too anxious to drive or do anything. Im useless and just want to die.

Is anyone else passively suicidal?..Even on meds I feel depressed. I have Bipolar, Schizophrenia, ADHD, and Anxiety and I know I also struggle with OCD. I have no friends, no life partner, no job, no degree, and no car. I feel totally useless. I have urges to hurt other people or myself when depressed but I know I will only hurt myself realistically..my family hates hearing about how depressed I am but I can't stop self harming when depressed and every time I ask for help it gets ignored or I get yelled at. My family doesn't want to wait for me in my therapy appointments so I have to wait until I have money from disability if I get approved to do telehealth therapy or no therapy. I feel like there is no meaning to life except suffering sometimes.

I suck at reading and usually only read manga/comics and lost interest in Harry Potter and forgot what I read after the first book (ADHD sucks like that lol), and I finally found ONE book I can actually read after years of reading the same books..the book I Robot. It is a seriously cool book id recommend. I have a hard time imagining visuals in books but it is easier with this book and I enjoy the story/stories so far. One thing that helps is reading a summary before I read a book so my ADHD doesn't keep me from paying attention or forgetting the plot. I Robot is awesome. Glad I finally found my book.

I am probably gonna buy a Switch soon so im curious.

I have SO many mental health issues.. my absolute worst issues are Bipolar, Schizophrenia, ADHD, and Anxiety. Stimulants make my heart race and beat out of my chest and antidepressants used off label for ADHD make me manic.. I started taking Wellbutrin and got TONS of energy and could focus for once but I was manic and could not sleep, was talking a ton and chain smoking. Now that I have slept I feel better but since I stopped taking Wellbutrin im back to feeling low energy and no motivation.

I am gonna try to get a benzo for my Anxiety since ive tried everything but for my ADHD I feel like my ADHD and Bipolar cause Depression. It fucking sucks.

To quote the movie Zoolander "I feel like im taking crazy pills!" 😭😂 It is only day 1 of taking Wellbutrin and I did not think it would do jack shit but my energy and motivation seemed wayy better today with my depression and ADHD.. anxiety feels the same though. Maybe it is placebo but I felt good before on Wellbutrin previously when I took it until I got irritable and manic but now im balanced out with a mood stabilizer and antipsychotic. Just crazy to think this shit works this good..I may add in a med for my anxiety but it is nice not to feel like a piece of shit all the time.

Has Wellbutrin helped anyone else day 1 and with severe depression and pretty bad ADHD?