5 grand invested in 2021 down the drain and im so sad

Im an engineer but since the last year Im obsessed about universe and its physical rules. No matter how many videos I watch or how much i discuss with AI, I still dont understand why the sun or other stars exist in the first place. Like, why is there something instead of nothing. My understanding of physics is too poor to comprehend or reason about Big Bang theory without it sounding like cuckoo.

Do you pros and Phds have developed intuition via deeper understanding that makes sense or clicks about this question.

I understand that stars are formed when dust and gas are collapsed under heavy gravity which leads to formation of stars but the heavy gravity needed for dust and gases to collapse is a result of heavy stars right?
How can these gases and dust collapse if there is no heavy star to collapse it

All of us have the same experience as Job does at some point in our life and we have questioned whether a moral god exists. Our questions go unanswered as expected in this real world outside of bible story.

I’m beginning to think that there might not be a moral god at all but a creator god who made the physical rules of the universe like gravity, electromagnetism, etc. And may be morality is an effect developed from such rules of the universe.

I’m still wrestling with my thoughts that should I

1. Accept a moral god exists but my human brain and reason cannot understand the moral workings of gods
2. Accept a moral god does not exist and come to peace with it and never think about this question again

My cousin who is also my best friend started this injection since February this year. I am not sure what’s the dosage he takes but his muscles are starting to show up — mind you he was not obese to begin with but just a bit chubby around the waist.

Since last month or so his behaviour has completely changed. We used to enjoy eating out after looking at food review channels on Instagram but he has given up on that. All conversations will always lead to what’s the point or meaning of life or life is inherently meaningless or his quote “all this shit to just die on a random day.”

He seemingly has no interest in anything anymore and frequently whines about no energy to lift his hands or legs anymore when I ask him to go out but he regularly exercises and goes for long walks without fail. Like he has become completely disinterested in everything and looks bored all the time

If you are in a regular wage slave job and dont come from money, corruption, trade or business you are basically priced out of buying land for constructing a home in Mysore. The least expensive option is 57L INR which is roughly 15 years of interest bloated EMI for middle class salaried people.

Guys, its game over already if you have NOT realised it yet.

That’s 90 percent of all the tech roles in the company. Reportedly the remaining 3 architects including me will be doing all the work from now on until the axe comes for us.

Cause is basically AI enabled restructuring and lack of new feature demand by customers.

Front end developers are first to go cos 100% of React + Chakra UI code in the last 4 months was written by Claude code Chakra UI plugin

EDIT: A lot of people asking me the company’s rationale - Their POV is that if this restructuring does not pay off lets say in 6 month we are gonna come to know and then we can again hire back devs as devs are dime a dozen in Bangalore with oversupply.

Answering questions - We had to overhaul our login system for all clients deployed on their own subdomain + instance from email + pass combo to include Okta SSO to OIDC, Okta SDK, SSO Knoweldge, JIT Provisiong, Bulk Import, DB Schema mapping for 3 apps, User migration code, etc

This is basically major haul work across PM, Design, Dev, QA, Arch, Deployment, OPS team. We did all of this in less than 4 working days instead of 2 months it would have taken. Claude is so powerful that its scary. It caught, developed, backtracked, tested many things I did not even know were security holes. Only thing you have to keep nudging via prompts is to make sure it does not producing slop