u/throwawayboy2200

I (26m) have a portwine stain on my right hand and arm. I'm very insecure about it. I constantly hide it. I've done CBT and exposure therapy. Nothing has worked. I'm also struggling with ADHD (inattentive) and Autism (mainly with social skills).

I attend a weekly gathering where we just chat, and the idea was to casually show my portwine stain (which I failed to do). We also discussed me bringing it up in conversation, but that idea sounds ridiculous to me. My therapist said that delaying it makes things harder, and that introducing it out of the blue can be even more intimidating. This has basically been my entire life. The cycle just continues. If I show it, I end up overthinking and ruminating everything afterward. If I don’t show it, I feel bummed out and sad that I can’t be myself, but it also feels less stressful.

There's also the struggle with Autism and ADHD. I've been in mental health treatment since 2021. I've had 3 therapists now, and a second psychiatrist.

I was in a deep depression back in 2020 and started antidepressants near the end of 2021 (Sertraline/Zoloft), with different dosages, and finally tapered off this year. (mainly because it didn't fix my autistic/adhd issues). Since then I've tried several ADHD meds (Ritalin, Wellbutrin, Piracetam, Aripiprazole/Abilify, Concerta, Strattera, and Elvanse.) None have truly worked. They always came with annoying and weird side effects.

My new psychiatrist suggested starting Wellbutrin again at 150mg. She looked at all my files and could obviously tell I was still depressed so a different antidepressant was the right approach. The first two weeks were rocky, with intense anger and constant headaches. I've been on it for 18 days now and I just feel.... neutral, i guess.

I have no clue how to move forward. My portwine stain has robbed me of living a normal life, and I know I could solve this by not caring, but past experiences have shaped this. My ADHD ruined my school years, and still to this date making it hard to actually get things done like studying and achieving something. My autism is there to discipline me somewhat, but it's more noticeable when it comes to social skills. I have no friends.

I'm truly lost, very very lost. I would like any type of advice from anyone. ❤️

I (26m) have a portwine stain on my right hand and arm. I'm very insecure about it. I constantly hide it. I've done CBT and exposure therapy. Nothing has worked. I'm also struggling with ADHD (inattentive) and Autism (mainly with social skills).

I attend a weekly gathering where we just chat, and the idea was to casually show my portwine stain (which I failed to do). We also discussed me bringing it up in conversation, but that idea sounds ridiculous to me. My therapist said that delaying it makes things harder, and that introducing it out of the blue can be even more intimidating. This has basically been my entire life. The cycle just continues. If I show it, I end up overthinking and ruminating everything afterward. If I don’t show it, I feel bummed out and sad that I can’t be myself, but it also feels less stressful.

There's also the struggle with Autism and ADHD. I've been in mental health treatment since 2021. I've had 3 therapists now, and a second psychiatrist.

I was in a deep depression back in 2020 and started antidepressants near the end of 2021 (Sertraline/Zoloft), with different dosages, and finally tapered off this year. (mainly because it didn't fix my autistic/adhd issues). Since then I've tried several ADHD meds (Ritalin, Wellbutrin, Piracetam, Aripiprazole/Abilify, Concerta, Strattera, and Elvanse.) None have truly worked. They always came with annoying and weird side effects.

My new psychiatrist suggested starting Wellbutrin again at 150mg. She looked at all my files and could obviously tell I was still depressed so a different antidepressant was the right approach. The first two weeks were rocky, with intense anger and constant headaches. I've been on it for 18 days now and I just feel.... neutral, i guess.

I have no clue how to move forward. My portwine stain has robbed me of living a normal life, and I know I could solve this by not caring, but past experiences have shaped this. My ADHD ruined my school years, and still to this date making it hard to actually get things done like studying and achieving something. My autism is there to discipline me somewhat, but it's more noticeable when it comes to social skills. I have no friends.

I'm truly lost, very very lost. I would like any type of advice from anyone. ❤️

I (26m) have a portwine stain on my right hand and arm. I'm very insecure about it. I constantly hide it. I've done CBT and exposure therapy. Nothing has worked. I'm also struggling with ADHD (inattentive) and Autism (mainly with social skills).

I attend a weekly gathering where we just chat, and the idea was to casually show my portwine stain (which I failed to do). We also discussed me bringing it up in conversation, but that idea sounds ridiculous to me. My therapist said that delaying it makes things harder, and that introducing it out of the blue can be even more intimidating. This has basically been my entire life. The cycle just continues. If I show it, I end up overthinking and ruminating everything afterward. If I don’t show it, I feel bummed out and sad that I can’t be myself, but it also feels less stressful.

There's also the struggle with Autism and ADHD. I've been in mental health treatment since 2021. I've had 3 therapists now, and a second psychiatrist.

I was in a deep depression back in 2020 and started antidepressants near the end of 2021 (Sertraline/Zoloft), with different dosages, and finally tapered off this year. (mainly because it didn't fix my autistic/adhd issues). Since then I've tried several ADHD meds (Ritalin, Wellbutrin, Piracetam, Aripiprazole/Abilify, Concerta, Strattera, and Elvanse.) None have truly worked. They always came with annoying and weird side effects.

My new psychiatrist suggested starting Wellbutrin again at 150mg. She looked at all my files and could obviously tell I was still depressed so a different antidepressant was the right approach. The first two weeks were rocky, with intense anger and constant headaches. I've been on it for 18 days now and I just feel.... neutral, i guess.

I have no clue how to move forward. My portwine stain has robbed me of living a normal life, and I know I could solve this by not caring, but past experiences have shaped this. My ADHD ruined my school years, and still to this date making it hard to actually get things done like studying and achieving something. My autism is there to discipline me somewhat, but it's more noticeable when it comes to social skills. I have no friends.

I'm truly lost, very very lost. I would like any type of advice from anyone. ❤️

Hallo,

Een paar jaar geleden heb ik via Amazon KDP een boek gepubliceerd onder mijn wettelijke naam. Het jaar erna heb ik geprobeerd dat boek te laten verwijderen, maar normaal gezien doet KDP dat niet. In mijn geval hebben ze hier een uitzondering op gemaakt en het boek uit distributie gehaald, vooral om persoonlijke en veiligheidsredenen. Ze hebben toen ook de ISBN en distributie beëindigd, dus het boek bestaat officieel niet meer.

Toch bleef mijn naam en het boek nog zichtbaar op Google Books. Zij wilden het boek niet weghalen en daarvoor heb ik zelfs een advocaat ingeschakeld en een GDPR-klacht ingediend bij de Belgische Gegevensbeschermingsautoriteit in 2024. Die loopt nog steeds. Als ik mezelf nu Google, verschijnen die resultaten inmiddels niet meer. (ook niet op google books)

Het probleem nu is wel dat het boek toch blijft opduiken op verschillende Amazon marketplaces, zoals Amazon.com.tr. Ik heb Amazon zelf gecontacteerd en zij hebben mij doorverwezen naar KDP, maar KDP zegt dat het boek niet meer actief is en dat er geen listings meer zijn.

Ik heb geprobeerd via het Amazon copyright formulier iets in te dienen, maar daar werd het boek niet herkend. Ik heb daarna ook contact opgenomen via de copyrighte e-mail van Amazon, maar daar heb ik nog steeds geen antwoord op gekregen.

Dus mijn vraag is.... vanwaar komt deze metadata nog? Hoe kan het dat dit nog zichtbaar is op Amazon.com.tr? En wat kan ik hier nog aan doen los van de procedure bij Gegevensbeschermingsautoriteit.

Hey!

Ik bouw even verder op mijn vorige post hier: (link)

Ik ben nog steeds op zoek naar mensen om rustig sociale connecties op te bouwen. Ik ben 26m en woon in Antwerpen. Op zoek naar mensen (liefst 21+) die ook openstaan om elkaar te leren kennen.

Mijn interesses zijn vrij chill: gamen, series kijken, lezen en is gaan wandelen.

Als je in een gelijkaardige situatie zit, stuur gerust een berichtje 🙂

I was suspended for inauthentic behaviours back in April. I’ve been appealing several times a week.

I either get an instant response that the suspension was lifted (when it clearly hasn’t) or I don’t get a reply at all.

Is there any hope??

The anger I'm feeling is scarily intense. Like I'm trying my best from blowing up, but it's unnatural of me to feel that much rage. I know you're supposed to wait weeks for it work properly, but fucking hell, man. It's hard not to tempt on quitting.

If Wellbutrin does end up working what happens if I miss a dose? The rage again? Intense headaches?

Any advice or anyone who has been in the same situation?

The anger I'm feeling is scarily intense. Like I'm trying my best from blowing up, but it's unnatural of me to feel that much rage. I know you're supposed to wait weeks for it work properly, but fucking hell, man. It's hard not to tempt on quitting.

If Wellbutrin does end up working what happens if I miss a dose? The rage again? Intense headaches?

Any advice or anyone who has been in the same situation?

I made a post about this before and was urged to try drinking more water which I have.

It’s stressing me out the amount of water I have to drink to get rid of it. (It doesn’t always works).

Any advice? Anyone else struggling with this?

When I was a teenager I was a lot more creative. I would create machinima’s, but eventually leaned on creative writing (specifically writing books). All this without any meds, though I definitely had executive dysfunction and the inability to finish things

Then in 2020 I went into full depression and burn out. I went to therapy, and I'm still in it, and trying to find the right meds and treatment with my new psychiatrist.

I'm genuinely frustrated that I can't write fiction anymore. I usually don't know how to begin the first line, and when I sorta find one I'm never truly happy with it and the lines that follow. I can hardly write 4 sentences before getting frustrated and quitting. Like where did my ability from writing full on pages go to? This is really my autism full on fighting my ADHD, again.

Anyone with the same struggle? What worked for you?

When I was a teenager I was a lot more creative. I would create machinima’s, but eventually leaned on creative writing (specifically writing books). All this without any meds, though I definitely had executive dysfunction and the inability to finish things

Then in 2020 I went into full depression and burn out. I went to therapy, and I'm still in it, and trying to find the right meds and treatment with my new psychiatrist.

I'm genuinely frustrated that I can't write fiction anymore. I usually don't know how to begin the first line, and when I sorta find one I'm never truly happy with it and the lines that follow. I can hardly write 4 sentences before getting frustrated and quitting. Like where did my ability from writing full on pages go to? This is really my autism full on fighting my ADHD, again.

Anyone with the same struggle? What worked for you?

When I was a teenager I was a lot more creative. I would create machinima’s, but eventually leaned on creative writing (specifically writing books). All this without any meds, though I definitely had executive dysfunction and the inability to finish things

Then in 2020 I went into full depression and burn out. I went to therapy, and I'm still in it, and trying to find the right meds and treatment with my new psychiatrist.

I'm genuinely frustrated that I can't write fiction anymore. I usually don't know how to begin the first line, and when I sorta find one I'm never truly happy with it and the lines that follow. I can hardly write 4 sentences before getting frustrated and quitting. Like where did my ability from writing full on pages go to? This is really my autism full on fighting my ADHD, again.

Anyone with the same struggle? What worked for you?

When I was a teenager I was a lot more creative. I would create machinima’s, but eventually leaned on creative writing (specifically writing books). All this without any meds, though I definitely had executive dysfunction and the inability to finish things.

Then in 2020 I went into full depression and burn out. I went to therapy, and I'm still in it, and trying to find the right meds and treatment with my new psychiatrist.

I'm genuinely frustrated that I can't write fiction anymore. I usually don't know how to begin the first line, and when I sorta find one I'm never truly happy with it and the lines that follow. I can hardly write 4 sentences before getting frustrated and quitting. Like where did my ability from writing full on pages go to? This is really my autism full on fighting my ADHD, again.

Anyone with the same struggle? What worked for you?

I shared all of my assessment documents with my new psychiatrist, and it really comes down to executive dysfunction, inability to focus and study, and severe rumination.

The rumination is what’s ruining my life. A small situation can ruin my entire fckng week. It usually slows down and becomes less intense over the course of a few weeks, but I absolutely hate it because once something triggers it, I know i’ll be endlessly ruminating

My new doctor prescribed Wellbutrin 150 mg XR, and so far it seems to have made the rumination worse? the anger I feel now is pretty intense.

I’m genuinely disappointed. I had my previous psychiatrist for five years, and he put me on Zoloft, and we tried multiple ADHD medications over time. Then I finally find a psychiatrist who specializes in ADHD, and she suggests I try Wellbutrin again. (Without zoloft)

I want a better life. I don’t want things replaying in my head constantly when I feel I’ve been wronged. I know that when people act like a dick, it reflects on them and not me but I struggle to actually let it go emotionally afterwards.

TL:DR. Rumination is ruining my life and I genuinely don’t know how to let it go. I hope someone hear can help because I have no one to vent to 💔

I shared all of my assessment documents with my new psychiatrist, and it really comes down to executive dysfunction, inability to focus and study, and severe rumination.

The rumination is what’s ruining my life. A small situation can ruin my entire fckng week. It usually slows down and becomes less intense over the course of a few weeks, but I absolutely hate it because once something triggers it, I know i’ll be endlessly ruminating

My new doctor prescribed Wellbutrin 150 mg XR, and so far it seems to have made the rumination worse? the anger I feel now is pretty intense.

I’m genuinely disappointed. I had my previous psychiatrist for five years, and he put me on Zoloft, and we tried multiple ADHD medications over time. Then I finally find a psychiatrist who specializes in ADHD, and she suggests I try Wellbutrin again. (Without zoloft)

I want a better life. I don’t want things replaying in my head constantly when I feel I’ve been wronged. I know that when people act like a dick, it reflects on them and not me but I struggle to actually let it go emotionally afterwards.

TL:DR. Rumination is ruining my life and I genuinely don’t know how to let it go. I hope someone here can offer advice bc i have no one to vent to 💔

I shared all of my assessment documents with my new psychiatrist, and it really comes down to executive dysfunction, inability to focus and study, and severe rumination.

The rumination is what’s ruining my life. A small situation can ruin my entire fckng week. It usually slows down and becomes less intense over the course of a few weeks, but I absolutely hate it because once something triggers it, I know i’ll be endlessly ruminating

My new doctor prescribed Wellbutrin 150 mg XR, and so far it seems to have made the rumination worse? the anger I feel now is pretty intense.

I’m genuinely disappointed. I had my previous psychiatrist for five years, and he put me on Zoloft, and we tried multiple ADHD medications over time. Then I finally find a psychiatrist who specializes in ADHD, and she suggests I try Wellbutrin again. (Without zoloft)

I want a better life. I don’t want things replaying in my head constantly when I feel I’ve been wronged. I know that when people act like a dick, it reflects on them and not me but I struggle to actually let it go emotionally afterwards.

What should I do? Has rumination improved for anyone else on Wellbutrin?

I shared all of my assessment documents with my new psychiatrist, and it really comes down to executive dysfunction, inability to focus and study, and severe rumination.

The rumination is what’s ruining my life. A small situation can ruin my entire fckng week. It usually slows down and becomes less intense over the course of a few weeks, but I absolutely hate it because once something triggers it, I know i’ll be endlessly ruminating

My new doctor prescribed Wellbutrin 150 mg XR, and so far it seems to have made the rumination worse? the anger I feel now is pretty intense.

I’m genuinely disappointed. I had my previous psychiatrist for five years, and he put me on Zoloft, and we tried multiple ADHD medications over time. Then I finally find a psychiatrist who specializes in ADHD, and she suggests I try Wellbutrin again. (Without zoloft)

I want a better life. I don’t want things replaying in my head constantly when I feel I’ve been wronged. I know that when people act like a dick, it reflects on them and not me but I struggle to actually let it go emotionally afterwards.

What should I do? Has rumination improved for anyone else on Wellbutrin?

I suddenly started getting this strange feeling in my chest. Like it's being crushed or something. It's exactly in the middle of chest, right above the stomach. I was thinking it might be my heart, but it's beating normally and there's no sign of a stroke.

Is this normal? Has anyone had this before?

What have you learned this far? :)