u/GothamGurl73

I Don’t Know You Anymore

You’re still here,
and somehow I’ve lost you.

I know your face,
your voice,
the little things that made you you—
but when I look at you now,
I search for the girl I knew
and she feels so far away.

There was a time
when I knew your heart.
I knew what made you laugh,
what made you cry,
what you needed when the world hurt.
I knew the daughter
who would reach for me
without thinking twice.

Now I reach for you
and there is distance.

Words that once felt warm
feel cold.
Conversations that once flowed
feel careful and awkward
And sometimes the person standing in front of me
feels like someone I have never met.

Maybe that is what hurts the most—
not that you grew up,
not that you moved away,
not that you built a life of your own…

but that somewhere along the way,
I stopped recognizing
the person I raised.

I don’t know when it happened.
I don’t know how I lost my place
inside your heart.

And I know you are allowed to change.
I know you are allowed to become
your own woman,
to love someone,
to build a life
that doesn’t revolve around me.

I never wanted to hold you back.

I just wish becoming an adult
hadn’t meant becoming
a stranger to your mother.

Because I still remember
who you were.

And sometimes I miss her so much
that it feels like grief.

I miss us.

I miss the closeness.
The laughter.
The hugs.
The feeling that I knew you
and you knew me.

And perhaps the hardest truth
is that I don’t know
how to find my way back to you.

So for now,
I will love you from the distance
I never wanted.

I will mourn what has changed
without giving up hope
that someday, somehow,
you might look at me again
and I will see a little bit
of the daughter I remember.

And maybe you will see
that beneath all my hurt,
beneath every mistake I’ve ever made,
beneath every imperfect part of me—

there is still a mother
who loves her daughter
more than words could ever explain.

I don’t know you anymore.

But I love you.

And maybe,
for now,
that has to be enough.

If I could go back to the beginning I wouldn’t erase the moments that eventually broke my heart . I would still notice the way you made ordinary days feel different . I would still let myself fall for you even knowing what I know now. I would still make those memories even though I know they would not last forever. Why ? Ir’s because loving you for those 10 years gave me something I can’t measure by how things ended . Loving you gave me moments and experiences I never expected or dreamed of . These are treasured memories I still carry and a part of my story I would never rewrite. Maybe we weren’t meant to stay together forever like I once thought but if life gave me the choice again …I would still find my way to you….Always
“J. D”

Tonight I saw your new car near the bar where we used to meet for drinks. It brought back more feelings than I expected.
As painful as it was, I think it also gave me the clarity I needed. I’m realizing that I may never see or speak to you again, and as much as I’ll always love you, I have to let go. You’ve moved on and forgotten about me
Some memories will always stay with us. But sometimes, we have to leave the past where it belongs and keep moving forward. ❤️ Here’s to new beginnings and new chapters. You’ll always be my one true love….J.

Tonight I saw your new car near the bar where we used to meet for drinks. It brought back more feelings than I expected.
As painful as it was, I think it also gave me the clarity I needed. I’m realizing that I may never see or speak to you again, and as much as I’ll always love you, I have to let go. You’ve moved on and forgotten about me
Some memories will always stay with us. But sometimes, we have to leave the past where it belongs and keep moving forward. ❤️ Here’s to new beginnings and new chapters. You’ll always be my one true love….J.

One of the hardest things to accept is that I didn’t fall in love with the man you were. I fell in love with the character you played—the person you let me believe you were for over 10 years.
In reality, you were a liar, a cheater, and someone living multiple secret lives. The person I loved was an illusion you created, but my feelings for him were real. For a while I believed his feelings for me were real too.
You may never understand that I can know the truth about you now and still grieve—and even love—the person I thought you were. I may always love that version of you because he’s the man I gave my heart to.
I had to learn that the character I loved existed in my heart, not in reality. Sadly, he was nothing more than a very talented actor disguised as a real man.

Signed ,
JD

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you….J. D.

Should have never clicked on your profile

You still are the first person I think of in the morning, and the last person I think of before I fall asleep….You always will be 💔…despite it all you are the love of my life . I know you hate me now and have forgotten all about me but if I live to be 100 there you’ll be on my mind first thing in the morning and last thing at night . I’m still here …J.D.

How do you live with your lies?

To my now stranger….
Sometimes I wonder why thinking of you still makes me smile. Maybe it’s because not every memory of you hurts. Some of them remind me of the happiest version of myself and for that I will be forever grateful for having a chance to know you and love you once upon a time. I will
always miss you….wherever you are