u/Cautious-Ostrich8945

I am a ux designer with a BA in industrial design. I currently work for startups but I'd really enjoy working in the medical field, I don't mind working in tech but I need my work to be more aligned with some kind of social impact. Also...I miss studying.

My options are either doing a master in something like Health and digital transformation, or consider doing a social work/psychology BA from scratch.
I am moving continents soon so I wouldn't be able to participate to lessons in person, but I'd be able to fly back in the EU in for exams, is it something possible or is the part-time master focused on in person work?

I'm open for any suggestion, it's been 6 years since I've been to school so any feedback is greatly appreciated :)

I have a trillion reason. The more I hate myself the more a hopeless part feels destroyed so in the end instead of staying in the annoyance/slight rage, I cry my eyes out feeling hopeless.

Do I just...let it be? Meditate on it? Let myself cry first? Can't really stop it so I guess that will be step 1.

I need some motivation and optimism, please share any success you had.
My success this week was having reintroduced chocolate spreads and honoring both my desire to eat them but also my real hunger.

Some days, not all days but most, I wake up with light sensitivity.

If I look at something even with it not producing light, the corners of it stay in my eye (looking as white light) when I move my eyeballs.
I noticed today I can't look comfortably in the horizon without being flashed with light, I was in the shade looking at the sunny morning.
Then now I tried moving my eyes, then closing it, and it's like I see a negative of what I was looking at.

I am not sure if it's migraines or not, but it's annoying me so badly.
I am seeing a neurologist soon I also have dizzy spells when I'm outside walking.

Anyone had something similar? Should I go to the eye doctor urgently?

My husband got a high paying secure gov job in his home country (the us). He previously moved to Europe to be with me but couldn’t find a job due to our location and technical field.

I love him dearly and he is the best person I’ve ever met. My brain says, take a compromise, go and see how it goes.

I have nothing keeping me here, my parents are old and I got some death trauma that makes me think they will die as soon as I accept a visa.

I have a couple friends there but nothing too close.

My body starts having a tantrum about it each time I think of it, I want to incontrollably cry and want to run away. I feel like I’ll be trapped in that anti-women country.

I also have never seen myself as a wife or as a wife who moves for their partner. I come from a loveless marriage that made my childhood…emotionally unsafe?
I feel like moving will take away from any power I have and I’ll be left without anything of what I want. Although rationally there are many more opportunities for me over there and my husband could support me in anything I want to do.

I am also afraid I’ll never come back and my mother (who almost died countless times) could die and I couldn’t say good to her. When you’re dying a 14h vs a 5h flight makes a difference.

I also am afraid he’ll never want to come back and I really don’t want to have children in America or maybe have children at all biologically. I have just started therapy and can barely take care of myself right now.

I don’t want the suburban life, I don’t want the house or the family. I want us in a nice apartment with some pets and a creative life where we can meet our friends often and have an impact in our community. Modern hippies I guess.

I really don’t want to choose something for someone else even if I love theem. But I have no ounce of desire in me to move there.

But I love him and don’t want to break up, I have never loved and beeen loved so healthily. We are best friends and lovers. It breaks my heart thinking about it.

I just don’t know if we want the same things anymore. He says so but has a habit of telling me what I want to hear.

I have a therapy session booked but I wanted to see if there’s anyone with a similar story that made it.

Its 3 years I try to use agendas, I started feeling that with work I couldn't use the bujo for appointments and deadlines, also I hate mixing work and personal so I'd have one for work digital, then one physical personal.
I tried getting an a6 hobonichi this year and there isn't enough space for me + I am not a daily planner. Love vertical weeklies.

I still feel the need to have a place with lists, dreams, things I want to do, all the important info about courses I take etc.
Is anyone here having a mixed setup? If so how do you deal with dates and planning?
What formats do you use?

I really love my b6 notebooks, b6 slim too. I think a b6 is simply the perfect size.
But I don't want to be worried of ripping out a page because the notebook is 30-40 euros. They are sooo expensive and hard to find! I don't want to do an online order every time I want a new notebook.
I tried A6 with a hobonichi this year and although I love the portability I always feel like I must keep it short and can't really plan-plan in it. I also like writing reflections and there isn't enough space.
I'll carry one or a b6 slim as a traveler notebook.
But yeah idk why I am announcing this but I give up on the search for the perfect notebook, a5 are cheaper and easier to find for a higher quality. I'll go back to a normal agenda then a leucchturm like old times. I'd love to be like the girlies but having so many formats is just confusing.

Sto pensando di cambiare indirizzo lavorativo, ora lavoro come ux designer e per quanto adori la ricerca non riesco a sopportare il capitalismo ad ogni costo. Inoltre mi piacerebbe fare qualcosa di pratico per aiutare gli altri.

Sono appassionata di psicologia sin da bambina ma la passione per il design era più forte 10 anni fa, e la psicologa meno diffusa di adesso.
L’obbiettivo sarebbe poi o fare ricerca pura o fare arte terapia. Più la prima che la seconda soprattutto per i salari.

Sto valutando master part time e online non necessariamente italiane, anche perché per quanto mi piaccia studiare mi sono stufata del ripetere la pappardella.

Non ho idea di come fare però perché dalla laurea in L4 ho forse solo sociologia che può essere trasferita.
Tra l’altro tra poco mi trasferirò in America per lavoro quindi non potrò recarmi a lezione.

Ho visto che l’università di Roma ha corsi che possono essere seguiti online, seguire le lezioni mi aiuta molto a memorizzare meglio.

Sono confusa, aiuto.

I am 29, after 2 years of horrible health, almost fainting when moving outside, I went to therapy to check it wasn’t mental. Then out of desperation I tried inositol. My energy is finally back after two years (for real I couldn’t get out of bed it was awful ).

This is tje second month I take inositol, 2000 units sometimes 4000.

Usually I have period pain in my utherus and lining, and I do have some now. But this time I have also pain in one ovary and zero on the other and its making me worry.

If it gets too painful I’ll go to the emergency doctor but I’d rather wait until monday not be in that hellhole.

I’m just a bit anxious about it I guess.

I am not sure if I want to stay in the field, I feel like at the moment, working in ecommerce, it doesn’t give any social impact or improvement to anyone’s life.

I am working more in product but I loved research the most, and although I am a jack of all trades its starting to get to me. Having to use AI to be trusted in any word you say and fact check with a bot every five minutes is not the life I want to live.

I start as a graphic and industrial designer mixed degree. Since I am about to move continents 🫪 I am looking for degrees that could both keep a leg in the door in ux but also give me a way out if needed in the future.

I did love making physical products but I don’t find it as a feasible market for a chill life. I considered working for making museum installations but didn’t dip my feet into it too deeply.

5 years ago I would have considered HCI but for how the tech world is moving, I am not sure I will alway want to stay.

I have an honest interest in psychology and always have but funnily enough 10 years ago was more stable than healthcare. I am not sure if I would enjoy becoming a therapist but I would for sure enjoy working with kids and making workshops or I could do fine in HR too.

Anyone did the switch? How did it go?

Sospetto di avere pcos mai diagnosticata per assenza di cisti visibili o irsutismo. I criteri diagnostici sono cambiati e mi ritrovo molto nella parte metabolica e di irregolarità del ciclo.

Avete qualche ginecologo/a specializzata in PCOS, possibilmente sensibile ai disturbi alimentari e che insomma...mi controlli per bene senza pregiudizi?

Sono disposta a pagare pur di non dover discutere dell'ED come se fosse una scelta.
Ovviamente se avete buone esperienze nel pubblico/consultori anche meglio.

I am agnostic and curious in a spiritual sense, when my grandparents died I felt them around for a while but one could say it was self suggestion. I have good intuition with people irl, getting to understand who they are, but also it could be a survival mechanism. In a way all my spiritual proof is always about living people and things, although sometimes I have had some dreams that came true, like my friend getting pregnant or my aunt dying. Some years ago when I meditated I could see the story of a couple in Thailand crying over their pregnancy troubles and possibly him cheating on her, but I never see faces. She was tall and strawberry blonde. Felt like someone’s life i guess more than anything.

What’s your experience with the afterlife, or unexplainable experiences in general, past lives, children that call out stuff happened before they were born…etc.

Every time I see them it's like I am abusing myself, I end up relapsing in my ED, feeling horrible for days or weeks. I feel so disconnected and weirded out by them each time.
I feel guilty about it, but they never put me first, so it's up to me now choosing myself. Although it feels like I am abandoning them.
But I can't keep feeling like a useless alien whenever I see them, it's as if there's no winning, no being seen. They don't ask me about anything, I don't share anything deep in fear of causing them to have tantrums. My boundaries don't get respected. I feel deeply unsatisfied and confused by their behaviour every single time.

I am traveling and I am seeing angel digits all the time, like a damn lotto ticket. I would like to enjoy my trip and stay in the present but I keep getting distracted and ai don’t want my mind thinking of other things while visiting a new super cute city. I also wonder if people here just love them and put them everywhere either way helpppp my pattern recognition is strong but it didn’t happen until I landed.

I feel they just make me feel anticipation for some kind if breakthrough but then nothing ever happens either mentally or in the outside world so I just get annoyed I wasted time paying attention.

I know I am in alignment when traveling but enough is enough

I have been doing therapy (round of applause👏) journaling and yoga, some parts work too. Or at least I did. Today I was working on my agenda and realized I slowly started ignoring myself again, not dissociating all of myself but part of me.

When I was doing my shadow work month ago (April) I got to a point of meeting I guess existential dread, something really dark and depressed inside me that I can only identify as a dark petrol blob that has a life of its own. I am scared of touching it or getting near it. When I see it I get an intense ‘nope’ reaction.

Sometimes I fear I have been abused and not remember, that something is locked in that blob and I shouldn’t let it out or my ego will collapse and I’ll become nonverbal, non functioning.

So every time I see it, I freeze, I work, I go out. I turn my head away from it. As if all of that contained all negative that it’s in me and the real reason of my self hatred.

It feels like when you get touched and you don’t want to, it feels like catcalling, it feels like when your crush shames you for your body. It is definitely related to my body to some level, but it feels like the leftovers of the attacks of others (verbal or more) on my body. Makes me want to puke.

It isn’t related to feminity or women in my life, it feels like a tricky place that looks safe but then betrays you, it feels like unwanted sex. As I am writing this I see scenes like a movie but is it something I watched? Is it my brain making things up? Was the one I see a friend?

But I can’t tell if it’s real or made up. I can’t even tell if it’s something I saw happening and didn’t do anything about or if it was me.

But I am not sure how to go about it, I am doing really well mentally lately and don’t want to ruin it. But I can’t keep feeling so detached from my feelings or I’m just gonna blink and be dead.

How do you suggest I go around it? I am pretty good at pointing at my negative traits already so this feels more than just acknowledging who I am.

I'll be around all over the place so I could shop in the Netherlands, Germany or Italy.
Let me know what solved your chronically low ferritin.

I usually take one called SiderAL but it takes me always at least 5 months to recover. And another 5 to get sick again :D

I noticed that some stakeholders can't think because they are using AI for everything, even if I explain the problem they can't "imagine" a copy change, or a little change in the UI.

I suspect our main work-style change will have to be dumbifying things for others, rather than actually doing our job.

No complete prototype for a 2 seconds interaction? Prompt AI to think for you so I can see the whole thing.
I just hit my credit limit for the next 5hours instead of just having a conversation about a user flow because they want me to use AI to think for me.