u/KaleidoscopeOk5063

I’ve been talking to one of my old college friends, she was always one of the smartest people I was friends with. She has two masters degrees

She just quit her job because she was miserable and she’s now in a panic. I tried to calm her down - I’m not sure if it worked, because I’M in a panic myself. I am not making enough money and I am completely terrified of commitment.

Some of my previous colleagues are in a panic. Aye aye aye man

I wish I had the tools to do with this existential crisis bullshit because I know it will be fine. But it doesn’t feel that way at all right now, it feels like a contagious nervous breakdown. So I’ll have to medicate myself to stay calm and continue working. Yikes

I’m seeing this more and more. Everybody needs to earn money to live. So whenever I read a post where someone is shitting on someone else’s job, I’m just like … what is wrong with that person.

Sure there are a few jobs out there that I think shouldn’t exist but… idk i guess I think it’s just sad and gross.

The best is when they say something like “that’s not a real job”.

Luckily this hasn’t happened to me, but I remember landing in Hong Kong and I didn’t realize my cell phone wouldn’t work, which I need to make purchases. Luckily I quickly found my friend and I got it sorted out

I have a steady income now so I’m thinking about doing the digital nomad thing, but I’m also scared I’ll be in Vietnam or Morocco or something and suddenly my income dries up

I’m in a tough spot. Money is tight. I’m on the verge of homelessness. I have a job but it’s not enough. I have a lot of potential but my personal problems are stifling. Depression. Bad teeth. Loneliness.

I’m getting mixed messages from my parents. On one hand they said I could come stay with them if I need to. But every time I’m with my dad it becomes abusive, he kinda hates me.

I know I need to make more money. But honestly… the thought of making money is stifling to me. I’ve been financially independent before but right now I really feel broken.

I’ve tried therapy but honestly it kinda just makes me more depressed

I used to date a woman who had something like this. I thought it was silly at the time but now I think I might have it

I don’t recognize myself often. I’m not sure if I’m myself or someone else. I know it sounds totally crazy but that’s how it feels.

It’s totally bonkers but that’s how it feels

My parents have their own problems. I haven’t seen them in about 4 years but I still talk to them sometimes.

I know I need to see them again, but we don’t get along. Dad has anger issues so we don’t get along. Mom is just crazy.

I know I need to spend some time with them for my own sanity - but we don’t get along… part of me never wants to see them again but I know this isn’t the correct way to feel

I grew up with my parents insurance. So up until about 7 years ago I had regular dental appointments.

The last dental appointment I had was about 2 years ago, I met a dental student and she worked on my teeth. At the time I think they were still good

About 4 months ago one of my teeth started really hurting when I brushed it. It was a cavity. It’s gotten worse, now I can see the nerve. And the tooth next door has a cavity too

I don’t have insurance, I don’t know the dental students number. I don’t have much money. I think it will be pretty lame is I lose my teeth simply because I’m broke

I know this sounds dumb, but let me explain. I grew up in a routine. Wake up at 5am, get home around 6pm. Then when I got older, it was wake up at 5am, get home at 8pm. It just kept getting worse and worse

Now I’m permanently fucked. I can’t sleep. I stay up for 48 hours and sleep for 16 hrs. I don’t think I can go back at this point

So I’m trying to compromise so I can at least get some sleep and be somewhat normal. But I don’t think it will happen

I think some of it is inherited biologically and some of it I got on my own. But sometimes I have days where it becomes really heavy and I have to insulate myself so it doesn’t come out. Sometimes I have terrible invasive nightmares. And then some days I’m perfectly fine

I don’t really even know how to talk to people or therapists about it because I don’t want them to label me as trauma guy, I think that would make it worse if I’m being honest

I’ve noticed this a few times recently and it’s kinda crazy to me. I was at the park working on my computer and there was a baby talking to its mom, and the baby was saying things like an adult would, with adult phrasing. It kinda freaked me out because it still sounded like a baby, but the phrasing was adult. I’ve noticed this on the subway too

I’ve only noticed this a few times because most babies are just goo goo ga ga… but are babies getting smarter?

I’m planning on visiting Asia over the winter, I was going to land in Japan, and then Korea, China (hopefully), Hong Kong, and that’s about as far as I have planned out so far.

I’ve done this before, but I was with my college pals. Most of my friends are too busy to want to do something like this again so I’m wondering if you know of any apps or ways to meet travel buddies who would be into a trip like this

I was somewhat nomadic in my twenties, I worked and moved around California a lot, I did that for 5 years or so. Then I ended up in NYC, but I really miss moving around. I have a job that is remote, so technically I could go back to the nomad life, but honestly I’m kinda scared.

I love most music, music is music to me. But sometimes when someone is blasting RnB I just get a headache. And I actually love RnB but not when I’m at the grocery store.

I don’t need to go into the details but I have always felt like a black sheep. My family is different from me. I feel selfish for saying that.

I had an uncle who died before I was born, he had a lot of problems, military, drug, crime, all of those problems. And for some reason I feel like my family is framing me as this person. My uncle who I never met

I don’t know who I can talk to about this. I have a psychiatrist I’m not crazy. I’m just incredibly depressed

It happens to me at least once per day. I do everything I can to avoid it. It’s not really fear of death honestly it’s fear is social rejection 🤦‍♂️ it’s dark man

And then I remember everything is fine. And I’m in a burning building

My hygiene has gotten BAD. I’m disgusted by myself. I don’t like having poor hygiene but at the same time I…. Idk.

I feel like I only have enough willpower to focus on like 2-3 things and cleaning my room isn’t one of them. If I make a mess in the kitchen I always clean that up. But I can’t seem to bring myself to clean my own room. I know it’s not attractive I just don’t care…. Ugh what is wrong with me

I know this probably sounds like I’m just irresponsible, but actually it’s different. When people leave me alone, I am much better at life. I am better at work, I’m better in my romantic life, everything is better. But as soon as my parents make a rule or put some expectation on me… I just can’t do it.

Idk why I’m like this

There are some gems there, but it mostly is really depressing

Try to guess where it is

I know everyone is different, so that’s why I’m asking. For me, I like a 50/50 split, 50 percent work, 50 percent life, so that they can push against each other in a healthy way. Sleep doesn’t count as life, sleep is sleep

Sometimes I need to work more, sometimes I need life more…. But I might be wrong about that