I’m crippled by indecision and fear of failure
Hey everyone, I’m 24 and I haven’t seen any of my dreams or aspirations to the end because there’s so much I wanna do and yet I’m so terrified of failure. I believe it comes from living with my mom and having to mature quicker than I was mentally prepared for, she never wanted to work so at an early age I had to put things I wanted to do on the back burner so I could afford rent and food for us. I tried going to college five times each time online classes, each time I’ve ended up dropping out because online schooling doesn’t help me at all but I was unable to do anything else since getting reduced hours or working part time would risk us being homeless.
I’m out of that situation now, living with my girlfriend of five years even though I’m able to work part time and go to school I’m still terrified of failing again and even though I have more freedom to express myself and explore interest I still can’t bring myself to see any of them out.
Is there something wrong with me? I don’t know how to solve this issue, it makes me feel like I’m drifting through life instead of taking control.