Girlfriend (27F) keeps bringing up the topic of cultural differences to me (31M), and it started to bother me. Can someone provide a perspetive on this as I'm not sure what to think anymore?
The story is a bit convoluted. I live in her country, kinda speak her language (we both work in multinational environments and speak English), and our cultures are very different. She comes from a small town in the countryside of the country where she was raised as a conservative, I come from an Islamic country and was raised as such but spent my life in big cities, so my world views and opinions are a bit on the liberal side, in a way that I'm more curious, accepting, endorsing and open-minded about other cultures, which is the eabsolute opposite of her situation. She's more close-minded, nervous and afraid of my culture and heritage.
She finds the idea exciting. She loves me to her core and I do too. Besides this issue, I've never had a healthier relationship in my life with any other girl I dated, and she could say the same as well, that I'm providing her with things in this relationship on several levels that she couldn't find in her dating life. She's also not that experienced, and she's more long-term-oriented, and her worry is that our children will be raised some kind of way that they would have these negative behaviors that my culture is (unfortunately) notorious for, like being aggressive, Muslim, oppressive, abusive...etc.
The issue is that, even though I come from that culture, myself and my family do not fit that stereotytpe at all. This is not computing in her brain. It is shaking her worldview significantly because her entire life she attributed my race and culture with these negative sterotypes, and here comes a guy from that same culture that doesn't exhibit any of that, not only that but he exhibits qualities she expected in her own culture and couldn't find them.
At first, when she brought this topic up in the first trimester of our relationship, I thought it was just a worry. I tried addressing it and understanding why she thinks this way. She had negative experiences with Arabs unfortunately that tainted her view on them. And she told me that the countryside and her culture is all she's ever known. She said it is less about being an Arab, and more about her being completely disconnected from the rest of the world. She told me she would be as anxious if she dated someone from Latin America for example or from Asia, because, again, she has no idea what these cultures are like and what raising children there means.
I feel frustrated with this. My frustration stems from the fact that I cannot change anything about who I am and where I come from. I was raised a type of way, this is how I live my life, and I treated her the best I could treat anyone and it shows.... and my reward is her being skeptical about everything related to my culture, because I'm Arab?
The last point of frustration came when we spoke about our wedding. We will for sure have a wedding in her country however she sees fit, and I took it for granted that we will have a wedding in the style of my culture too. She seemed disappointed, said she's afraid of this, and wouldn't want to engage in such a thing. I told her she could practically negotiate anything, but this if we don't do, not necessarily to the fullest extent with all the blows and whistles, just a get-together and a party afterwards, my family wouldn't be so happy. She doesn't want to engage in anything basically.
She keeps bring up points that the children will be her nationality, will speak her language, will have her belief systems, and I keep reminding her that I'll speak Arabic to them and I'll take them home every once in a while because remember, they're 50% coming from that land and connecting them to their origins is healthier for their development on the long run. She accepts this, but I could feel the hesitance.
She's been colder and more distant recently. She reached a point where she needs to tell her dad about this, and she guaranteed to me that her dad will not be happy about her dating a foreigner. The question is burning in her mind, and I think she's figuring out if she really wants this or not, but to be honest, I feel really disappointed in this and I cannot believe that this is even a question.
I explained to her for me, it's first herself, her personality, her traits, and everything I love about her, and her race, her nationality, and her background come with that as bonus. I accept the bonus. And her counter point, "You live here. You have to accept it anyway". And I was taken aback.
.... I don't know what do you guys gather from this?
TL;DR: Girlfriend keeps brining up cultural difference and is being hesitant about engaging with my culture due to her being unfamilair with it. I feel frustrated because I haven't done anything to hurt her and this is how I'm getting rewarded.