u/orion-asterisk

"I bet Seattle is going to donate more money to KEXP than San Francisco does 😤"

My fiancee dumped me in June 2021. We'd been together for 7 years. She was the love of my life, and I feel like when she left she took my heart with her. If I try to hold someone's hand it feels wrong, because it isn't hers. She cheated on me with multiple people but I can't even bring myself to look into dating since she left, and when I try to move on my brain punishes me.

I started thinking about attending a queer mixer and immediately started having dreams about her again. Dreams where she comes back, she apologizes, we talk it out and somehow we start our lives together again.

Then I wake up alone and it's like my heart is breaking all over again.

I don't understand how allo people can just move on and start seeing other people. How could I when she's still living rent free in my soul? I'd constantly be thinking about or comparing a new partner to her and that person wouldn't deserve that. But how can I heal if I can't make space for someone new?

It's been 5 years. She probably doesn't even think about me anymore. This isn't fair.

Hello fellow late night delivery drivers,

In recent nights I've noticed and increasing number of baby rabbits and raccoon families running across or along the roads at night. These baby bunnies and raccoons are a lot smaller than the adults I'm used to seeing on the road and I nearly hit a couple tonight because they dashed right in front of my car. So I wanted to give a quick PSA: the babies that were born this spring are now big enough to be running around, but not nearly big enough to be as easily spotted as their parents. Keep an eye out!

I've been dealing with restrictive habits since I was a teen, and have struggled a lot with meal planning/grocery shopping/all the other stuff that goes into making sure there's even food around. I tend to restrict more when I'm concerned about finances and grocery expenses, which has been basically the whole of the last six months. But now on top of that it seems like enormous recalls are happening every other day, many of which involve fatalities. I feel like I can't trust the food at the store anymore. Every product feels like a potential Trojan horse for food poisoning or parasites or death.

I haven't bought lunch meat, eggs, or spinach in ages. I mustered the courage to buy and freeze some chicken breasts, and now I'm seeing a recall on chicken too. I have so little money to spare. I can't afford to buy food that I can't eat, and I especially can't afford to be sick and not able to work. I'm catching myself falling back into my sixteen-year-old self's cheese-only diet. Highly processed (i.e highly unhealthy) foods are the only ones that feel safe, and then I feel guilty for eating like crap, and then restrict more...

I'm thinking about trying to grow my own lettuce and carrots and stuff to try to deal with some of this, but I'm honestly terrified that any grocery purchase I make could be the one that gives me Super Diarrhea Poisoning or something, and that's enough for my ED monster to convince me not to buy food at all.

My apartment is and has been an absolute disaster for a while now. Dirty dishes and laundry piling up, clutter everywhere, etc... and I feel totally helpless about it because I have chronic pain and I can barely manage the ~20 hours a week of Uber Eats I've been doing to pay for necessities while I hunt for another job. My hip is hurting constantly, I gave myself heat rash under my arms from driving so much and then a chemical burn from trying to apply deodorant to that heat rash without thinking about it, I'm sleeping 12+ hours a day and can't seem to pull off any less, and even with all of this I still can't pay my goddamn bills. I have no idea how I'm going to pay September's rent, I'm applying for jobs every week... I'm literally doing all I can.

But still my sibling comes to me, "I can't keep doing all the housework," "the garbage and the litter boxes need handled," "I'm not saying that you're not doing enough, but the last time the apartment was cleaned was me, and the two times before that were other people," nevermind that I was the one who arranged for/begged those people to come to the apartment and help us out... I even tried to hire a housecleaning company, but the lady who came looked around, essentially said "this is above my pay grade," and left.

I'm being asked to handle breadwinning/job hunting, housework, and my disability all at the same time. I can only deal with two of those things, and my disability isn't going anywhere. And no matter how many times I explain that, they keep asking more from me anyway.

I woke up today, got dressed, and immediately went to deliver for uber eats even though my hip has been hurting for the last fucking week. I stayed out until 8pm. All I had during that time were two prosciutto paninos from a gas station so I could take my meds, and a yerba mate drink that did not taste nearly as good as advertised. I drove around for 4 hours straight and earned less than $70.

I have a master's degree.

My whole body hurts. I'm tired. And then to hear "I don't think you need to do more, but here are all the things that you should be getting done" from the kid who I support, has no job, and goes out with their friends or partner 3+ nights a week... I swear to God I am at my breaking point. If I don't get a decent job soon I'm going to fucking crash out. As I type this I'm getting shooting pains down my outer thigh.

I wish I could do more. I fucking would in a heartbeat, if I could. They say they understand, but how can they if they keep asking me for more than I can give?

Hi all,

I've found myself in a weird situation and I need my fellow enbies to help me puzzle through it.

I, like many of us, am in the midst of a job hunt that feels like pulling teeth. I haven't gotten any interviews yet and it's been months.

In the meantime my hair has gotten longer and has started causing me major dysphoria. I have a strong desire to shave my head completely. It would be much more comfortable for me with the summer heat and I loved being bald when I did it in undergrad.

The problem: the job market is hellish as it is. This combined with the current political climate re: trans and nonbinary folks has me Nervous. I still have some plausible deniability and passing privilege, and I know that if I shave my head I'll lose a lot of it. Normally I wouldn't care, but I am closer than I've ever been to being homeless and I Need a job. I live in an extremely liberal area but I can't afford to lose an opportunity for a wage to transphobia, conscious or otherwise. On the OTHER hand, shaving my head would probably help activate the Gender Euphoria, which makes me way more confident.

I feel paralyzed when I think about it too much. Has anyone else dealt with this tension? How do you handle it? Does anyone have any advice?

I finally got a phone interview!! And I looked up the person I'll be interviewing with on LinkedIn and he and I used to work at the same company at the same time! Not directly together but I think he may have had a hand in my hiring there.

Problem: It has been literal years since I interviewed for a position where I didn't know at least one person on the hiring board, as my last few jobs were with the same employer (not the one we shared). I am very out of practice and I also have a lot riding on getting a job ASAP so I'm afraid that I'm going to do something stupid or show my desperation somehow.

Does anyone have any tips? Should I mention our shared employer history or would that be weird/hurt my chances somehow? How can I show eagerness without it spilling over into desperate territory? The posting has been up since July 9th and they reached out to me the workday immediately following my application... is that a sign that there may be less competition? Or is it a red flag? What are things that impress a recruiter during a phone interview?

I finally got a phone interview!! And I looked up the person I'll be interviewing with on LinkedIn and he and I used to work at the same company at the same time! Not directly together but I think he may have had a hand in my hiring there.

Problem: It has been literal years since I interviewed for a position where I didn't know at least one person on the hiring board, as my last few jobs were with the same employer (not the one we shared). I am very out of practice and I also have a lot riding on getting a job ASAP so I'm afraid that I'm going to do something stupid or show my desperation somehow.

Does anyone have any tips? Should I mention our shared employer history or would that be weird/hurt my chances somehow? How can I show eagerness without it spilling over into desperate territory? The posting has been up since July 9th and they reached out to me the workday immediately following my application... is that a sign that there may be less competition? Or is it a red flag? What are things that impress a recruiter during a phone interview?

Anyone got songs that match these vibes/themes?

• Ocean/thalassophobia
• Storms
• Fishing/sailing
• Poverty
• Feelings of parental abandonment
• Yearning, desperate searching
• Family devotion and strain
• Loss of parents and siblings
• Guilt and regret
• Mistrust of others
• Bitterness re: motherhood
• Romance between a sailor and a fisherman
• Internalized homophobia/reluctance to accept oneself
• Post-WW2 Italian fishing village
• Sirens (the creature)
• Spooky mysticism, especially related to the ocean
• Ethereal and liminal vibes
• Post-war trauma/PTSD in soldiers and civilians
• Coping with a disabling event/suddenly not being able to do things you used to do all the time
• Youthful innocence contrasted with trauma, loss, and growing up before you're ready

Currently I have:

• Siren Song by Austria
• Seventeen by Marina and the Diamonds
• On Other Oceans by VNV Nation
• Glory by Hollywood Undead
• Until It Doesn't Hurt by Mother Mother
• This Must Be the Place I Waited Years to Leave by the Pet Shop Boys
• Take a Chance on Me by ABBA

As you can see I need many more... whatcha got?