u/sugarstarbeam

Was swinging by Concord and heard some show going on.

This story takes place long long ago in a faraway land in Ohio. (Keep the story going you shitboat!)

Nature show hosts were here

I’m not talking about separating folders, I’m talking about blocking them completely? Like people who use spoof phone apps to make fake numbers?

I’ve looked everywhere, but the only way to see the scenes cut from original airings is to watch separately. Have you guys found any?

…what…🥤🍕📦🍻🥫…🐀….WHAT?!…🥤🍕📦🍻🥫🥤🍕📦🍻🥫🥤🍕📦🍻🥫🐀….WHAT?!?!??

The reason I’m not elaborating here is because I’m in fear of my life. But this is bad and the lack of police communications and transparency is infuriating.

Please, I would be appreciative if a lawyer could DM me and advise.

My close friend died two months ago, his new wife is the suspect because she was abusive.

I don’t want to go into details but it’s been very hard, very.

His mom is in such despair and lost without her boy. He was such a presence. She is looking for answers everywhere and I told her that looking elsewhere aside from God can be deceptive.

She needs signs that he is near. She needs to know what happened to him. The poor woman hardly finds peace these days. I feel so badly and I’m trying to pray very very heavily so she can receive support and peace.

Please powerfully pray that his killer answers for her crime. That my friend family will have answers and peace and justice. I’m begging for it.

I became a widow at 29. We were together for four short years. I loved him more everyday.

But since he died I saw my “friends” turn into vultures even when I wanted privacy and to be alone.

I’ve since been abused by every man I dated since. I’ve been raped. My health has declined. My liver is failing and soooo many people I love died including my dad. Two months ago a friend of mine who meant so much to me was murdered by his controlling wife and the cops aren’t doing anything. So to sum it up most people I loved are dead. Most were my age.

I can’t get a job despite my qualifications, I’m brown and ICE have harassed me. I have been discriminated against for jobs that are known to discriminate I later found out when I did everything right - I have the qualifications, I have experience, I have a Bachelors Degree from a top University in Boston, I have people skills, I have a stellar resume, I called and went to try to meet with people. I presented myself well.

I’m a full time caretaker and my mom is really depressed. I try so hard to cook and help her because she has arthritis and mobility trouble. So many insane bills and scams have landed on us and it’s overwhelming when I’ve exhausted resources.

I always wanted to be a mom, and yes I could have settled for guys who wanted to commit, yes even wealthy ones, even “good looking” ones, even “nice ones” but I knew that if I didn’t love them I couldn’t do it. Since becoming a widow, my cptsd and anxiety had reached new heights. I have to self preserve a lot of the time.

I tried to go find some good produce today with my mom and my old car had some alerts come on. My mom starts getting angry when I’m trying to remain calm and assess the situation. She was angry yesterday and rude to me which really just makes me feel like shit. I do a lot for her, I try to help her, support her emotionally, she hardly opens up and her anger just defeats the little motivation I summon up to try to survive. She says,”can’t go to this gas station, NO, go to the next, the next…”

My breaks are shitty, I already spent like 2k on repairs last month. I can’t afford a newer car. I finally go to an air pump and I’m filling it up. I hear her screaming to stop the air pump as if I don’t know what I’m doing. She then continues yelling/getting angry and doesn’t communicate in words why she wants me to do something like,”GET OUT OF THE CAR” she doesn’t tell me why.

She then starts fiddling with the settings in my car. Last time she did that thinking she knows best, it only cost more to get my car fixed. I tell her to stop and she doesn’t listen.

Then my car starts acting worse. We drive to a market where I spot someone my family knew from the 90’s. A cold bitch woman who would hit me when she looked after me and her kids while my parents worked. I was a well behaved kid but she abused and yelled at humiliated me when I was under her care. She’s a housewife and admitted gold digger. So seeing her I knew it would destabilize me and I would get the questions of,”Are you dating anyone, where are you living now….”

Like in the past when I was working after high school she always had a side comment when I was trying to save up money for an apartment while her kids were living in lavish penthouses with Louis Vuitton everything. She would judge me and say…”well that sounds healthy…”

You get it. She was a total destabilizing cunt. We didn’t go in. My mom was huffing and puffing and sulking and pouting instead of trying to just put our best foot forward.

I started raising my voice telling her I am trying to stay calm and how my mom treats me with little respect when I try everyday to help her.

Then she starts her,”I guess I can’t do anything right” shit. Then she says,”I know you’re unhappy because you don’t have a man and you don’t have kids.”

She starts talking dark defeatist things saying all the worst things.

I couldn’t bother going to another market that’s out of my budget anyway, but that was enough to have me break down in tears.

I have been raped, I have been abused, I have been backstabbed. I try so hard to be positive while the outside world and my own mother shoot me down.

I’m not trying to be a victim. I don’t like to indulge in self pity. But fuck, I’m tired of this life. This isn’t living. It’s been one hell storm after another. I can’t do this.

She’s right. I don’t have a man anymore and I don’t have kids and that breaks my heart everyday. Yes I’ve been picky because I don’t want a guy who will treat me like dirt just so I can have a baby.

My friends who are alive are robotic and I know better than to open up to them, so we keep it “positive”.

I really just give up. I’ve tried to end myself for years. I can’t take it anymore.

My health is failing and it’s not looking good. If you have experience with telepathy I would appreciate your support.