u/Expensive_Watch469

I used to be a incredibly good reader and writer, English is my first language and now I just feel like a fucking idiot. My dad forced me to drop out of high school and get my GED and I had a medical event that was neglected, I never got the help I needed to fully recover from it. I felt like my face was melting down and my speech was slurred for the little I could speak. My heart was pounding and I was unable to stand stand or properly use my hands.

At its worst I could not read or write, now I feel helpless. I am slowly learning but I just used to be "smart" now my English is horrible and I sound idiotic at best and make tons of grammar and spelling errors as well as struggle to read the things I used to read for fun. How do I get better again?

Along those lines; how do I slowly work on improving my memory again?

So I am 19, barely a adult, I will also say my special interest is music related which is how I connect with people typically, getting both of these out of the way

So most of my friends are late 20s to late 40s but I also have friends in the 50s-60s range and I was wondering if anyone else also befriends people older than themselves? I know how to be safe when it comes to people older than me, I just find it really hard to make friends my age even if I do have a few.

I mainly just share a love of music with anyone I befriend, but I have a friend thats 63 and we can just talk about anything, we talk about music, a shared love of animals, mundane things, life, he'll talk about sports he likes and stories from his life, I will talk about fashion and my love of fashion, we'll even talk about politics in a non-hostile manner, we get along really well, I just struggle so much to do this with people my own age.

Anyone else mainly friends with people older than you?

I know the wall isn't actually breathing or talking but its every night after 10pm and I just want funny insults because it would make me feel better because its been going on for over a week and at least than I'd have something funny to think about in response

Hello sorry to ask but I do not really have support from anyone and I am sick all the time unable to think due to my current job giving me heat exhaustion all the time and I am struggling to figure this out. I just want to know how much a car that could run decently, can be old, has working air conditioning and is safe to drive costs to buy secondhand in Wichita if anyone has a price range

I do not get it at all. I’m 19 and of course people made fun of me when I was a kid too but it just deeply confuses me.

My main special interest is like music (especially around physical media and memorabilia but I constantly am trying to listen to new music in general as well) and I also have a obsession with the Peacock Revolution and I know to a certain extent me choosing to dress weird is always going to be mocked by society, but I also do not understand why. I also do not understand why even when I do dress more normal (my normal is like a band shirt I don’t really wear stuff that isnt old and kind of psychedelic or band shirts) I’m made fun of constantly by other adults many who are older than me for the way I talk and the fact I constantly talk about music or the fact I collect records or the music I like or this or that and I just don’t get it.

Why are people like this? What is the appeal

they got violent this time again. it’s been years since that, they hurt me and screamed at me in front of my friend and then hurt me the next day. They’re trying to now tank my savings and he said he was going to destroy the things that matter to me. I’m at work right now, I told my manager I’m being abused and she just told me “well then you should tell someone” I have and I was trying to.

I don’t see a way out, I’m debating ending my own life because if I don’t he probably will. I’m 19 and my dad has cameras and trackers on everything, there isn’t a way out. Theres no future.

Okay like I am blunt and honest and straightforward in communication and people will go on and on about how its rude and annoying, yet in the workplace its respected, in school its (sometimes) respected, in my real life people compliment and say how much they appreciate it. I am a very nice person irl, I make friends easily, yet online it feels like I am treated as if I am the worst person ever for it.

Very confusiing

Hello, trying to buy something for a online friend of mine, but running into a lot of conflicting answers on if a US giftcard will convert to their currency or how to buy a international giftcard, thank you for any answers in advance

Hello! Please be nice even if it is "not polite" for depop standards, I am autistic and I am used to eBay standards where this isn't really seen as rude, but I noticed the culture around Depop is fairly different so I wanted to ask. I mainly sell on Depop and people dm asking sometimes stuff on prices, which I totally don't mind, but if I have a few items that are more pricy I was wondering if it would be impolite to ask? I like to ask to not low ball the seller and see if its in my budget. I do this a lot on eBay, I am always friendly and polite, recently I asked this on a John Pearse coat which I bought.

How is this seen amongst Depop sellers? I am trying to better understand the culture of selling on Depop and what is or isn't okay, I don't want to make a mistake and upset anyone either

I wish I was likable, I wish people liked me, I wish I wasn't bullied 24/7, I wish I liked myself, I wish I didn't wake up, I wish people actually wanted to speak to me not just tolerate me, I wish I could cure schizophrenia, I wish my mind wasn't falling apart, I wish people actually gave a shit about hearing about my records or anything. I think if I died or disappeared no one would notice, its not like my family ever gave a shit about me, I was never wanted. I hate myself I hate myself. I am so tired of my life. Waking up is my personal nightmare, I am so tired. I can't take the bullying anymore that I face on a daily fucking basis, I can't take care of myself, I can't handle any of this. Even buying new records doesn't make me feel anything anymore and I have like 6 records I've had for months still unplaytested because I can't get out of bed. I am at my breaking point. I just wish my body would give out fully on me. It's horrible and unfair I am in severe daily pain every single day no matter what I do, I am 19, I never got to be a kid. While everyone else my age was playing and being a kid I was fucking forced to raise my brother who was on heavy drugs, who used to beat the shit out of me, but it was MY reasonability for being the kid they didn't want and AFAB. I hate myself. I hate my life I hate everything about myself. I cannot think of a single likable trait. I think my friends would be relieved if I vanished too. I just hope its easy to make the pain stop.