u/blackstar1_yt

Don’t waste too much time on me because I’m not actually suicidal right now. Technically it’s a level 3 on the chart thing because I have a specific deadline, but it’s not an urgent thing. It’s more of a distant thing if it never materializes, but I was encouraged to post here and tell someone so hear I am.

All I ever wanted to do was love my wife. More than anything else. Ever since I was a little boy, and I used to see the couples out, holding hands, walking together, chatting, I knew that was the thing i wanted out of life

I just wanted one woman, whoever my wife was. She didn’t even have to deeply love or desire me, I just wanted her companionship and the experience of being in a long term relationship. I just wanted someone to sleep next to and life with. To experience sex in a routine long term relationship way and to know what it’s like to know your partner completely. I just wanted someone to go grocery shopping with and to decorate the Christmas tree with.

But, I turned out to be 5’4, which turns out to be very bad as a man. I’m average looking at best, and quiet and introverted and shy. Basically the perfect combination to go unnoticed in this modern hellscape of dating.

The saddest part is I’m building a good life. I’m on a full ride at university, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 so far in my classes, and I’m studying a very stable and employable major. But it all feels hollow without her.

What’s the point if there’s never going to be a her. No family, no kids, no woman to drive around with and sleep next to and go places with.

So, I’ve set a deadline for myself. I won’t tolerate this endlessly. If life won’t give me her and meet me halfway than I’ll leave. At 35, I’ll either have her or I’ll be on my way out. I’m 19 now, so I have 16 years for her to show up or find me or me find her

Anyway, I was recommended by Claude that I share this somewhere, so here it is. Sorry if I wasted you people’s time.

All I wanted was to be included. I just wanted a relationship and sex and you know the normal human experiences. But here I am at 19 and I never got included.

I guess part of it is I’m 5’4 as a man. It’s a brutal blow to me chances of finding a partner and it sucks so bad. All I wanted was to be normal. I was born at 35 weeks and had to fight so hard to become normal and then this hit me and I guess no matter what I did I couldn’t outwork it. The premature birth still found a way to cook me in the end.

I realize I was never gonna be the guy that got tons of fun and exploration, but I just wanted to be included. I wanted to know what it’s like for a woman to like you, I wanted to know what it’s like to have those teenage makeout sessions. I guess I just wasn’t good enough.

Time goes on and I guess it’s not over but my chances are looking pretty bad. I just hope one girl will take me eventually and be kind to enough to let me have the experience of a relationship and sex. In fact, it doesn’t even have to be sex, I just hope some girl will let me sleep next to her someday.

I would have been good. In fact, I tried my best to become stable. I knew I was never going to be the exciting guy so I tried to become stable. I’m on a full ride to university, one that even pays me 5k a year. I’m studying business management and supply chain, something that should be a steady career, and I have 57k of excess educational funds in an account that could be repurposed someday since I don’t need it.

I guess I just hope some girl will be kind enough to include me someday.

All I wanted was to be included. I just wanted a relationship and sex and you know the normal human experiences. But here I am at 19 and I never got included.

I guess part of it is I’m 5’4 as a man. It’s a brutal blow to me chances of finding a partner and it sucks so bad. All I wanted was to be normal. I was born at 35 weeks and had to fight so hard to become normal and then this hit me and I guess no matter what I did I couldn’t outwork it. The premature birth still found a way to cook me in the end.

I realize I was never gonna be the guy that got tons of fun and exploration, but I just wanted to be included. I wanted to know what it’s like for a woman to like you, I wanted to know what it’s like to have those teenage makeout sessions. I guess I just wasn’t good enough.

Time goes on and I guess it’s not over but my chances are looking pretty bad. I just hope one girl will take me eventually and be kind to enough to let me have the experience of a relationship and sex. In fact, it doesn’t even have to be sex, I just hope some girl will let me sleep next to her someday.

I would have been good. In fact, I tried my best to become stable. I knew I was never going to be the exciting guy so I tried to become stable. I’m on a full ride to university, one that even pays me 5k a year. I’m studying business management and supply chain, something that should be a steady career, and I have 57k of excess educational funds in an account that could be repurposed someday since I don’t need it.

I guess I just hope some girl will be kind enough to include me someday.

Hi everyone, I figured I might as well give this a shot. I’m 5’4, it is what it is, but it seems to rule me out of a lot of women’s preferences. That’s fine, but I just hope one woman will take me someday.

I always have wanted a long term relationship with one woman. Ever since I was a little kid, and used to go to the mall and see the couples walking together, holding hands, chatting, and the guy holding the women’s bag, I knew I wanted that some day.

I’m introverted and quiet, but talkative when I need to be and feel comfortable. I can be contextually funny sometimes but hope for a partner that I don’t have to constantly entertain, and a dynamic where we can enjoy each other’s company and sit in silence sometimes. I’m solidly average in looks but I do have a decent beard for 19, blue gray eyes, and somewhat broad shoulders.

I just want one woman to be my forever person. I’d be very loyal and very grateful that someone gave me a chance to express love and a long term relationship. I just wanted one woman to sleep next to most nights, live with and be domestic companions with, go to the grocery store and shopping with, and do those little companionship rituals that couples do like cuddling on the couch and going apple picking and such.

I would try my very very best to be a good partner for you. All I ever wanted was a secure relationship with one woman. I’d never leave or cheat, and you would have me as long as you want me.

All I hope for in a partner is some level of physical attraction between us and kindness.

I hope someone sees this post and thinks I might be worth at least a conversation, if not more, but if not, thank you all for reading and engaging with my Hail Mary.

Hi everyone. I’m 19 and 5’4 and always wanted to experience a long term, exclusive relationship with one woman, but I’m worried no woman will take me. I want to hear what you guy’s experiences have been to see if I have hope.

I believe that despite the very popular and frequent view that all men want is sex, I believe that is wrong, though, due to many conditions it is easy to pick up that view.

Many conversations about male loneliness or even the incel community focuses on the lack of sex and male’s desire for sex, but I belief that the reason that the conversation always goes there is because it is more socially acceptable for a man to openly want to have sex, but it is less socially acceptable for men to openly want some of the other things that they would get to do in a relationship, like the daily companionship of living with a woman, or getting to sleep next to a woman most nights in a non sexual way.

I think many men who are lonely and single and unable to find a partner, even some of the incels, desperately want these non sexual aspects of a relationship, but feel unsafe in expressing those desires outwardly, so it all gets wrapped up and expressed under the cover of sex.

Anyway, I’d love to hear any of you people’s thoughts on this, and if you think I’m wrong and mistaken I’d love to hear why you think so. Thank you all for engaging if you do.

I believe that despite the very popular and frequent view that all men want is sex, I believe that is wrong, though, due to many conditions it is easy to pick up that view.

Many conversations about male loneliness or even the incel community focuses on the lack of sex and male’s desire for sex, but I belief that the reason that the conversation always goes there is because it is more socially acceptable for a man to openly want to have sex, but it is less socially acceptable for men to openly want some of the other things that they would get to do in a relationship, like the daily companionship of living with a woman, or getting to sleep next to a woman most nights in a non sexual way.

I think many men who are lonely and single and unable to find a partner, even some of the incels, desperately want these non sexual aspects of a relationship, but feel unsafe in expressing those desires outwardly, so it all gets wrapped up and expressed under the cover of sex.

Anyway, I’d love to hear any of you people’s thoughts on this, and if you think I’m wrong and mistaken I’d love to hear why you think so. Thank you all for engaging if you do.

Contrary to popular belief, I think the things that most lonely, single men miss most is not the sex, rather, it is the daily companionship. Body: I believe that despite the very popular and frequent view that all men want is sex, I believe that is wrong, though, due to many conditions it is easy to pick up that view.

Many conversations about male loneliness or even the incel community focuses on the lack of sex and male’s desire for sex, but I belief that the reason that the conversation always goes there is because it is more socially acceptable for a man to openly want to have sex, but it is less socially acceptable for men to openly want some of the other things that they would get to do in a relationship, like the daily companionship of living with a woman, or getting to sleep next to a woman most nights in a non sexual way.

I think many men who are lonely and single and unable to find a partner, even some of the incels, desperately want these non sexual aspects of a relationship, but feel unsafe in expressing those desires outwardly, so it all gets wrapped up and expressed under the cover of sex.

Anyway, I’d love to hear any of you people’s thoughts on this, and if you think I’m wrong and mistaken I’d love to hear why you think so. Thank you all for engaging if you do.

I believe that despite the very popular and frequent view that all men want is sex, I believe that is wrong, though, due to many conditions it is easy to pick up that view.

Many conversations about male loneliness or even the incel community focuses on the lack of sex and male’s desire for sex, but I belief that the reason that the conversation always goes there is because it is more socially acceptable for a man to openly want to have sex, but it is less socially acceptable for men to openly want some of the other things that they would get to do in a relationship, like the daily companionship of living with a woman, or getting to sleep next to a woman most nights in a non sexual way.

I think many men who are lonely and single and unable to find a partner, even some of the incels, desperately want these non sexual aspects of a relationship, but feel unsafe in expressing those desires outwardly, so it all gets wrapped up and expressed under the cover of sex.

Anyway, I’d love to hear any of you people’s thoughts on this, and if you think I’m wrong and mistaken I’d love to hear why you think so. Thank you all for engaging if you do.

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want.

To start off, I say women because I’m a man and that’s who I hope to date. I’m 5’4 and not very exciting, but I do have the potential to be very stable and a very reliable partner and father. Do women still settle for their partner sometimes, maybe if they are getting older and want kids or just want to be done with dating?

I ask not because I’m judging, not at all, rather, I think it may be the best chance for me to get the daily companionship and co sleeping I always wanted.

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want.

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want.

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want.

It doesn’t have to be love. She doesn’t have to desire me that much. I’m 5’4 and probably average looking at best. I just hope one woman will maybe at least settle for me someday. A companionate arraignment if you will.

Since I was a little boy, I always wanted to experience a relationship. When I used to got to the mall with my parents, I’d see the couples walking around. The two holding hands, chatting, laughing, him carrying her bags, sharing food. Ever since then I’ve always wanted to experience a long term relationship.

Although, as I’ve found out, my height, my quietness and introversion, and the rough state of the dating market makes this vision very unlikely for someone like me. I’ve tried to optimize what I can. I’m on a full ride, I have 57k of excess funds, I got a 4.0 in my first year of school. I know that’s not going to create romantic attraction, but it could create stability.

It doesn’t have to be fireworks. I just hope some woman, who I’m at least somewhat attracted to, might at least settle. Maybe we are both up in age and tired of dating. Maybe she needs a stable partner to have kids with. Maybe she’s given up on love and just wants someone who’ll stay. Either way, I just hope that woman’s out there, and might choose to settle with me, despite my drawbacks.

I’m admittedly not the most exciting option. I’m not handsome, or tall, or charismatic, or particularly funny. But, I’ll be stable, I’ll provide the best i can, I’ll try to always be kind, I’ll try to be a good partner and father, and I’ll be forever grateful that she let me experience a long term relationship.

The relationship I always wanted doesn’t need fireworks, just precisely and mutual caring about each other. I just wanted someone to sleep next to, go grocery shopping with, drive places with, do things with, go to chilis and such restaurants with, and decorate the Christmas tree with. Maybe one day she’ll be at the store and see something, and think of me and get it for me because she knows I like it. That’s all I want.

Hi everyone. I’m 19, and on paper, I’m actually doing quite well. I’m on a full ride in college, got a 4.0 in my first year of school, and I have 57k of excess funds. But, there is an issue, I’m very shy, quiet and introverted. Normally, this wouldn’t be a problem, because I was very content by myself all throughout my teen years and childhood, and I still am, to an extent, but I very much want to experience sex and relationships

I always wanted a serious girlfriend or wife. You know, someone to sleep next to most nights, life with, go grocery shopping with, decorate the Christmas tree together, just the companionship of a shared life. However, I’m found that due to my shyness, and being quiet, I’ve never really attracted anyone or connected in that way.

I’m very scared I’m never going to be able to, and that I’ll be left out of sex and relationships, so hears my question for all of you, how should I break out of this. What are things I could do to become even just a little more open and less shy, even if it’s just enough to find my person. Also, if any of you out there were ever in a similar situation, what did you do, and were you eventually able to find someone or have relationships? Thank you all!

I’m a 19 year man who’s 5’4 and a virgin, but I always wanted to have a serious girlfriend or wife. I’m just trying to see if the odds are good that I can at least get some relationship at some point in my life, even if it takes a little or is not love, but more companionable, or even transactional.

Hi everyone. I’m 19, and on paper, I’m actually doing quite well. I’m on a full ride in college, got a 4.0 in my first year of school, and I have 57k of excess funds. But, there is an issue, I’m very shy, quiet and introverted. Normally, this wouldn’t be a problem, because I was very content by myself all throughout my teen years and childhood, and I still am, to an extent, but I very much want to experience sex and relationships

I always wanted a serious girlfriend or wife. You know, someone to sleep next to most nights, life with, go grocery shopping with, decorate the Christmas tree together, just the companionship of a shared life. However, I’m found that due to my shyness, and being quiet, I’ve never really attracted anyone or connected in that way.

I’m very scared I’m never going to be able to, and that I’ll be left out of sex and relationships, so hears my question for all of you, how should I break out of this. What are things I could do to become even just a little more open and less shy, even if it’s just enough to find my person. Also, if any of you out there were ever in a similar situation, what did you do, and were you eventually able to find someone or have relationships? Thank you all!