u/the_practicerLALA

I feel biologically depressed. Nothing external effects it. Something inside me is not working. Is there hope for me in trying to find help in functional medicine?

I was in withdrawal for around 6 months. After that, things improved a lot. My libido came back fully and my anhedonia lifted by probably 80%. For about 3 months I genuinely felt like I was getting my life back. I started working again, seeing friends again, functioning normally, and honestly stopped thinking about PSSD/withdrawal most of the time because I thought the ordeal was finally ending.

Then around month 11, I started slipping back into anhedonia again. It wasn’t a sudden crash overnight, more like gradually feeling emotionally flatter and less like myself again.

What confuses me is that most of the other withdrawal symptoms didn’t come back. Libido is still here. The main thing has been the emotional numbness/anhedonia returning. I’ve also had some gastro issues come back a bit, but nowhere near the full intensity of early withdrawal.

Now I’ve been stuck in this state again for about 5 months and it’s honestly brutal mentally. It’s hard to describe how devastating it is to feel almost healed, start rebuilding your life, and then feel yourself fall backwards again after thinking you escaped it.

I keep wondering:
Was this caused by something?
Did I trigger it somehow without realizing?
Could stress/lifestyle/supplements/etc. have caused a setback?
Or do long natural waves/windows like this just happen during recovery?

Would really appreciate hearing from anyone who had a similar pattern, especially if you had a long setback after months of feeling significantly better and then improved again later.

I'm trying to look for a really good naturopath to help me fight anhedonia and what I think is biological depression. I've already had experiences with a bad one who wanted me to take sam e. I explained because I have SSRI induced anhedonia and I'm in WD I cannot willy nilly take substances but obviously they did not know what ssri induced anhedonia is even...

What saddest is that I am in month 15 of withdrawal. During month 6-9 my anhedonia lifted like 80%-90%. However month 11 it gradually came back along with some other symptoms like maladaptive daydreaming. I'm thinking something in my dopamine circuit is fucked up.

I really want to talk about this with a professional. I obviously do not want to go to a doctor, naturopath is my best bet. What should I look for in a naturopath?

I am in month 15 and my last symptom is depression. I have read a lot of success stories but wondering if anyone has links to one where someone's last renaming symptom in WD was depression and eventually it lifted.

Because this is such a "regular" symptom I keep getting this fear that this is just how I am without meds.

I went on meds for OCD never depression but still I am so fearful I will spend the rest of my life like this.

I feel biologically depressed. External changes to my life have no effect the way I feel. I'm in post acute withdrawal after abrudptly quitting prozac that I took for 6 years. I'm in month 15, while I've had so many improvements I just feel so depressed and joyless.

I finally understand how people who are rich and attractive and have everything in life still kill themselves because sometimes there is something internally not working.

That's how I feel, there is something internally inside me not working that is not processing happiness. It could be because I am still in withdrawal, or my biggest fear that this is just how I am without meds.

I obviously can never take meds again so what can I do? I was thinking of seeing a naturopath.

What do you think the reasons of feeling biologically depressed could be?

Could really use some support or directly please, I've been suffering so much.