u/AttentionSeekinFreak

hello everyone! i really want to get back into gaming and start meeting people to play with. the only problem is that i don't have a pc or console to play on, just a ipad and a chrome laptop that i use for my writing and communications. i want to know if there are any free video games on the web browser or google play that are multiplayer or solo. im looking for games with things like ponies and puppies, and also dressup and cozy life type of things. princess games would be fun to play too, now that i think about it. anyways, let me know what you guys have in mind, and ill try to respond to everyone's suggestions!

Since dropping my phone into the tech drawer of doom, I have been on my laptop a lot, researching figures of true crime on wikipedia, and accidentally stumbling upon disturbing websites on Microsoft Bing (which is much better than Google if you are looking to find some pretty odd things). But besides writing small posts about my issues, commenting on other people's posts here on reddit, and now practicing copy editing on Wikipedia as a volunteer (I hope they don't mark my corrections as vandalism, I'm very new to the whole thing, but it's very exciting!), I haven't made any actual articles or essays; which is why I am here.

I want to use Substack as a means to post articles about local things going on in my area, opinion columns, and basically use it as a means to practice my skills with writing for a public audience. I have had prior experience writing prose and poetry in the past, along with a few short stories. But I want to focus on writing that helps my community, and prompts them to engage with my work. "But what is the problem here?" one might ask. Burnout would be the proper answer to that question.

Recently, I have gotten so depressed due to the issues going on in my life. Every so often I consider leaving this world, due to the immense pressure to perform in certain areas of my life. Most of the time, when I do act on these thoughts the plan falls short, and all that is left to show for it is a belly ache and feigned disappointment from my mother. I have asked to be admitted. But all I get in return resistance, and lectures on why I'm not doing well and how I'm not doing anything to help myself. Pish posh.

So now I ask you fellow Redditors of Substack, what should I do to help myself step foot into writing again? I do believe that my work could help people, and by proxy, help myself. But burnout is such a nightmare, so what is a poor soul like me meant to do?

In the past, I have flip flopped from feminine and masculine ways of presentation. And now, with me being single, and having no particular people influencing my thoughts, it has made me question my gender identity. I think about the time when I was a prepubescent child and I ran out of the house with no shirt on, and how I deeply miss the feeling of the sun touching my chest. I recently finished a historical fiction novel with a gay man as the main character, and the descriptions of intimacy were so beautiful and unapologetic with the notes of soft masculinity. I wish to be included, to have a man kiss me, and call me handsome.

I also have stumbled along the hashtag forcemasc on tumblr/pinterest...enough said on that.

From what is clear to me, all I want is to be seen as masculine. I don't want to completely leave my femininity behind, because if I were to have ever been born a man, I would have definitely been a soft one. Still, I haven't a clue what to do to set my plans in motion. I have some ideas, but maybe a fellow redditor might point me to the right area? I am 17, soon to be 18, so I suppose that's something to consider.

I decided that I'm going to document this journey on here, that is if it ends up going anywhere. I did a basic search for EXIF data on the images for his location, no luck. The only thing I could get is that the photos he sent are from 2016. Not much to go off of. I'm at a dead end. I know this is terrible, but I'm thinking about going back to him to see if I can confront him with what little information I have. I won't though, because that's foolish, and I know that a lot of people on here would love to see me give up and crawl back to being a pet for someone's amusement.

Anyways, I'm going to see what I can find. I'll keep you guys in the loop. And as always if you don't like something I say, keep it pushing.

Okay, so I am currently 17 years old and this man met me when I was 16. I don't want to get into the details but I will say that there was a lot of manipulation and mind games involved. I foolishly believed that the information he gave to me was true, but when I decided to look him up, nothing could be found. I even called his school to find his information and a student all to find out that there was no student with that name. He sent me a lot of photos and we video called a few times, so I think it's unlikely he could have messed with his images. But his phone number is a dead end, along with his email and other social media accounts.

I know logically I should go to the police and file a report but I don't think they would be very helpful in this case as I have had similar issues and nothing was actually done.

The bottom line is : I want justice and closure for myself. Even though online abuse is a bit nuanced and hard to consider as "actual abuse", I don't want anyone else to go through with the madness and emotional turmoil I went through. And I cannot do it without some help. If anyone is willing to offer advice and resources to do my own private investigation it would be very appreciated.

Edit: If you are not going to be helpful, victim blame, or try to direct me to local law enforcement, do not waste your time on my post. I will find this man one way or another, with or without the help of Redditors such as yourselves. Either you have solid advice or you don't, and if you're the latter then my post is not for you.

Edit #2: I honestly forgot how many weird males there are on this platform because why on earth am I getting downvoted for not trusting law enforcement with my issues? You do know that the police doesn't have the answers for everything right? When cold cases from 50 years ago get solved, it's not from the detectives or the patrol officers magically finding the perps and arresting them. It's from forensics, whether that be digital or DNA or genealogy. The police themselves cannot do anything without evidence, and most of the time they don't know where to look, which is where outside sources come in. From my knowledge digital forensics is supposed to be about investigating and not running to the pork chops eating donuts at the office whenever things get too tough to handle. This a investigative field so why are we suddenly afraid to do our own deep dive when it comes to cases like this.

TDLR: Grow up man babies! Also thank you to the lovely women who actually wanted to help you're amazing <3 Okay I'm done ranting now back to the case I go!

On and off I have really had a fondness for elevators. I love riding them, and using them as a mode of vertical transportation to get to places in buildings. In the past I have kept a mental note of the different kinds of elevators I've gotten to ride in the past, like Otis and Thyssenkrupp. There are some that don't always have a clear note of identification, so I can't always tell what brand it is.

For anyone here that would be kind enough to tell me, how did you get involved with VT? I really want to learn more about the history and mechanical knowledge behind my favorite invention of humanity!

I know we're not supposed to give out personal information about students or staff on here so i will not on this post. But I am trying to see if a guy I know is actually telling me the truth or if im just being played like a fiddle. He goes to the center in Oneonta so do with that what you will.

Mods please have mercy on me and do not take this down I NEED ANSWERS!

I'm thinking about going there as a CNA or culinary student but not quite sure yet. It's a little far away from me but I wanna get out there yk? Anyways advice is always appreciated, thank you so much