u/AttentionSeekinFreak

Everywhere I go on the internet nowadays I'm either met with people way too old or way too young. Like first a guy in his 30s starts talking to me, I cut it off. Then TWO FOURTEEN YEAR OLDS START TALKING TO ME 😭 luckily nothing weird happened I just let the conversations end. But it's genuinely so weird to be a 17 year old who's almost 18 because it's like closing a door and then opening another. I feel intrigued but also sick to my stomach because I don't want what happened to me as a child to happen to anyone else.

I just wish conversating online didn't have to be such a struggle. I feel so alone in real life, why does the internet have to be lonely too?

As I've grown older, and more summers of solitude keep passing me by, I start to wonder if being by myself is the route I should go. I don't find a lot of comfort in my family, and friendships seem to come and go like the wind. And don't get me started on relationships, they've all been such a waste of time. But instead of wallowing about those things, I want to talk about things that I like to do to keep me calm as a involuntary loner.

**1. Writing.**

It's always been an on and off thing for me. But right now it's been pretty consistent. I'm trying to fill up my other journal so I can buy other ones...not like I have any money right now but still.

**2. Woodworking.**

Something I've been getting back into slowly. I ordered a few more blocks of wood so I can do some projects but they're not here yet so I'm going to wait. Maybe I could do some drawings for practice.

**3. Making Posts**

I like posting on social media just for fun. If any of you ever heard of bluegh0sts, she's the reason I started to make slideshows and stuff, but i don't have an obsession with blue or religious iconography, I'm just into bears. Maybe I might branch out into videos and stuff but i'm not that popular yet. Oh and Reddit is cool too I guess.

**4. Working out.**

I like doing silly dances on just dance or just walking around my house. Very enriching.

**5. Art in general**

I would love to spend all my time doing creative things of

some nature, but everyone and their mother is all about the money. And sure that's important. But I think happiness is too. So I'll just do what I want and suffer the financial consequences later

**6. Sleeping.**

Nuff said.

I think that's all I have for now. But if you're in a tough spot or waiting to get out of a rough social situation like I am, maybe these things might help you. Or find your own coping whatchamacallits, this is not the end all be all of hobbies. Cheers.

Today I just got out of the psych ward and it's been crappy. I haven't really talked to any of my family members and when I have it hasn't been very productive. I miss the staff, and nurses who looked after me. I miss having people who laughed and smiled at my jokes. I miss being called a boy. I miss everything, and nothing at the same time.

Now I'm back to reality, where everyone calls me a name I don't like, and now my only friend is a cis het guy who doesn't even respect my race, let alone identity. I don't really appreciate him, but he's all I've got for now, along with my family.

I just wish I could be okay with having no one. I don't want anyone in my life anymore. When people get to close to me they burn, and I don't want to be apart of that anymore. I just want to be a man. I want to be a man that I know I am. I can't wait to start my life.

As I've grown older, and more summers of solitude keep passing me by, I start to wonder if being by myself is the route I should go. I don't find a lot of comfort in my family, and friendships seem to come and go like the wind. And don't get me started on relationships, they've all been such a waste of time. But instead of wallowing about those things, I want to talk about things that I like to do to keep me calm as a involuntary loner.

1. Writing.

It's always been an on and off thing for me. But right now it's been pretty consistent. I'm trying to fill up my other journal so I can buy other ones...not like I have any money right now but still.

2. Woodworking.

Something I've been getting back into slowly. I ordered a few more blocks of wood so I can do some projects but they're not here yet so I'm going to wait. Maybe I could do some drawings for practice.

3. Making Posts

I like posting on social media just for fun. If any of you ever heard of bluegh0sts, she's the reason I started to make slideshows and stuff, but i don't have an obsession with blue or religious iconography, I'm just into bears. Maybe I might branch out into videos and stuff but i'm not that popular yet. Oh and Reddit is cool too I guess.

4. Working out.

I like doing silly dances on just dance or just walking around my house. Very enriching.

5. Art in general

I would love to spend all my time doing creative things of

some nature, but everyone and their mother is all about the money. And sure that's important. But I think happiness is too. So I'll just do what I want and suffer the financial consequences later

6. Sleeping.

Nuff said.

I think that's all I have for now. But if you're in a tough spot or waiting to get out of a rough social situation like I am, maybe these things might help you. Or find your own coping whatchamacallits, this is not the end all be all of hobbies. Cheers.

How do I switch my writing from creative to objective for journalism?

I want to double major in ecology and journalism in college. I think I do well with essays and book analysis for English, but I want to know if there's any way to improve my writing to look more professional and sound like a journalist's. Outside of school I write poetry and do my own book reports/notes on the books that I read in my journal. I was considering studying previous news articles or trying to write them in my own words to facilitate improvement. What do you all think? please let me know.

Side note: I tried to post in r/journalism but they are all such snobs and cynicists about the industry. I understand being blunt with advice but there's no reason to bully others that are new to the field into thinking they can't land a gig because they're "not tough enough" or whatever snarky response is in the replies that day. As writers we owe it to our peers to help them succeed with their works and projects. When someone succeeds, we all succeed! All right sorry for that little ramble lol. Cheers.

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Okay so i kind of realized that I have a knack for doing things with my hands, specifically, when it comes to working with wood. I've done wood burning and engraving and recently, I learned how to make a pen out of wood. And I wanna learn more about this craft because it's really amazing to me.

But before this epiphany I was planning to go a traditional education route with my bachelor's degree in English and then a masters in library science... Which still sounds really nice to me because i've always liked writing.

But now I don't know what to choose...so what the heck am I supposed to do?!

If anybody could give me some advice or some ways to combat this challenge, please let me know!

Cheers!

Hello gentleman. I wanted to discuss workout routines with you all, just to see what everybody does. One of my biggest fears about transitioning is going on testosterone and not feeling great about my body, or by the time I get top surgery my body will change to where I won't be able to get keyhole or peri.

I think all trans bodies are awesome, and I don't think we should assume that having a skinny or lean body type is the peak of masculinity. What matters is how you take care of yourself, and if you're still able to do things like, go walk or do a a cart wheel in your eighties lol.

So yeah, let me know what you think. Cheers!

I want a slightly deep voice with a little bit of rasp. Or maybe L’s voice from Death Note? is that unrealistic for pre t? my mom always says that I have a very whiny voice, not sure if shes just being menopausal , or if it’s actually true.

I once read about a guy whose uncle consumed drainer fluid to lose his vocal cords. That has nothing to do with this post, I just find it interesting.

anyways, hope all are doing well, cheers.

Hello everybody. I'm back here wondering how does someone determine their level of autism? I was diagnosed my freshman year of high school but they never really revealed what level I had, or at least my mom didn't because she was quite disgusted with that fun new fact about me.

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I think I require more help that i'm getting right now, and it's really harsh, because my family members have grown averse to me and it feels like i'm just kind of on my own for the most part. I want to do great things in my life, but it feels like as I age, more challenges are put against me; with less help to face them.

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If you guys know of any resources or advice to give please let me know. Thank you.

I know this might seem like a pointless question to ask, but I have been wanting top surgery since I was 15, maybe even before that but i'm just going off of my journal entries lol.

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My 18th birthday is coming up this October, and I really wanted to start the process of getting that surgery but living in a state like this kind of makes it hard to navigate.

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I know I might want testosterone replacement therapy as well, but i'm more so concerned about the surgery.

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For some additional information, I live in the north central part of the state, around the Monongahela River.

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I don't really want to move away, because I have grown to like this state and appreciate its beauty (the people not so much lol). Plus there are things to do if you look hard enough.

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Anyways let me know what you all think and any advice you might have. Cheers!

I know a lot of dudes (myself included) who are scared about hair loss on testosterone, amongst many other things. But whenever I look on r/bald and see the amount of guys smiling with the light reflecting off their heads, it honestly doesn't seem like a horrible future to face.

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There is no such thing as a bad shaped head in my opinion, and when you're on t it might even make your shape look even better!

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I even saw a guy on Twitter talking about how he was excited to tattoo his head after he goes bald and honestly I might steal that idea lol.

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But yeah moral of the post, being bald can be hot. Take your t shots and run wild.

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I posted two things today and nobody commented or anything but they got like 17 views. Am I like being censored or did everyone just decide to ignore my ass? I post like multiple times a day so maybe that's why but I'm just a little confused and upset as to why nobody's commenting on my shit.