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Há uns anos atrás eu partilhei casa com outra mulher que tinha um comportamento estranho comigo, como se me odiasse mas ao mesmo tempo se sentisse atraída por mim. Apesar disso nós nos dávamos bem (chegamos a sair várias vezes juntas e falamos até em viajar). Eu mandava umas indiretas pra ela do tipo que ficaríamos bem juntas mas ela ficava meio incomodada mas quando era eu que se afastava dela, ela vinha me procurar pra conversar. Percebi que ela também tinha ciúmes de mim quando me via com um ficante ou falava sobre outras mulheres. Além de que percebia uma tensão da parte dela quando eu ficava mais junto ou um brilho nos olhos dela quando ela olhava pra mim, outras vezes eu apanhava ela olhando pra mim sem falar nada. Eu sentia às vezes um clima entre nós mas sempre pensava que era coisa da minha cabeça pois ela insistia em dizer que é hetero e tinha até alguns comentários homofóbicos que me deixavam irritada. Poderia ser até que ela gostasse de se sentir desejada por uma bissexual ou lésbica e aquilo lhe alimentava o ego. Então resolvi me afastar o mais possível só falando o necessário com ela e como morávamos com mais pessoas dava pra convivermos o menos possível e foi o que fiz, até porque comecei a gostar dela e sempre que isso acontece com alguma hetero eu me afasto.

Mas ela continuava querendo chamar a minha atenção e quando já estávamos morando em casas diferentes eu ganhei coragem e mandei uma mensagem dizendo que gostava dela e que achava que ela sentia o mesmo por mim. Ela me chamou de ridícula, louca, indelicada que a incomodava e ainda falou que nunca fomos amigas e que não me queria na vida dela. Eu fiquei sem entender porque ela estava reagindo assim, enfim quanto mais eu tentava falar com ela mais a situação piorava… até hoje nunca mais a vi mas às vezes ainda penso nela.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

Does not having sex for a long time harm mental health?

Há uns anos atrás eu partilhei casa com outra mulher que tinha um comportamento estranho comigo, como se me odiasse mas ao mesmo tempo se sentisse atraída por mim. Eu mandava umas indiretas pra ela do tipo que ficaríamos bem juntas mas ela ficava incomodada e se afastava mas quando era eu que se afastava dela, ela vinha me procurar pra conversar. Percebi que ela também tinha ciúmes de mim quando me via com um ficante ou falava sobre outras mulheres. Além de que percebia uma tensão/nervosismo da parte dela quando eu ficava mais junto ou um brilho nos olhos dela quando ela olhava pra mim enquanto conversávamos. Eu sentia às vezes um clima de flerte entre nós mas sempre pensava que era coisa da minha cabeça pois ela insistia em dizer que é hetero e tinha até comentários homofóbicos que me deixavam irritada. Poderia ser até que ela gostasse de se sentir desejada por uma bissexual ou lésbica e aquilo lhe alimentava o ego. Então resolvi me afastar o mais possível só falando o necessário com ela e como morávamos com mais pessoas dava pra convivermos o menos possível e foi o que fiz, até porque comecei a gostar dela e sempre que isso acontece com alguma hetero eu me afasto.

Mas ela não me saía da cabeça e quando já estávamos morando em casas diferentes eu ganhei coragem e mandei uma mensagem dizendo que gostava dela e que achava que ela sentia o mesmo por mim. Ela me chamou de ridícula, louca, indelicada que a incomodava e ainda falou que nunca fomos amigas e que não me queria na vida dela. Eu fiquei sem entender porque ela estava reagindo assim mas eu já havia percebido uma certa raiva da parte dela comigo (talvez por tentar uma amizade com ela eu acho ou por pura homofobia) enfim quanto mais eu tentava falar com ela mais a situação piorava… até hoje nunca mais a vi mas às vezes ainda penso nela.

Há uns anos atrás eu partilhei casa com outra mulher que tinha um comportamento estranho comigo, como se me odiasse mas ao mesmo tempo se sentisse atraída por mim. Eu mandava umas indiretas pra ela do tipo que ficaríamos bem juntas mas ela ficava incomodada e se afastava mas quando era eu que se afastava dela, ela vinha me procurar pra conversar. Percebi que ela também tinha ciúmes de mim quando me via com um ficante ou falava sobre outras mulheres. Além de que percebia uma tensão/nervosismo da parte dela quando eu ficava mais junto ou um brilho nos olhos dela quando ela olhava pra mim enquanto conversávamos. Eu sentia às vezes um clima de flerte entre nós mas sempre pensava que era coisa da minha cabeça pois ela insistia em dizer que é hetero e tinha até comentários homofóbicos que me deixavam irritada. Poderia ser até que ela gostasse de se sentir desejada por uma bissexual ou lésbica e aquilo lhe alimentava o ego. Então resolvi me afastar o mais possível só falando o necessário com ela e como morávamos com mais pessoas dava pra convivermos o menos possível e foi o que fiz, até porque comecei a gostar dela e sempre que isso acontece com alguma hetero eu me afasto.

Mas ela não me saía da cabeça e quando já estávamos morando em casas diferentes eu ganhei coragem e mandei uma mensagem dizendo que gostava dela e que achava que ela sentia o mesmo por mim. Ela me chamou de ridícula, louca, indelicada que a incomodava e ainda falou que nunca fomos amigas e que não me queria na vida dela. Eu fiquei sem entender porque ela estava reagindo assim mas eu já havia percebido uma certa raiva da parte dela comigo (talvez por tentar uma amizade com ela eu acho ou por pura homofobia) enfim quanto mais eu tentava falar com ela mais a situação piorava… até hoje nunca mais a vi mas às vezes ainda penso nela.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

To what extent does social isolation distort our mental health?

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

Today I looked at a picture of myself as a baby and cried. Does this have any psychological significance?

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.

A few years ago, I shared a house with another woman who behaved strangely towards me, as if she hated me but at the same time felt attracted to me. I would drop hints to her, like we'd be good together, but she would get uncomfortable and distance herself. However, when I distanced myself from her, she would come looking for me to talk. I noticed she was also jealous of me when she saw me with a guy she was seeing or talking about other women. Besides that, I noticed a tension/nervousness on her part when I was closer, or a gleam in her eyes when she looked at me while we talked. I sometimes felt a flirtatious vibe between us, but I always thought it was just my imagination because she insisted she was straight and even made homophobic comments that irritated me. It could even be that she liked feeling desired by a bisexual or lesbian woman, and that fed her ego. So I decided to distance myself as much as possible, only speaking to her when absolutely necessary. Since we lived with other people, we could minimize our interaction, which is what I did, especially because I started to like her, and whenever that happens with a straight woman, I distance myself.

But she wouldn't leave my mind, and when we were already living in different houses, I mustered up the courage and sent her a message saying that I liked her and that I thought she felt the same way about me. She called me ridiculous, crazy, rude, said I bothered her, and even said that we were never friends and that she didn't want me in her life. I didn't understand why she was reacting like that, but I had already noticed a certain anger on her part towards me (maybe for trying to be friends with her, I think, or out of pure homophobia). Anyway, the more I tried to talk to her, the worse the situation got… I haven't seen her since, but sometimes I still think about her.