u/CRE-Baby

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I made a post recently and the replies were so incredibly kind, I just want to thank you all for your kindness and compassion.

Unfortunately i was on another sub asking for career advice and somehow, some random Reddit user found my post on here talking about depression, and then linked it in my other post asking for career advice specifically to publicly shame me for being depressed and to prevent people from actually connecting with me and giving me advice.

That is the kind of insane illogical cruelty I have been dealing with my entire life. My heart simply cannot take it anymore. I can’t be around people anymore. They are just too cruel.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

I have a BA from Rutgers in journalism. Mostly hospitality and sales experience but ive been deeply depressed my entire life aboit this world. It’s not something that will ever go away.I hate work. I hate capitalism. I hate being a slave to billionaires.

Ive waited tables for many years while trying to pursue my dreams but of course it hasn’t worked out and the job of being a waiter has just gotten progressively worse and worse over the years, and with this horrific culture of hate and antagonism in the USA, I really can’t pretend to be happy anymore, like my heart and soul literally cant do it anymore. I am dead inside. This world is hell.

But I am smart and im sure im capable of doing some kind of remote job, I just have no idea at all how to find them. Everything I see is either crazy super corporate / wants crazy amounts to experience or is a straight up scam.

I don’t really know what to do anymore. I can’t work low wage abusive jobs anymore, my heart and soul are so broken down I simply cannot even fake being ok or happy with all of my energy, and people can tell, and they judge me and make my life a living hell because of their antagonistic egos. It’s just so horrible.

Would really appreciate any ideas. Thank you for your help.

Edit- please do not leave unhelpful comments. I don’t know why people do that. Please only give helpful advice or dont comment at all. Please.

Listen I understand you people are cruel and disgusting selfish monsters that come on here to take pot shots at people to make yourself feel better about your miserable lives and lack of work. I get it.

But it doesn’t have to fucking be this way.

People COULD be nice to each other. They COULD be helpful and kind.

We COULD have actual decent moderators, user flair, requirements to post and comment, and cultivate a community that is actually helpful and an actual resource for people in the industry.

It doesn’t HAVE to be this toxic pit of psychos.

But it seems like there are way way way more hate filled jealous psychos on here than there are actual industry professionals.

I said what I had to say.

Trying to publicly shake somebody for dealing with depression is probably one of the most disgusting things I have ever experienced in my life.

But that kind of behavior is encouraging and supported on this toxic sub.

Because thats just what you people are.

I don’t need this sub anymore. I have fantastic representation, im a grateful union member, I have major credits, and I actively audition. And yea, I also deal with depression :)

I’m thinking of the other kids that need advice so they can also pursue their dreams. They deserve a place to get advice and not to get bullied by the losers on this sub.

I don’t even know what to say anymore

I cannot TAKE the cruelty and hostility and hatred and oppression anymore.

Literally E V E R Y T H I N G about this world is corrupt and fucking evil.

Billionaires have corrupted E V E R Y T H I N G.

Even peoples minds and how they treat each other.

I literally, quite literally, cannot take it anymore.

All of this is so fucked up and evil and WRONG.

I have been screaming at the top of my motherfucking lungs since BIRTH about how fucked up this world is and how much fucking PAIN I am in.

Nobody fucking cares. Nobody gives a fucking SHIT about anything.

All humans care about is being an antagonistic egotistical fucking psychopath to other humans at this point abd I literally cannot take it for another fucking SECIND.

I DO NOT FUCKING WANT TO BE HERE

I DO NOT FUCKING WANT TO BE ALIVE ON THIS MOTHERFUCKING NIGHTMARE PLANET

ALL OF THIS. EVERY SINGLE MOTHERFUCKING SECOND OF THIS WRETCHED LIFE IN THIA WRETCHED WORLD IS AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT.

FUCKING ALL OF IT.

But nobody cares. Nobody gives a FUCK.

Because THEY have more money than me. THEY have families and partners and support and love.

Not me though! So fuck me I guess right?

People make me fucking SICK. They are wretched disgusting selfish selfish SELFISH monsters who will lie cheat steal and push you down a fucking flight of stairs to get ONE MILISECOND ahead of you.

1 motherfucking milisecond.

I do not trust A N Y O N E

because E V E R Y O N E is a spineless hypocrite.

E V E R Y O N E.

I cannot afford to live. I have never had stability.

Nobody gives a FUCK.

All I experience is non stop fucked up horror and cruelty and excruciating torture from everything on this wretched wicked disgusting nightmare planet.

I am fucking done. D O N E.

I am picking the most painless pleasant way to end it and I’m fucking D O N E.

I’m not LETTING this world abd other people torture me anymore. Not for another fucking SECOND.

I am fucking D O N E.

Literally every second of my life has been a motherfucking nightmare since birth abd im not letting whatever evil that controls this fucked up planet to continue ti torture me. Ita just not happening anymore.

I genuinely believe this place is hell. And ANYTHING other than this world has to be 100000000000x better. I genuinely sincerely believe that.

I wish I could take out some billionaires with me on the way out, but honesty? Humanity doesn’t even deserve it.

Humanity can rot in hell for the way they’ve treated me my entire life.

All of this is hell and im done.

The end.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity. I seriously hate being alive. I hate it so fucking much i cry so deeply every single motherfucking day of my wretched life. I truly feel like I’m living a nightmare and it just never ever ever stops.

Every single moderator of every single manifesting subreddit removes my posts without even the respect of a fucking explanation. These people are egotistical gate keeping psychopaths who aren’t even experts at manifesting but have somehow overtaking ALL of the manifesting subs to play god so they can feel important.

I’m SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EXPERIENCING CRUELTY AT THE HANDS OF WICKED WRETCHED HUMANS. IT HAS BEEN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT.

I AM AN INNOCENT HUMAN SOUL BORN AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT INTO THE MOST WRETCHED WICKED HELL IMAGINEABLE AND I CANT TAKE THIS HORROR AND TORTURE ANYMORE.

I NEED MONEY. I CANNOT BE FORCED TO EXPERIENCE SUCH WRETCHED DISGUSTING POVERTY AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT. IT IS SO FUCKING HORRIBLE IT MAKES EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN UNBEARABLE WRETCHED NIGHTMARE.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. It’s not fair.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity. I seriously hate being alive. I hate it so fucking much i cry so deeply every single motherfucking day of my wretched life. I truly feel like I’m living a nightmare and it just never ever ever stops.

Every single moderator of every single manifesting subreddit removes my posts without even the respect of a fucking explanation. These people are egotistical gate keeping psychopaths who aren’t even experts at manifesting but have somehow overtaking ALL of the manifesting subs to play god so they can feel important.

I’m SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EXPERIENCING CRUELTY AT THE HANDS OF WICKED WRETCHED HUMANS. IT HAS BEEN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT.

I AM AN INNOCENT HUMAN SOUL BORN AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT INTO THE MOST WRETCHED WICKED HELL IMAGINEABLE AND I CANT TAKE THIS HORROR AND TORTURE ANYMORE.

I NEED MONEY. I CANNOT BE FORCED TO EXPERIENCE SUCH WRETCHED DISGUSTING POVERTY AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT. IT IS SO FUCKING HORRIBLE IT MAKES EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN UNBEARABLE WRETCHED NIGHTMARE.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. Its not fair.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity.

Every single moderator of every single manifesting subreddit removes my posts without even the respect of a fucking explanation. These people are egotistical gate keeping psychopaths who aren’t even experts at manifesting but have somehow overtaking ALL of the manifesting subs to play god so they can feel important.

I’m SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EXPERIENCING CRUELTY AT THE HANDS OF WICKED WRETCHED HUMANS. IT HAS BEEN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT.

I AM AN INNOCENT HUMAN SOUL BORN AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT INTO THE MOST WRETCHED WICKED HELL IMAGINEABLE AND I CANT TAKE THIS HORROR AND TORTURE ANYMORE.

I NEED MONEY. I CANNOT BE FORCED TO EXPERIENCE SUCH WRETCHED DISGUSTING POVERTY AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT. IT IS SO FUCKING HORRIBLE IT MAKES EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN UNBEARABLE WRETCHED NIGHTMARE.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. Its not fair.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity.

Every single moderator of every single manifesting subreddit removes my posts without even the respect of a fucking explanation. These people are egotistical gate keeping psychopaths who aren’t even experts at manifesting but have somehow overtaking ALL of the manifesting subs to play god so they can feel important.

I’m SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EXPERIENCING CRUELTY AT THE HANDS OF WICKED WRETCHED HUMANS. IT HAS BEEN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT.

I AM AN INNOCENT HUMAN SOUL BORN AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT INTO THE MOST WRETCHED WICKED HELL IMAGINEABLE AND I CANT TAKE THIS HORROR AND TORTURE ANYMORE.

I NEED MONEY. I CANNOT BE FORCED TO EXPERIENCE SUCH WRETCHED DISGUSTING POVERTY AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT. IT IS SO FUCKING HORRIBLE IT MAKES EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN UNBEARABLE WRETCHED NIGHTMARE.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. Its not fair.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity.

Every single moderator of every single manifesting subreddit removes my posts without even the respect of a fucking explanation. These people are egotistical gate keeping psychopaths who aren’t even experts at manifesting but have somehow overtaking ALL of the manifesting subs to play god so they can feel important.

I’m SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EXPERIENCING CRUELTY AT THE HANDS OF WICKED WRETCHED HUMANS. IT HAS BEEN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT.

I AM AN INNOCENT HUMAN SOUL BORN AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT INTO THE MOST WRETCHED WICKED HELL IMAGINEABLE AND I CANT TAKE THIS HORROR AND TORTURE ANYMORE.

I NEED MONEY. I CANNOT BE FORCED TO EXPERIENCE SUCH WRETCHED DISGUSTING POVERTY AGAINST MY WILL AND CONSENT. IT IS SO FUCKING HORRIBLE IT MAKES EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN UNBEARABLE WRETCHED NIGHTMARE.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. Its not fair.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’ve lost hope in my life, ive lost hope in humanity.

My entire life truly has been a torturous nightmare and just never stops. I was born into poverty into a small terrible family and I have suffered my entire life as a result.

I find humanity so beyond cruel. Wicked, wretched, evil beyond words. I don’t even want to be around people anymore.

I have no idea how to make money. I have no idea how to find a single person on this planet I can trust that won’t try to screw me over or exploit me in some way.

I just feel horrible all the time. All the time. Stress, poverty, depression, alienation, it just never ends. I wake up so lost and confused and overwhelmed with dread every single day of my life.

This isn’t something a therapist or medication can solve. Only money. Only love. But I have been deprived of both literally my entire life and im just at my wits end.

I’m sick of being a working class slave. Im sick of being treated like shit and disrespected by society. I’m sick and tired of having NOTHING I want in my life, not 1 single thing, while everybody around me gets everything they want.

It’s evil. It’s cruel. It makes me feel that god does not exist, that evil rules this world, and that something must be seriously wrong with my because why in gods name is my life so fucking horrible all the time. It’s just not fair.

Ive visualized money counting it smelling it spending it make it investing it.

I affirmed til the cows come home.

I’ve tried to live in the end.

Ive tried reality transurfing. Joseph Murphy. Abraham hicks, every author in the manifesting space.

Nothing has worked. Nothing has helped me manifest 1 single thing.

People come on here talking about making millions of dollars and I can barely breathe. Every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. Every single day of my life is a nightmare and nobody helps me.

All people do is brag, push me down, gaslight me, and torture me. It’s really really hard to even get through each day in extreme poverty let alone feel good about myself let alone genuinely assume anything good will ever happen to me when my entire life has a been a literal hell.

I don’t know what to do. I try walking away and forgetting about manifesting all the time but regular life is so god damn depressing I always end up coming back.

I’m really at my wits end. I can’t stand experiencing this horror, this grotesque inequality, this grotesque cruelty and disrespect. It’s just too much to bare. Life itself is just unbearable when you’re poor and alone.its just literally unbearable. It’s not fair.I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I haven’t been able to take it for decades now abd still nothing changes or gets better no matter what I do say think feel try to assume or anything. It all just feels like a wicked wretched hell outside of my control that I just want to hide from so very deeply. I’m tired of feeling pain and cruelty. Its not fair.