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I would be content making $300 a week performing dinner theatre somewhere in Wisconsin. Instead, I audition for the gatekeepers and tastemakers of Hollywood. It’s a combination of my essence and marketing materials lending themself to be perceived as a prestige tv/film actor. But from a manifesting standpoint, I believe it’s come from truly believing in myself, my craft & technique, knowing myself, and following my heart.

Where I get tripped up is trying to measure manifesting techniques, their efficacy, and getting stuck in depressive thought loops as im naturally a very energetically open & receptive sensitive empathetic artist with a huge heart who is extremely affected by my environment, how people treat me, and stimuli both positive and negative.

That puts a bee in my bonnet as what’s the point of even reading and practicing manifesting if it’s all mind games, placebo effect, and somehow reprogramming trauma for the vast majority of is not born into this world with a silver spoon. This work seems impossible and as much as I am proud of how far I’ve gotten pursuing my ultimate dream, im also very saddened and basically devastated that I haven’t seen better results more tangible results from technique work and time invested in these belief systems.

Basically none of my visualizations or affirmations have come true. I mean, I’ve said so many affirmations over the years maybe a few of them came true, but it’s pretty goddamn impossible for me to measure, which depresses me.

I don’t really want to visualize anymore it just makes me sad that I feel like they don’t come true. I can’t really seem to get past that, same as how I can’t seem to not think about manifesting in general, if only because I’m always a type of person to constantly be thinking about how I can improve my life for better enjoyment and progress towards achieving my goals. I don’t really see that as “checking the 3D” so much as just my general disposition on life.

I don’t really like the break yourself down and rebuild yourself mentality or somehow stop wanting your desires mentality, they don’t ring true to me. Nothing is wrong with me, im pretty cool and a good person and I know I deserve to get what I want from my life. But clearly there’s some kind of block because I don’t have most of what I want and despite being an actor I have a very difficult time living in the end as if I do. With anything really, money, friends, love, acting jobs, etc.

I basically don’t feel in control of manifesting anything and they depresses me and confuses me, because when I look at my acting track record, and I run my numbers through multiple AI systems they tell me im in the top 1% of actors and that statistically im on track for a really big career working with the best of the best long term, and I truly believe that.. but I’m not getting any younger and I’d like to hurry up and actually get to spend my time doing what I love doing for a change.

Any thoughts?

I would be content making $300 a week performing dinner theatre somewhere in Wisconsin. Instead, I audition for the gatekeepers and tastemakers of Hollywood. It’s a combination of my essence and marketing materials lending themself to be perceived as a prestige tv/film actor. But from a manifesting standpoint, I believe it’s come from truly believing in myself, my craft & technique, knowing myself, and following my heart.

Where I get tripped up is trying to measure manifesting techniques, their efficacy, and getting stuck in depressive thought loops as im naturally a very energetically open & receptive sensitive empathetic artist with a huge heart who is extremely affected by my environment, how people treat me, and stimuli both positive and negative.

That puts a bee in my bonnet as what’s the point of even reading and practicing manifesting if it’s all mind games, placebo effect, and somehow reprogramming trauma for the vast majority of is not born into this world with a silver spoon. This work seems impossible and as much as I am proud of how far I’ve gotten pursuing my ultimate dream, im also very saddened and basically devastated that I haven’t seen better results more tangible results from technique work and time invested in these belief systems.

Basically none of my visualizations or affirmations have come true. I mean, I’ve said so many affirmations over the years maybe a few of them came true, but it’s pretty goddamn impossible for me to measure, which depresses me.

I don’t really want to visualize anymore it just makes me sad that I feel like they don’t come true. I can’t really seem to get past that, same as how I can’t seem to not think about manifesting in general, if only because I’m always a type of person to constantly be thinking about how I can improve my life for better enjoyment and progress towards achieving my goals. I don’t really see that as “checking the 3D” so much as just my general disposition on life.

I don’t really like the break yourself down and rebuild yourself mentality or somehow stop wanting your desires mentality, they don’t ring true to me. Nothing is wrong with me, im pretty cool and a good person and I know I deserve to get what I want from my life. But clearly there’s some kind of block because I don’t have most of what I want and despite being an actor I have a very difficult time living in the end as if I do. With anything really, money, friends, love, acting jobs, etc.

I basically don’t feel in control of manifesting anything and they depresses me and confuses me, because when I look at my acting track record, and I run my numbers through multiple AI systems they tell me im in the top 1% of actors and that statistically im on track for a really big career working with the best of the best long term, and I truly believe that.. but I’m not getting any younger and I’d like to hurry up and actually get to spend my time doing what I love doing for a change.

Any thoughts?

What is the number I have to make to feel true relief?

It doesn’t exist because other people still suffer.

I’m on this island in the gulf of Thailand and it’s this tropical paradise. For foreigners that is. I don’t know what dirt poor country Thai locals would have to visit to have the same kind of experience but it’s amazing and grotesque beyond my mental and spiritual capacity that there is no place on this earth that is truly free from capitalistic evil.

Inequality disturbs me on a level so fundamental to my being that I scream and cry every day of my life until my body and soul shakes and quivers because ALL OF THIS is so horrifically against my will and consent. All of it. Every motherfucking second.

I don’t know what kind of a sick fuck our creator is, but he clearly has a hard on for human suffering. That’s the whole shebang. Even the billionaires are miserable. They rape and eat children for fuck sake. Happy people don’t engage in that kind of psychopathy. Happy people don’t get hard ons for taking away food from starving children or taking away human rights from trans people or sending brown people back to dangerous countries to get murdered immediately upon arrival.

Happy people don’t say empathy is sin or empathy is weakness. Miserable blood thirsty insatiable psychopaths say shit like that.

I’m just tired of crying. What else is there? Violence? I can’t take it anymore. How many infuriated out of my mind posts do I have to make on this goddamn sub over the years SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS ABOUT WHAT WE ALL KNOW IS VERY VERY WRONG TO OUR VERY CORE UNTIL PEOPLE START DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT?

I hate humans. I really do. I’ve lost all faith. I resent i care about humanity when humanity deserves the worst thing to happen to them for how repulsively wretched and disgusting they are to one another.

My heart hurts. There is no escape even with all the money the rest of the world suffers. I can’t take it anymore. My fucking heart hurts. I scream i cry I talk about this every day of my life to anybody who will fucking listen because it causes me great pain. Sadness that never ever gets better. That I never heal from because every day is a new horror.

Every day is more struggle and suffering and misery and horror and deprivation and torture and I can not will not even try to wrap my head around it anymore.

I just want to be done. With all of this. Simply close my eyes and not wake up and hit have to deal with or experience or see other people experience horrible things. I’m so angry

What’s up guys?

I’m an American actor traveling in Thailand for a few months and I’d love to connect with some local filmmakers while im over here.

I have a great manager, a couple costars on popular American tv shows & 330+ auditions for major tv/film.

I’m also a filmmaker and have 3 short films im looking to shoot while in Thailand.

If you’re a professional looking to collaborate/ expand your reel, hit me up!

Dps, sound, editing, etc

My one short is a psych thriller a take on a David Fincher film, the 2nd is a horror fable like a Robert eggers film, and the 3rd is a simple character study / thriller

All very low budget but if done well will look very cool & I can get some good eyeballs on it. I’ve auditioned for 133 of the 200 major Casting Directors that basically cast everything in the industry.

Hit me up if you’re interested! I’ll be based in Koh Samui but I’m down to Zoom & meet up anywhere.

What’s up guys?

I’m an American actor traveling in Thailand for a few months and I’d love to connect with some local filmmakers while im over here.

I have a great manager, a couple costars on popular American tv shows & 330+ auditions for major tv/film.

I’m also a filmmaker and have 3 short films im looking to shoot while in Thailand.

If you’re a professional looking to collaborate/ expand your reel, hit me up!

Dps, sound, editing, etc

My one short is a psych thriller a take on a David Fincher film, the 2nd is a horror fable like a Robert eggers film, and the 3rd is a simple character study / thriller

All very low budget but if done well will look very cool & I can get some good eyeballs on it. I’ve auditioned for 133 of the 200 major Casting Directors that basically cast everything in the industry.

Hit me up if you’re interested! I’ll be based in Koh Samui but I’m down to Zoom & meet up anywhere.

What’s up guys?

I’m an American actor traveling in Thailand for a few months and I’d love to connect with some local filmmakers while im over here.

I have a great manager, a couple costars on popular American tv shows & 330+ auditions for major tv/film.

I’m also a filmmaker and have 3 short films im looking to shoot while in Thailand.

If you’re a professional looking to collaborate/ expand your reel, hit me up!

Dps, sound, editing, etc

My one short is a psych thriller a take on a David Fincher film, the 2nd is a horror fable like a Robert eggers film, and the 3rd is a simple character study / thriller

All very low budget but if done well will look very cool & I can get some good eyeballs on it. I’ve auditioned for 133 of the 200 major Casting Directors that basically cast everything in the industry.

Hit me up if you’re interested! I’ll be based in Koh Samui but I’m down to Zoom & meet up anywhere.

It never ceases to amaze me how cruel and evil whatever higher power created all this can be

I’ve literally suffered since birth. Since fucking birth. Shit poor family with all kinds of abuse. Why? Why just innocent souls have to go through that against their will and consent?!

Then a lifetime of extreme poverty, alienation, depressed and exploitation. WHY? WHY DOES A HIGHER POWER MAKE EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE AN EXCRUCIATING NIGHTMARE?

It just doesn’t make sense. I try to manifest. I try to feel love I try to lead with my heart follow my dreams be good to other people… none of it matters.

I have been overwhelmed and suffocated by evil my entire life since birth and I just can’t take it anymore. I feel horrible all the time, I feel so much dread and doom
and agony and misery and fear about having to get through each day and having to live another X amount of years on this nightmare planet.

Nobody cares. Nobody has empathy. They have more than me in every way shape or form so fuck me i deserve to suffer apparently in their eyes.

People are sick and disgusting and cruel, and now EVERYONE has become a little mini gaslighting selfish psychopathic mini Trump. Even liberals.

Because people are weak and disgusting and cruel and constantly have to hurt people they deem less worthy then they are so they can feel ok about themselves.

I’m just so tired of this guys. It’s not fair. It’s so fucking evil that I am forced to experience nothing but excruciating fucking pain and suffering every second of my wretched life. It’s fucking evil and wrong and insane.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to find a job at all let alone one that doesn’t abuse me to the point where I don’t even want to be alive. I don’t know how to make friends or find any kind of love or support. I’m just so fucking tired of suffering.

Everything is so fucking evil and cruel and horrible and i just can’t beer to experience it anymore. My body is so tired and I can’t even sleep anymore because my nervous system is so fucked up from lifetime of poverty and no support.

I literally don’t know what to do anymore. I fucking hate being alive more than words could ever describe. None of this is ok. It’s fucking cruel and evil and insane.

Im basically going to save money from a passive income stream for a few months.

I’ll be writing, self taping auditions (im an actor), hopefully making a short film or two if I can connect with filmmakers over there, and spending a lot of time eating, exploring, and getting in the best shape of my life in the gym!

I can’t decide between the Koh islands. I really want cheap room with AC, walkable to cheap street food and a cheap gym. I’ve told to check out areas off the main streets by Chawebg beach or Chaloklum beach.

Chiang Mai the same thing. A cheap room with AC OR cheap luxury room that has good bang for your buck (bathtub balcony, etc). Im been told to check out rooms around Nimman and the university for access to cheap street food abs coffee shops etc.

The 3rd location for the 3rd month is up in the air… Bangkok? Bali? Philippines? Da Nang? It will be October for month 3 so I guess monsoon season will limit where I can go.

What would you suggest for something different for the 3rd month?

Any advice for good gyms or filmmaking / acting resources on the Koh islands or anywhere in Thailand or SEA in general? Good quality rooms in the areas I mentioned that accept 1-3 month stays? Or high quality luxury rooms with bathtubs at decent prices? Bathtubs seem to be a luxury in SEA!

Budget is $1000 a month but preferably as dirt cheap as possible without having bugs or compromising safety. I’ve seen quality rooms with ACs for like $100-200 a month in every location Ive researched. This is my first time traveling to SEA so im really excited.

Thanks for whatever help you can provide! Cheers.

Im basically going to save money from a passive income stream for a few months.

I’ll be writing, self taping auditions (im an actor), hopefully making a short film or two if I can connect with filmmakers over there, and spending a lot of time eating, exploring, and getting in the best shape of my life in the gym!

I can’t decide between the Koh islands. I really want cheap room with AC, walkable to cheap street food and a cheap gym. I’ve told to check out areas off the main streets by Chawebg beach or Chaloklum beach.

Chiang Mai the same thing. A cheap room with AC OR cheap luxury room that has good bang for your buck (bathtub balcony, etc). Im been told to check out rooms around Nimman and the university for access to cheap street food abs coffee shops etc.

The 3rd location for the 3rd month is up in the air… Bangkok? Bali? Philippines? Da Nang? It will be October for month 3 so I guess monsoon season will limit where I can go.

What would you suggest for something different for the 3rd month?

Any advice for good gyms or filmmaking / acting resources on the Koh islands or anywhere in Thailand or SEA in general? Good quality rooms in the areas I mentioned that accept 1-3 month stays? Or high quality luxury rooms with bathtubs at decent prices? Bathtubs seem to be a luxury in SEA!

Budget is $1000 a month but preferably as dirt cheap as possible without having bugs or compromising safety. I’ve seen quality rooms with ACs for like $100-200 a month in every location Ive researched. This is my first time traveling to SEA so im really excited.

Thanks for whatever help you can provide! Cheers.

What’s up guys? Represented actor & commercial real estate broker in my mid 30s looking for other ambitious naturally masculine guys like myself not into the gay scene to be friends with and do cool shit with. Into hiking, traveling, filmmaking, real estate, good food, etc. all my friends are straight & have wives & families & kids (which I also want) and I have a few feminine gay friends but I don’t have any masculine gay friends and honestly that’s just a camaraderie I really miss. Hit me up if you wanna link up this weekend and do something fun. I’m planning a trip to Thailand soon.

Edit- yikes lol. Not even going to waste my time replying to the nasty comments. Just DM directly if you want to hang. Cheers.

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.

I’m a repped union actor 300+ auditions deep with a couple small tv credits reading at the guest star level & above getting more into self producing and figured I’d see if there were any film industry people on here? Im in NYC and moving to LA in a few months and looking to meet new people. I know productions are leaving LA but I tape for all over and I still think LA is the best place to be for networking and self producing as a filmmaker. Hit me up if you wanna connect!

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.

I am a professional actor.

In the SAG-AFTRA union. Fantastic manager with a roster full of working actors on major shows, lead client is a lead on Wednesday (one of Netflix’s most popular shows).

I’ve auditioned over 330 times for major tv/film, small roles to large roles, recurrings to Series Regulars. I’ve booked and been cast in a few small roles on major tv shows.

I’ve come this close to booking a small supporting in an academy award winning directors recent film and often times the people booking the roles I read for are name actors. Not A listers but reputable actors with many credits.

The techniques never did much for me. An inner knowing and passion and confidence has gotten me this far.

And doing this by the book. All the non glamorous non manifesting thing. Training for years, self producing, making mistakes, making a food out of myself. But ultimately believing.

The industry is in a historic contraction. 600 shows produce in USA cut down to 300. Meryl Streep doing TV, so everybody is pushed down a notch.

This year has been one of my best for audition quality: I’ve read for series regulars for the straight to series Amazon show Bishop with Joel Kinnamin John Malkovich and Jennifer Jason Leigh, I auditioned for a series regulars for HBOS straight to series How To Survive Without Me with Ray Romano Joshua Jackson and Caley Kuoco, and last week I read for a top of show guest star for the straight to series NCIS:NY for the pilot episode.

But I’m not booking / sealing the deal. Many Casting Directors have had me audition for the 3/4/5/6+ times but I’m not booking… something is holding me back….

Like I said visualizing/ affirmations / SATS… they never really did anything for me, really just piss me off.

It’s actually probably, actually realistic for me to book a series regular role on a hit tv show.

So how to actually finally manifest this once and for all?

I would also happy just being a full time working acting making $300 a week doing dinner theater regionally somewhere in bumble fuck Wisconsin. I didn’t need to be a tv star, this is just the trajectory I found myself on.