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So Duncan really believes that Tim Heidecker is part of the deep state and from there generalizes that "Those people" are a death cult and are obsessed with violence. Again he generalizes so you don't know if he's talking about coastal elites, liberals, Hollywood, or just the democrats. Basically he implies that if you are atheist you are doomed to evil because you are inherently a materialist and selfish, or something.

I'm a big proponent of trying to step into other people's shoes, especially those who I disagree with. But I really can't understand this perspective, I genuinely tried. I mean, I can cognitively understand it, but I can't understand the anger, the fear, or the rage behind it.

Edit: I also believe, like Duncan, that there is a divine self. And I too can understand the frustration of interacting with people who don't really care about spirituality. But I also understand that's not everyone's path and they can still be beautiful people inside. Also we can't all just live in a zoomed out perspective all the time and ignore what is happening in world.

And of course he wanted someone to make a post like this because he's edgelording and you get nothing as an edgelord if you don't get a reaction.

Why? Because Roberson simply has free vacuuming after the car wash like most other states and large cities. Nobody carries quarters on them anymore and nobody likes stressing out on the time limits.

Second day back to work, overall the tiredness has seem to have been lifted somewhat. Definitely not feeling a glow like many others have described on Day 5. Music doesn't sound that amazing. Feelings are still dulled. However, I'm still very much constipated and I remembered someone saying that the breakthrough doesn't really happen until the GI issues are cleared up.

I have to admit I made a stupid mistake the other night. I had a few bowel movements and each one was getting looser and looser, so I had the bright idea that maybe taking some Metamucil would help my gut out. After all, it has been so used to the fiber of toss and wash for 8 years, surely I should drink some more fiber to help my gut adjust, right? Well ever since I drank that Metamucil I have been backed up.

I think tonight I'm going to try drinking some Smooth Move Tea and hopefully I can have a decent bowel movement before work tomorrow, because being backed up makes the fatigue of this withdrawal ten times worse than it has to be.

So today I went back to work and I think other than the fact that I was constipated and backed up and being lethargic it was mostly a mild day symptom-wise. Honestly, I think me being constipated really took center stage of me noticing any other symptoms. I may have to stop taking the 2mg loperamide at night, even though it helped immensely with the RLS. At this point going to the bathroom might be worth a night's sleep lost to RLS.

I've seen other reports on here that the worst of it was days 1-2, and from then on it was mostly the pain of mental and physical apathy and lack of energy. Then again there are reports that days 4-5 are the worst, so I'm still not sure which camp I'm in. I'm back at work tomorrow so we'll see how that goes.

So last night I decided to not take the clonidine as I still felt the dose of the previous night (apparently the half life of clonidine is pretty crazy) and I didn't want to overdo it. Besides it didn't really help with the full body RLS anyways, which I was mostly concerned about. However I did manage to get a 100mg gabapentin prescription from QuickMD on Day 2 so I chose to take that instead. It did help relax me, but did not even touch the full body RLS.

So I took a Hylands Restless Leg remedy (homeopathic) and it didn't help either, though it did help the first night.

I remembered someone one here saying that immodium (loperamide) could help with RLS. I was trying to save the immodium for when I really had bad stomach troubles, but I decided to take 2mg anyways. And you know, within 20 minutes I felt a major reduction in RLS. It was like my gut was saying THANK YOU. I had no idea that the gut and RLS were so connected.

Anyways, I managed to get a few hours of solid/interrupted sleep, which I'm grateful for.

So far Day 3 has been minimal in withdrawal symptoms, but really lacking any excitement or motivation. I can see now what people mean about the emotional withdrawal symptoms that can occur on days 3 and beyond.

Well if anything major changes today I'll update this post, but I'm back to work for the next four days tomorrow, so I hope it doesn't get too much more difficult.

TL;DR: 2mg loperamide really helped the full body RLS and helped me sleep, though I did also take 100mg gabapentin. However, only after taking the 2mg loperamide did I actually feel relaxed enough to sleep.

When I quit cigarettes years ago, one thing that really helped me out was seeing this infographic that had early milestones like “lung function improves after 36 hours" etc.

So to help me out I went through this subreddit and gathered benefits people notice that come from quitting kratom within the first week. Hopefully this is helpful to anyone.

• 24-48 hours:

  • This one is kind of a minor "win", but still worth mentioning: A clear sense of pride and mental space from making the decision

  • Freedom from the dosing loop. Just not having to think “when’s my next dose?” starts to free up mental space.

• Day 3–4:

  • Mental clarity flickers back. Thoughts feel less foggy and more “yourself” again, even while physically uncomfortable.

• Music and emotions start returning. People specifically say that within the first few days to a week, music sounds richer and emotions feel less numb.

-Day 6–7:

• Mood feels more natural. Instead of the kratom‑driven ups and crashes, emotions start feeling more like “just me,” even if there are still rough patches.

• Libido and interest in intimacy begin to return. Some notice this surprisingly early, once kratom is no longer dulling drive and sensation.

Please feel free to add any other benefits you noticed and I will update this post!

So I've had this trip planned out for a year now with my wife, but just recently I've discovered that kratom is really holding me back. Before I thought my problems were from other sources, like somatic pains from my anxiety/depression, my diet, or my poor sleep quality. Basically I tried every other solution under the sun before I realized it was kratom.

All it took was a short break for half a day to realize how numb my body was. It was annoying and I definitely went into withdrawals, but at least I felt a flicker of emotions for the first time in years. That's when I realized I can't go on any longer.

So anyways, I've been tapering by 50% (going from 15GPD to 7GPD) and my jump off point is already planned. I would have loved to do it sooner, but work and other family activities made that too difficult.

In about a week I'll be going CT. I already got a clonidine prescription and I have stocked up on other OTC meds and supplements as needed. So from the CT day to the day I go on our trip it will be 15 days. I know I'll still be feeling like crap because it's not that out of the window, but at least I'll be feeling.

I've read a few stories here and there about someone realizing their high daily dose was causing problems and they found that lowering their daily dose helped relieve them of constipation, insomnia, libido, etc. I was wondering what other's experiences have been.

I've had so many weird health issues after kratom became a problem, and I wasn't too surprised that constipation was associated with it. But I wonder if anyone had a strange health issue they couldn't figure out until they stopped using kratom.

Meaning, not already taking SSRIs, but specifically starting an SSRI only for the purpose of mitigating the anxiety/sleep symptoms of withdrawal. What made me think of this is I used to take Zoloft years ago, and I remembered it would severely dampen the effects of any recreational drug. I'm wondering if there is any data or experience to suggest it would help with the 5 days or so of an opiate or kratom withdrawal (though I know kratom and opiate WD are two different worlds).

I told myself I would quit kratom as soon as I healed my depression. I never stopped going to therapy this entire time. I really really wanted to dive into the depths of my shadows and feel all my feelings...whatever I needed to do to heal myself from this depression. But it's been 8 years and I'm still depressed. But hey, life requires you to go to work and pay bills, so daily kratom it is.

So it just recently occurred to me that while kratom isn't the cause of my depression, it probably isn't helping me. In reality it's probably adding an unnecessary barrier to my feelings.

And the one that sealed the decision for me is for the last two years I have been dealing with chronic constipation. I didn't attribute it to kratom because I had been using it for 6 years prior with no constipation issues. So the other day I was particularly backed up. I could feel it in my stomach. Basically I had no desire to go. It wasn't like I couldn't go to the bathroom, I just didn't need to. So I thought of an expirement. I would delay my first dose of the day by two hours and see if I noticed any changes. I kid you not, the first hour that passed after missing the first dose I immediately had the urge to go to the bathroom where I had a very healthy bowel movement.

And I had the realization, my daily kratom use really is numbing me. So much that I didn't even think it was. And if it's making healing my depression any more difficult than it has to be, well it has to go. I'm ready.

Basically I have been using David Burns CBT for over 15 years now and it has pulled me out of the greatest pits of mental despair. However, I will say I have found the "walls" so to speak. Meaning, there are some problems I keep running in circles around with Burns CBT. I have heard on this sub "acceptance therapy" being mentioned frequently. Are there any books that you recommend that explores this version of CBT?

I haven't been able to find anything confirming it online. I just heard David Burns on the latest Feeling Good podcast make a passing comment that they are going to have to discontinue the app as a project. Maybe he was talking about having to discontinue the free program?

So I've been working on a scene for like 8 years now. You would think the scene was me surviving a plane crash or something. But no, it's just a situation where I accidentally made someone angry and they SLIGHTLY raised their voice at me. Not even anger really, just an increase in tone.

CBT brothers and sisters, I have been twisted up in a pretzel of guilt and shame over this for eight years. And JUST RECENTLY I've been able to even come up with the beliefs that were happening during those few seconds.

Well I'm grateful to be making some progress at all, but still it's difficult to not hold some resentment to myself that I couldn't figure this out earlier.

In other words, being in a reality or state of mind that is separate from normal reality, but not being invisible (you see everyone and everyone sees you). So the protagonist has to play along in a way to not bring up suspicion that they are in another reality.

I know, I know, this sounds too specific...

Another way to describe it is if you've seen the movie TENET, where the protagonist enters a "backwards" reality where time is reversed, but it's alongside normal reality. I just loved that concept so much I was wondering if there was anything else like it out there.

Examples include Saw 2 (when the SWAT team closes is on Jigsaw) The Devil's Rejects, The Dark Knight (when Joker is in jail), and Dark Knight Rises (opening scene).

Apprantly I can't get enough of this schtick.